Sunbeam - i am so sad to read your news. You have a fantastic attitude though and I am glad to hear you are not giving up. i hope to see you back in this thread quickly and that the next one will be a sticky baby.
Sparkles - I know how scary the spotting can be, I hope all goes well!
Smallfry - Sorry i can't seem to get used to calling you anything but smallfry. Sorry to hear you're blood pressure is creeping up. At least you are full term and I hope if you do need to be induced all goes well.
kirsten - I think we all have days like those. I have them too but so far all is well. Symptoms seem to come and go and MS does tend to taper off (I had 3 weeks where I felt ok and am back to being sick again). At 18 weeks I STILL check for blood every single time i go to the loo. With our history it's hard not to worry. Unless you are having cramping and bleeding though I wouldn't stress too much, I bet all is just fine with baby. I hope all goes well at your OB appt and that you get some reassuring news.
I'm just plodding along, still spotting ever so lightly, but just have a gut feeling things aren't going well, i know only time will tell, so just hanging in there day by day. I seem to have a break down each night as i hop into bed cause i dread what i may wake up to in the morning. sorry to be all doom & gloom xx
just a quickie - blood test results came back with low platelets and BP was up again from yesterday's highest reading so ob has said we induce this afternoon. Heading off in a few minutes to do exactly that.
twinsis - I answer to anything
kirsten - symptoms come and go, I for one had virtually no breast pain and morningsickness came and went but was worse at night. I hope you can hold out til Friday and am sure everything will be really good for you xox try hard not to stress, it will make baby much happier!
Good luck all and will be back in a few days to let you know the outcome!!
LittleOne - sending you lots of easy labour vibes. I hope it all goes well. Let us know how you and bub are when you can
Kirsten - I understand the anxiety and fear, the frustration of not knowing what's going on and trying to prepare yourself for the worst. I wish I could assure you it gets better, but I think it's temporary tbh. Even though we saw bub on Friday and we're further along than last pg, there's an insidious voice in my head telling me I can never be sure, how would I know, etc. I also had days when symptoms disappeared, which had me extremely stressed and reliving our loss. I never got m/s, so there was never many symptoms to rely on anyway. I hope everything goes well on Friday and you see bub h/b. I can't remember how far along you are, sorry.
Sparkles - it's so hard to stay positive when it feels like you're body is telling you things are bad.... I don't know if hearing about others spotting and everything being OK helps or not. It is normal. Can you get a couple of blood tests to see if hcg is OK? I ended up going to the Early Pregnancy Centre at the Royal Womens after spotting for a week. They gave me a scan & I was positive it would be bad news, but everything was OK (it gave me about 5 days relief before I started panicking again) I also discovered that my anxiety was pushing my blood pressure up to dangerous levels, which isn't good for Mum & bub. As my midwife kept telling me, worrying won't change the outcome. Try to meditate or do positive affirmations if it can help you stay calm. Get tests and scans if it helps you stay calm.
I hope everyone else is well.
I'm OK, just still very tired all the time. I'm trying to increase my exercise. I'd kind of stopped in fear of hurting bub, so want to get back into it. It should also help with the fatigue and stress. Today my GP perscribed relaxation CDs She wants me to do them to reduce the level of cortisol I'm producing from being anxious all the time. I've discoverd no matter what the scan etc says, I only get a few days relief before the "what ifs" start again (what if we still lose the baby, what if there turns out to be something wrong?) something I'm just going to have to manage.
The other thing is now I actually realise we may have a baby in 6 months Now what am I supposed to do? What's all this stuff they need? How will we manage on 1 income? Will I lose my identity, my self-confidence when I'm not working? I don't do sleep deprivation. What if I don't cope?....etc, etc. so it turns out I'm a worrier, no matter if things are going well or not. So I think I WILL get those CDs
Littleones - Good luck and can't wait to hear from you xx
Tashybabe - Thanks for your thoughts, i only had a scan on friday(after spotting) which showed bub at right dates and with good HB. I would prefer scans to bloods so if spotting continues this week i am to call my Ob on friday and he wants another scan, otherwise i see him friday week. I am trying to stay as calm as i can which is just sooo hard at times!!! In saying that i have just realised the sun is out after 4 days of rain so i am going to go and get some vitamin d!!
Sunbeam - blossom - that's the spirit. Of bad news, that the pg doesn't seem ectopic is good news? Still doesn't take away the pain of what you are going through right now.
Tashybabe- I hear you sis, but, pause, take a deep breath in and exhale slowly. I reckon being a parent is the definition of worry. I so totally understand your thought processes cause I have them too. I reckon we are both normal ( or nutters, but deliciously so). My advice? Don't discount your worry, but face it, and consider it ( or embrace it) and if there is something you can't shake, then try to think of some strategies to help you through. I reckon finding a way to live with the anxiety is key, else it will conquer us.
Littles ones! I was worried when I read your BP was high, and glad you're going in to hosp. Can't wait to hear how things go. Thanks for taking the time to let us know before you disappeared for a while.
Sparkles - oh blossom. There are no words. Take care and just think, one day at a time.
Better go and get dinner. DH just home and I am starving. Better eat before I puke.
something I'm just going to have to manage. 
Now what am I supposed to do? What's all this stuff they need? How will we manage on 1 income? Will I lose my identity, my self-confidence when I'm not working? I don't do sleep deprivation. What if I don't cope?....etc, etc. so it turns out I'm a worrier, no matter if things are going well or not. So I think I WILL get those CDs 
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