Forshelby-You are not a bad mother this is what happens when you have a baby it take s a while to settle them into a routine and with FF bubs it can take a few different ones until you find what suits bub best MARINA'S INFANT MIXTURE from the chemits it is a natural peppermint mixture for lower abdominal pain and colic it was on a current affair i started using it and ella burps at the drop of a hat now i love love love it and she is sleeping so much better on it.
And i dont know if ella is lactose intolerant or not but the formulas that have more casin in them seem to be harder on her belly and they build up in the gut and cause gas and colic NAN HA gold is 100% whey protein which is gentle on the belly and was good but ella was hungry on it and still a little windy so lactose free was the next step which is thicker and fills her more but without the lactose to build gas so now we have decided to put her on novalac colic as she is still moaning and groaning in her sleep and very restless she is asleep and only wakes once during the night and then at 6-7 in the morning but keeps me awake with her uncomfortable noises.
try a different formula go for one gentler on the belly and give it a few days to see how it goes and the Marina's infant mixture give before every bottle and the wind should come up easier and it can be given up to 8 times a day.
It has taken us 2 weeks of trying new formulas and different things to work out what is working and what isnt Ella loves a hot wheat pack wrapped in a blanket we put her on her belly on the lounge it will settle her if she is having pain before.
And bubs can feel your tension i know its hard try to keep calm and just remember crying doesnt hurt them so you dont kneed to hold him all the time sometimes bubs need to grumble and have a little cry they learn to self sooth that way.
Of course dont let him get worked up and to upset.

Honestly hun take a deep breath it will get better you just need to do what you can and try to sleep when he does.
And us experienced 4 time mum's have unsettled babies to.

Congratz kellbell a little boy how sweet.