Mimi3 ...congrats. Good luck at your app. Does it get easier ? Yes and no. For me having an early m/c at 8 weeks... I found I was much better after I'd passed that gestation. But about that same time in my 1st preg after loss my bro had a near fatal car accident and I watched my mum with him and realized a mother worries all her life even when her baby is an adult with his own kids. It made it easier for me knowing that, that I could obsess and worry and never enjoy my pregnancy because of the what it's or I could try and do my best to control the things I could....ie me. It was an awesome feeling to let go of that fear and genuinely enjoy the rest of that pregnancy...a whole 14 more weeks of it. Sadly that pregnancy and the next one ended with heartache and 3 babies I didn't bring home, for different reasons. So my 3 pregnancies since then? Honestly looking back? Harrowing, anxiety ridden, ominious sense of foreboding, no hope in actually believing I could bring a baby home. So the best I can do? Ride the waves of terror and moments of less terror. Make sure you have supportive people around you who will try to understand, including Drs/middies, and I would try and live in each moment....right now I am pregnant, and whilst that can change, right now I am and I believe.

So on that note...right now I am pleased to announce I am still pregnant. 27+ 2. I was admitted to hospital last night for suspected rupture of membranes after a gush of clear fluid. So loads of tests and a 2 hour ultrasound the consensus is likely a hind water leak, no infection evident, cervix is 3.8cm, no funelling of cervix no dilation evident, fluid level awesome at an afi of 15, baby doing well, the tightenings did not develop into contractions.....I might get to go home tomorrow! I have had steroid done for baby's lungs, iv antibiotics, nfedipine to ease contractions. So all looking good, esp compared to last night, where I anticipated to be transferred to a hospital with a NICU and be in pre term labour. So this baby is a cat.