Hey Guys,
Well I had my scan today and all was well with the baby except my cervix was short, and dynamic, varied from 1.5 to 1.1cm I went straight up to see our OB and have progesterone pessaries and may get a stitch on Monday. It is just sinking in. My last pregnancy went to 42 weeks and I was slow to dilate. Very slow. I have adenomyosis though now (from having endo getting into the womb muscle itself during pregnancy) which I am told can cause contractions which cause the short cervix. I feel stressed and sad and exhausted. At first, I was so calm, and confident and now - and I suppose it is my fault for looking online and seeing people's stories - I feel really bad. I am on "take it easy" mode over the weekend, rather than bedrest. I have felt so confident in this pregnancy and now I feel like it's just a repeat of the past. Something on a scan, followed by disaster. I am a very sensitive person who feels things very deeply and I do have a worrying mode which is my default, though I am working on it. Now my DH is home from his work "helping" with my DD which for them is fighting and breaking down in tears every 10 minutes.
I haven't told anyone, but I need to cancel a few things now at the start of the week and quite possibly my trip to Brisbane which I had booked in for myself as a "last" treat for next weekend.
I had imagined this healthy big baby and this long pregnancy with all the time in the world. I want to be up to this challenge and take it as gently and peacefully as I can. But I am feeling so overwhelmed right now.
All the best to everyone in here,
WW
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