About a week ago i posted describing all these weird 'itchy ovaries' sensation I was having leading upto my second period after a D&C. Weird itchy feeling and strange feeling in the uterus region but not like any period cramps I have had before.
Nothing felt like it did when i found out i was pregnant before the miscarriage.
I did a test - negative. 4 days later I did another test - POSITIVE. very faint but there. I did another test 2 days later to be REALLY sure - POSITIVE !!!!
Freaking out right now because
- petrified i will miscarry again
- i have no pregnancy symptoms and the last time I had lots
- going to the doctor tomorrow and petrified he will tell me I am not pregnant and that my body was lying to me
- petrified i will miscarry again
- i really want to enjoy this experience of being pregnant but am too scared in case something goes wrong
Just needed to have a bit of a crazy rant as I feel like I am about to burst with either over the top anxiety or blissful happiness.
I really want to be pregnant and to give birth to a healthy baby
Congratulations on getting the strong BFP
It is very normal to be scared when you fall pregnant again after a loss. Everyone can say try and relax but easier said then done. Just take it one day at a time and think of some positives everytime the fear creeps in. Goodluck at the Doctors and with your pregnancy
All the best CT - I just got my first bfp and don't have any symptoms either, so hopefully that is not a bad sign for either of us! I am freaking out over everything too! I hope you get some confirmation soon
Congratulations on the pg! And no, your body isnt lying to you. Its normal not to have many (if any) symptoms this early on.
Its also normal to feel scared and have moments of complete and utter fear along side excitedness and positivity. I have been a wreck during this pg. I convinced myself (to the point of crying) that I lost the baby so many times during this pg already. Its all part of the fun of pg after m/c
I am not doing well at keeping the anxiety at bay!! I have been awake most of the night ! ppffftttt !
Its 5am here and I have been awake for AGES ! I keep thinking about how I can move back home and find a job to help support us when I obviously will not get a full time job if I am pregnant. I guess that is a normal fear. money.
DiamondGirl - you sound exactly like me. I think about things too much. to the point were I fall apart and I am convinced something terrible has gone wrong!! I am going to do my best to retrain my brain (which may be harder than I think with hormones taking over my body)
Stephie - whats your due date ?? So excited for you first BFP
Anyway, we will know more today, hopefully. fingers crossed.
It's so hard not to stress after having a loss. I lost my first baby and now get very anxious at the beginnings of all my pregnancies. This pregnancy I was convinced I had lost the baby because I had some slight pinkish mucus at 6 weeks even though I had strong morning sickness. It was exactly the same as what happened when I lost my first baby, so I was terrified at my first Ob visit when he did the scan. I almost cried when he initially couldn't even find the baby on the external ultrasound, but I have a retroverted uterus which makes things hard to see early on, and an internal scan showed both the baby and a nice strong heartbeat, phew!
But I'll always be sad that I never got a blissfully ignorant type of pregnancy where you don't expect something to go wrong at every turn. I remember that very first Ob appointment with my first pregnancy, and it never even crossed our minds that the baby might not be ok. We were so blissfully ignorant and it all fell apart and unfortunately you can never get back to that, and will always think about "what if". The good news is that even though you stress about things, you can still enjoy and appreciate the miracle of life growing in your womb
Congratulations on your BFP hun thats really great.
Another here who knows how difficult it can be relaxing during pregnancy after loss. Honestly there is no sure fire cure for this type of anxiety. You just keep yourself positive and healthy. You could try deep breathing etc when you're finding yourself getting wound up.
I know exactly what you are feeling hun, I lost my first at 5 weeks and ever since finding out I am pregnant again I am so afraid of losing this one too... Just take every day as it comes, I am 5 weeks tomorrow and have no symptoms yet but my hcg is increasing so I am trying to be positive.
Keep telling yourself "why wouldn't this one work out, I deserve this" sometimes it helps me through my worries.
Going through the same thing - had ultrasound today was told I am only 5w4d - my ticker says otherwise as does my cycle... The more I think about what could happen the more out of control I feel... Breath and take one day at a time, my wonderful DF just hugs me and tells me he loves me and what will happen will happen, that we cant change things, but just hope that everything turns ok for the best...
I think the fact that you just breathing and taking it all is a damn good job so far... It is scary, either way you look at it, its scary. Really hope you stay lots of sticky vibes being sent your way.... xxx
Mylitta - I feel the same way ! I am really pee-d off that I have lost that blissful ignorance. I have been waiting so long and life has thrown curves balls in my love life right when I was supposed to be moving into the next phase of life. Pretty much everyone I know has children. Losing the first baby sent me into a spin !! I started off ok after the D & C but just turned into a complete babbling idiot a few weeks later. I thought that it was all over and I would never be blessed with a baby and would end up with no husband as well. I wont go into the psychotic workings of my brain here, I am just very grateful we concieved again.
Stephie - after my scan today he said I was between 25-30 days along. He prescibed Progesterone and corasprin for me to take to help prevent miscarriage and I am due for another scan in 20 days to look for a heartbeat. They dont give alot of information here. I am not sure if its a bad thing. I dont want to over analyse every little detail. Just going to have to wait it out. Nothing else I can do. Sleep may be an issue though
Hope.Positive.Love , Mykidsrthefurrykind, NaeNae, Mylitta, Stephie, Diamond Girl , Tegam, Kazzo, OneLittlePrincess - I am committing to sending out positive vibes to all of you every night before I sleep. A united front if you like.
Will keep you updated with the next scan and fingers crossed it all goes according to plan.
ok....this whole pregnancy thing is weird
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