I just wanteds to start the week off by saying I am thinking of you all and sending big belly rubs -

Mo4 - No way I could wait that long, but I do understand. Imagine being one of those women who "discover" you are pregnant at 20 weeks - the good thing about that? Only 20 weeks tops of worry!

Audax - how are you doing? Has your fear peaked and now coming down? I hope so. I agree that its not always entirely reassuring, but its just practice.... I am lucky that my Ob has helped me learn to savour the moment. The look of just pure delight on his face when he hears the heartbeat( or comments on the emerging bump or the fundus height) is just infectious, and often enough to overcome my numbness and fear so I too can feel the hope. Bless that man. It doesn't take way the fear or anxiety, but in that moment, there is some peace and there is hope. I think in this journey, for me to stay sane, I have to try and grab the better moments with both hands and refuse to let them go. Big hugs.

Laney - are you in here? Are you ok?

Milly5 - I just love watching your ticker..... I hope you've stopped scaring yourself!

Milly d - I am so proud of you, that you come in here, I know it must be hard. It's always nice to hear from you and you seem to have such a good way with words.

EliseLousie- how are you doing? 22 weeks! Awesome!

Tash - how are you doing? Bugger that work has cut off BB..... look forward to hearing from you when you do get access.

Maddison - how are you doing? 35 weeks now..... not long now. How was your scan? How was that ALL DAY ante natal class?

AFM - had a pretty anxious Friday and weekend. Didn't think I was feeling bubs move as much as usual, had some changes to my pregnancy symptoms. Tried to reassure myself with getting the cats to stand on my chest ( I know sounds weird), but ultimately it was my feeling bubs again that took the edge off and stopped me sliding down the precipice.

Feeling much better now and feeling a bit like a "survivor" after the weekend. Amazed and proud I made it through, but feeling a bit battered. Luckily today is a good day.

Hmm about the cat thing? I just have to explain. One of my furbabies loves to lie on my chest when I am lying down on my back. When he moves he just puts those little furry paws of his indiscriminately over my chest. Ok if I am not pregnant but pretty painful if I am. So somtimes if I am feeling anxious, I tempt him over for a cuddle and hope like hell it's going to hurt. Usually it does, so I guess we both win.