Pregnancy after Miscarriage or Loss ~ January 2011

Hi my long lost friends!!!
Do u all even remember me??! Gosh i have been so super slack posting its not even funny.. i dont even have any good excuse why i havent been!

Welcome to the newbies... Woohoo this year is pumping with bfps!!! So exciting!!

Im going to be super slack and not even try and do persies.. i dont think i wld know where to start, once i get back into the groove of this thread i promise i will be more of a loyal poster!

Ive been alright, just plodding along, we bought a new little puppy last weekend so hes been keeping us very busy.. i forgot how hard toilet training was!! Our little nala girl was around 9-10 weeks old when we got her and we didnt even have to train her but this little one was only 7 weeks, its such a constant thing taking him out onto the grass. He is very beautiful tho and has definitely helped to bring the smile back onto our faces after losing our girl. Still miss her so much but hey i think we always will.

Pregnancy wise i am doing great! :) Still getting bh's all the time but i just know that its a sign that ive gotta lay down and relax!
Ive started getting a bit paranoid that im going to go into labour early and ive set myself a kinda goal.. ive just gotta get thru the next 6 weeks and it wont be so bad if i do. Im so silly i know.. theres been no reason to think ill go early but i guess its just one of those little fears that pops up!

In the last 2 weeks my tummy has really popped! Finally i cant suck it in at all, and i look pregnant in all my clothes.. yay! It bloody took long enough! Im loving my tummy! Annoying thing is we did some gardening today and i thought oh great time to get some sun on my tum! Well i just noticed tonight that my tummy is red but only the top half above my belly button and then all the area under is white because the sun obviously cldnt get under the bump.. bugger! It looks a bit funny..

Oh i have one little problem.. i cant stop weeing!! I constantly feel like i need to go but then its just a little trickle. I know it sounds like the start of a urinary tract infection except ive been like this for about a week now with no other symptoms.. could it just be that baby is getting bigger and pushing on my bladder???
Its driving me insane! Has anyone else noticed this around the 6 month mark?? Maybe ive gotta start on some pelvic floor exercises! Altho i can hold in the wee its just so uncomfortable especially when sleeping!

Anyway i better jump off, will be back in the next couple days to do some persies! Sorry again for being so slack.

xxxx

Kirsten - I had the sme thing happen to me with a missed m/c! We thought everything was fine and it was such an horrific shock at our 12wk scan to see a tiny bub with no heartbeart... still breaks me thinking about how i felt at that moment... it was awful and im so sorry to hear you went thru it too! I had the same fear that it would happen to this bub too and was petrified at every scan we had! We had them regularly with this pregnancy thank god - i would have gone insane without them! We also hired a doppler this time and we starting hearing the h/b at 10wks - so great, everytime i have an anxious moment i use it and feel so good after!!!

Reet - So happy to hear you got a new pup! I was gunna suggest that to you! Will never replace your Nala but certainly eases the pain! Enjoy the puppyness!! I just love that puppy breath!!! Too cute! What breed is he?

You ladies are the best. Thanks so much for all your kind words as well as your stories about your own experiences of cramping and bleeding. It really helped me to hear some good news experiences. It helps me to feel hopeful that something good could still happen.

Dory: i didn't realise you'd had such bad bleeds with Hannah's pg. (I think i joined BB when you were about 7wks pg with her). It is always inspiring to know that not all scares (even bad ones) end in disaster.
T-hopes: It really helps to hear that you had a lot of AF type cramping first trimester. I know you said this at the time but it helps to be reminded. Thanks so much for all your support. I hope everything goes wonderfully at your scan tomorrow.
Mildez: thank you for your kind words.
Ferrals: Thanks hun. You gave me a good laugh with the advice you gave Forshelby on how not to 'rip your bum in half'!!!
Damprye: thank you. HOpe your spotting is also nothing to worry about.
Kirstenfleur: I'm with you! Can't wait to get past that 1st trimester scan. Mine is booked for the 16th Feb. (But first i need to get through my scan on Wednesday...)
Alish: Welcome to the thread. So hoping this is a good sticky bub for you this time.
Forshelby: Hope the iron helps (and the sultana bran!)

AFM: No more red blood since yesterday arvo and barely any blood at all today- tiny bit of brown staining when i wipe. Praying ferrals is right and it's somehow just bubs snuggling in. I had a small bleed (similar) with DD about 5.5 wks and all turned out ok. I was trying to picture myself and DH holding this baby in our arms and saying to one another: "Hey remember when we had that bleed at about 6wks and we thought it was all over? And look at us now." Wouldn't that be great?

Hello ladies,

Somehow I got left behind! I've found you all now but will catch up tomorrow.

Welcome and congratulations to all the newbies!

Xx

Reet-I have been like that from about 16 weeks until just recently i had to go to the loo at least every hour or i would be so uncomfortable and yes its just a trickle but that has nothing to do with your pelvic floor if you can hold it and its just uncomfortable thats just having a bub sitting on your bladder its when you dribble or leak urine from laughing coughing or lifting heavy things that is a sign of a weak pelvic floor.
And as hard as it is losing a loved fur baby i have found buying another one really helps you cope with the loss and move on i love giving new furbabies a great home i always think do they know how spoilt they are!

Stoked-lol its not hard to get left behind in here we all talk a lot and the pages seem to go slow then all of a sudden you are 3-4 pages behind so a lot of catching up if you have been away for a few days.

Kirsten-we all have our safe stage we want to reach and it does help but once you have lost a baby and hear others stories of loss it is very hard to believe that you are safe even until the end i am 28 weeks and still have this niggling worry my little miss wont make it of course i know i am being silly but i just cant help it because after what i have been through it all feels to good to be true.

Alish-welcome to the thread i hope this little bub is your take home baby.

Damprye-How are you doing? i hope all is well.

AFM-nothing much to report just waiting for my GD test on friday then 3 weeks after that i have my u/s to see what this placenta is doing and if it's still covering the os then book my date for my c section OMG! that will be in about 9 weeks.

Ferrals - :rofl: Ripping your bum in half..... hahaha. I'm pretty sure that's what my dr prescribed me, 'ferro'.... but to check that would mean getting up so you know where this sentence is going. LOL. My stockings are for fluid retention. I didn't realise it but even my legs are swollen. (I guess that's good news, it means I'm not as fat as I thought!) Are you doing the 1hr GTT? I'm going to go in and have mine done next Monday. Hopefully the iron will have had a chance to kick in by then so it might be easier to get through if I'm not feeling so tired and weak. If you do have to have a cs, you'll have your baby before me! :) That is unless I go early. Hehehehe, how exciting!

Alish - CONGRATULATIONS and welcome :) Will you be having an early scan or repeat HCGs or anything like that? Just curious. Yay for a 2011 baby for you :)

Damprye - Sorry, can't hear you for all the crunching of my fibre rich cereal.... lol. About the sore bbs, YES I had this symptom during my first pg. I remember telling DP he had the shower on too 'hard' and cringing when it hit my nipples. (hey, we like to save water, lol). His response was 'are you sure you aren't pregnant?' Turns out I was. It's a good sign that you still feel sick and your bbs are still really sore, all of that diminished and disappeared for me when I had my mc. Do you have any cramping pain or clotting? I have my FX for you.

Dory - I did wear my thongs with my sexy legwear in fact, they're the only shoes I can get my feet in these days. *sigh* I'll definitely wear my stockings as a 'conversation piece' for my GTT, and definitely take a good book to keep me occupied. IKWYM about anaemia making you tired.... I was so exhausted I could barely stand up to cook dinner last night. I told DP I was tired, and he said 'Well go to bed, Sweetie.' I asked what about dinner. He said 'Cook dinner first then' and tried not to smirk. What a cheeky bugger he is! I couldn't help but laugh. And don't feel like you need to leave any time soon, we'd all miss you too much! You're like our pregnancy oracle. :hug:

Kirsten - :hug: that must have been so hard. I still feel a little bit nervous every time the doppler comes out and they start hunting for a hb. It never takes long but I'm always a bit edgy. Even though baby has been kicking the c*** out of me, I still get nervous.

Reet - Welcome back! I hope you had fun camping, and congrats on the cute new puppy. I'll be stalking for pictures now of course. You poor thing, a sunburnt tummy is never fun. I have that frequent peeing going on.... mostly at night time. I always go to the toilet before bed, hoping to get as many hours sleep as possible, but now I'm up again at least once before I can even fall asleep with that uncomfortable 'busting' feeling....... but then there's barely anything to ah, release. LOL. It's frustrating! So I'm up about 3 times during the night just to pee. I think it's all pretty normal for where we're at.

Possum - Visualising the end result is a GREAT way to calm yourself. As they say, eyes on the prize! When will you hear from your dr/ have more tests done?? I have everything crossed for you.

AFM - My lower back and knees are so sore lately.... ughhh. I think carrying this load is starting to really wear on my poor body. Apart from that though everything is pretty good. I feel like I could go to sleep again and I only got up at 9.30 though. I have to find the energy to get out and get those iron pills.

Forshelby-thats the way to look at it fluid not fat i will have to tell myself the same thing i know my legs are holding fluid by my really bad sock indents after i finish work.
And if i have a c section it will be at 37 or 38 weeks so more than likely the same week you have your bub i am hoping for 37 weeks my last son came at 37 weeks and i dont want to go into labour and risk hemorage.

I am off to work for a 10 hour shift yukkkkkkkkkkkk! come feb 13th my last day bring it on.

Ferrals - Oh how exciting we could be having our babies at the same time. :) Sounds like you've got a good plan in place. Ew for the 10hr shift....... just ew! Oh and Feb 13 is my birthday, so we can celebrate for two reasons! :)

hi forshelby
living rural has its set backs... my midwife visit isnt until 11 feb and then the doctor one isnt until march.. so i had a bit of a talk to the midwife and explained my history and she has booked me in for an internal ultrasound 14th jan.. i just didnt want to be 10 weeks having my midwife visit if something has gone wrong.. they are pretty good to me but im very very anxious this time..
my first blood test will be on friday.. if something bad happens this time ill end up in the loony bin

forshelby....i hope u have a fantastic bday then

ferrals.....not long then...

Stoked...hope ur doing well

possum.....i have had on and off brown bleeding with this bub and everything seems to be ok....so hopefully things r ok with u

reet.....hey....hope ur doing better now...

Kirsten and alish........congratulations...wish u all the best...

Hey dory....thopes and everyone else

atm..........has anyone felt there baby moving at 12 weeks........with my dd i was 21 weeks...........last night i was laying down and rubbing my belly and i swear i could feel something.....it felt like bubbles again.....like gas but i didnt need to go lol.........i swear it was the baby....ill see if it happens tonight......and then today i felt like something was in my ribs............is this at all possible this early? I have booked my scan in for the 10th so ill be 13 weeks..........im heaps smaller this time...i dont feel like eating heaps....dont feel like chocolate....or coffee.....or anything really........nothing satisfys me......the only thing i feel like is mixed fruits and boost juice......im just thirsty all the time

Alish - That's great news that you can get an early scan, it really set my mind at ease seeing a hb at 7 weeks. Until then, hang in there! :)

Melster - I thought I felt some flutters at around the 15wk mark..... but definitely no rib action until a couple of weeks ago. Bubby is still down under your pubic bone right now so the rib feeling was possibly indigestion??? Not sure. IKWYM about the nothing being satisfying thing... I have random cravings I can't pinpoint and it's horrible wanting something but having no idea what, LOL. And a big YAY for 12wks!

well last time bubba had died at 6/7 weeks so there was no heartbeat then.. we hoped that we had got the dates wrong and waited til 8 weeks and still nothing so im even worried about getting an internal at 6 weeks then having til wait til march.. :(

Melster I felt this bub move for the first time at 10wks5days. If it didn't happen to me I wouldn't have believed it possible. Its bub no3 for me (preg 6) No1 I felt at 19weeks to the day and No2 just over 15weeks. They were definate kicks and wiggles then where as this bub was like little bubbles popping for the first week or two (didn't have that sensation with the other 2) The first time I felt it I stopped in my tracks and felt it another 3times. The worst of feeling it so early is I'd then go for days with nothing and that didn't help the anxiety. My placenta is posterior this time. I also have a nerve condition (the nerve coverings are damaged so I feel things differently. Even a light touch can be painful) so I wonder if my neuropathy made me feel this bub so soon as I haven't gone into remission this pregnancy (I did with the last)

Ferrals I hope that 10hr shift is speeding by. I've just finished my block of shifts nearly killed me and have 2 wonderful days off. Back on Friday to do it all again.

Dory thanks for asking about me. I'm going great. Feeling fabulous except for down below (got those horrid veins happening in the wrong place) anxiety is nasty still but I figure I probably can't do much about that especially when alot of it is related to my job. I love been pregnant its the best just a shame about the anxiety. Despite my fears DH and I are going so well. We were having alot of trouble with infertility causing arguments etc but since this little one came along thats all vanished so I'm so glad to report we are better then ever now! Can't believe your gorgeous Hannah Bear is 3months old now. Where has the time gone?

Tegam not sure if I said it before but huge CONGRATLATIONS on Molly's arrival.

Alish can you have a private scan a few weeks after your first one? I got a lady from work to scan me at 12weeks (I had a scan at 4,5,6 (thought ectopic) and again at 10weeks) I was a mess up until about 15weeks.

mildez, yeah i guess i can do that, i never thought of that, my gyno is pretty good, the last time i was preg he made me come in every couple of weeks so i might just tee it up with him, if not, my doctor in lakes might help me out, thanks!

Hi girls - just calling in to let you know my on appt went great today! He did a scan for us so we got to say hello to bubs! AND the baby gave us a thumbs up!!:thumbsup: It was so cool! My doc got a pic of it!! He said the baby must have been about to suck its thumb and he snapped it just in time! Too cute!!! Bubby has got so BIG!! Wow! Barely fits on the screen now! Cant believe how far we have come!! The baby was doing a bit of a flip and we could see one of the ears and my ob said "oh there is an ear! Oh its a big ear!" I know it sounds silly but now im a little paranoid that something is wrong with its ear! Has anyone ever noticed a big ear in an u/s or perhaps he just meant it was developed??? I dunno! Ridiculous thing to worry about I know but just cant help it!! I always seem to find something to worry about but this is ridiculous!

Anyway im taking my silly self to bed! Im pooped!!!

xx

Hi Lovely Ladies!

T-Hopes- Ooooh yay for a great scan! And i had a good chuckle about u worrying about ur babies big ear! Haha honestly i dont think u need to worry. I dont think its even something the proper u/s tech wld worry about!! It seems like they measured everything else in the morph. scan EXCEPT for the ears! They even measured the nose! I love how us girls make fears out of such funny/ silly things!
Oh and i LOVE puppy breath too.. puppies are just beautiful little creatures! :)

Melster- Yay for getting past that awful 12 week mark!! :) Bet ur so excited to see ur baby in a weeks time! Im sure it is baby ur feeing, especially since u know what to feel for.. it wldnt be affecting ur rib area yet tho, i dont think my baby has made it up to my ribs yet.. I havent had any rib action!

Forshelby- Glad u have ur tiredness problem sorted.. hopefully the iron tablets kick in soon! I have sometimes wished i wld come back as being iron deficient so i wld have a reason to be tired but nope its always been fine.. no excuse except laziness for me! Love the sound of ur stocking things too! :) Very stylish indeed! How often do u have to wear them??
Thanks (U too ferrals!!) for reassuring me that im not the only one that has had an annoying bladder at this stage.. it drives me insane at night! It feels like im constantly just getting up to go to the toilet!

Ferrals- Yuck a 10 hr shift.. u poor thing. Hope u got thru it ok. I think thats what helped me to be a bit happier after we lost our nala, we know we gave her the best life possible, she was super spoilt, never got in trouble for anything! We even just laughed when we caught her on our kitchen bench eating all the potato peels cos we thought it was cute.. silly of us or what! I hope we toughen up a little by the time we have kids that need disciplining!

Mildez- I really feel for u having that nasty vein u poor thing :( is there any treatment for it?? Will it stay for the whole pregnancy?? I guess love making is off the cards for a while??!

Possum- Very best of luck on wed!! Cant wait to hear ur good news!! :)

Hello to everyone else too! :)

AFM- Have put some new tummy pics on my facebook, also have a couple puppy pics on my profile! :) http://www.facebook.com/album.php?ai...2&id=622993252
Dh and i both felt a little foot (well we think it was) kicking around and pressing on my tummy last night, it was very very exciting but a little weird! Dh got a bit freaked out at first and quickly took his hand away.. i was a little freaked out too!! We have both only been feeling my tummy jumping around til then, no actual body parts! Its so very exciting!!! :)

Reet you look fantastic.

T-Hopes glad your Ob appointment went well, I'm sure bubs ear/s are fine. Probably a close up shot that made it look big. Plus at this stage it might need to grow into its ears and feet and hands etc if you know what I mean. Certain parts of them are still out of proportion at this stage. OMG your next big scan must be coming up soon. How exciting.

Reet love making doesn't hurt but it makes the vein get 10times as big IYKWIM! Thats the part thats very unpleasant afterwards. Not sure what to do about that. We have been enjoying that part but then I have the concern that the extra blood flow down there is just causing it to get bigger but if we reduce the amount then I'm sure once bub is born it will take along time to return to a normal amount if that makes sense. I just remember from DD that it took along time to have that desire until she was weaned which was 2yrs and we were already ttc again in that time. It will get worse until baby comes and then most of them go away after bub is born. If not I'd opt for them to remove it which would be very unpleasant I'm sure. I'm abit concerned about the birth as I'm already at risk of haemorrage from the uterus (provided the placenta is normal to start with) and the veins are wear I'd tear perhaps. Its like a garden hose so I think I'd bleed very quickly if it gets damaged. So sorry about the TMI lol.

Melster-with my 1st and 2nd i felt them at 20 weeks and 18 weeks with my 3rd and 4th it was around 15-16 weeks and with this disco queen it was at 13 weeks and just like you it felt like bubbles in my belly and little swishes here and there.
I diddnt get rib action until my uterus reached the 24 week mark.

T-Hopes-everything would be fine i would be more worried if there was no ear.

Mildez-when do you go for another scan to check your placenta i have mine in 3 weeks.

AFM-sorry for the lack of persies we went looking at houses this morning they were disgusting and flea ridden and they wanted $400 a week so i guess we keep looking.
Anyway i am doing another 10 hour shift tonight i am training my replacement so i get to sit back and just supervise which will be good for my feet.

Hi everyone!

I'm still here, lol. I suspect I'll be here for a couple more weeks, Tiger is clearly very comfortable and shows no signs of moving on out. I'm loving having DH home for the holidays, hopefully Tiger will show up before he has to go back to work. To be honest, this bit feels as scary as the TWW, I'm re-reading the true blood series, once again - hot vampires are an awesome distraction :)

Weird pregnancy thing - my eyebrows have changed colour. They are now quite a few shades darker than my hair. Bizarro.

Alish - I guess it all depends on how sure of your dates you are as to how much the early scan helps. It's such a scary time, but we're all here to keep you sane. :)

T-Hopes - Aww congrats on a great scan hun, I can feel your excitement just reading your post. IKWYM about the ear comment..... one sonographer said to us that bubby had a big nose..... I was like.. uhhhhhhhhh ok. Neither of us have a big nose, and we looked at the u/s..... cute as a button! We too thought maybe he meant developed. LOL... it's hard not to read too much into what they say and get paranoid. At 12wks the lady commented that bubby has 'beautiful hands'. I found that interesting... not sure how she could tell but I'll go with it!

Reet - I agree, it's good to be able to put a reason to the tiredness. I just thought it was normal 3rd trimester stuff. I only have to wear the stockings when I'm going to be standing or walking a lot. So basically when I feel like it. People are very rude though the way they stare.. I find it quite amusing to just stare back. I LOOOOOVE the new tummy pics, you've really popped! Feeling the baby move is the most exciting thing ever, isn't it? I still get a thrill when I feel a new sensation. Feeling specific bodyparts is awesome. I can almost tell with complete accuracy what body part is where now, just by the way it feels. It's fun to guess!

Mildez - Ugh you poor thing with the veins.... are there any kinds of natural remedies you can try? I have no idea with this kind of thing but it sounds so uncomfortable for you. :hug:

Ferrals - Good luck for the house-hunting, and have fun training your replacement! :)

Kit - Hehehe, you always make me chuckle. Can't wait to read your birth announcement.... it's so close now. I imagine it would be very nerve wracking being so close to the end... I'm getting edgy and I've still got just under 10 weeks to go. Every little niggle and pain I think 'OMG, PREMATURE LABOUR' lol. Good luck for the birth hun, and enjoy those newborn snuggles. I have no idea what is up with your eyebrows, lol. What a strange symptom.

AFM - Well, I'm sick to death of vodafone's POOR SERVICE, and have decided not to pay yet again to recharge my mobile broadband (which runs at dialup speed and drops out constantly). So I'll be without internet for a couple of days until we can sort something else out. I do have it on my phone but that's for emergencies, lol. My phone is also through vodafone though.. so blech to that, who knows if it'll work like it's meant to. In baby related news, we just realised last night that since my placenta had moved up and the dr is happy with it......... 26 weeks was our last scan! I can't believe the next time we see bubby will be his/her birthday. :o

:hello: Ladies, I was lying around last night feeding and realised that i hadnt seen a notification in ages, and knowing you lot i couldnt imagine how you had all suddenly stopped talking :rofl:.....SO i missed a new thread, oops!

Thank you all so much for your lovely messages! Miss Molly Rose is perfect and even better now after figuring out the difference of night and day! I cant believe its been a week tonight since i had her, i dont want it to go so quickly!

She is my smallest baby and first summer one so i am enjoying looking at her and loads of cuddles, i must be the worst person in the world for co sleeping and pass the pascel baby but i just love seeing her cuddled up to someone! She is sleeping in her snuggle bed at the moment but pulled right up against the bed with her big sisters watching over her!

She is just perfect (have i already said that). I have recovered very quickly from her birth and the feeding is going very well. I have survived my first food shop with all 4 kids and have managed to get back into the whole, cooking cleaning mummy job! YAY so nice to not be pregnant anymore :) My poor body after 13 months of pregnancy with the ectopic and surgery and a good nights sleep, i am on top of the WORLD!!!


So now i have had my huge rave ill promise to get back into personals!!!

Whos next to pop Angelfish, forshelby then ferrals?? How are you ladies?

DORY: thank you my beautiful friend for your messages and letting the girls in here know my lovely news! Cant wait for Hannah and Molly to meet!

Ferrals how are you? You finish work soon??

PMagic: I still get a thrill when i see your ticker, only seems like yesterday that was Molly at 6weeks!

Mildez and Reet did you fast forward your tickers? where did all those weeks come from YAY!

I'm next Tegam! Don't make me wait longer!

:leap: :leap: :rofl: I was hoping you would pick up i was teasing you! :rofl: :leap: :leap:

THanks girls! Your right its so silly to be worried about something like that! everything looks so distorted on the scans anyway so im sure bubby is perfectly healthy and happy! + bubs gave us the thumbs up to tell us that everything was peachy!! :)

Ohhhh Kit... so close!! Where have the months gone? I still remember reading your BFP announcement in May! I remember i was away on holidays in Qld and was super excited to read your post! Now it wont be long til we read your BA!! Have you chosen a name? And how are the True Blood books? I got them all for Xmas - i have watched the series and loved it!

Tegam - Baby Molly sounds so gorgeous!! Oh the new born cuddles.... i cant wait to get mine from my little one!!! So great to hear from you and glad to hear you have settled into your routine as super mum again! :)

xx

Tegam - :) Great to hear you've recovered so well and that Miss Molly is just perfect. Enjoy these moments! It's exciting just to see my name in the list of people 'soon to pop' :o OMG!!!! hehe. But yes let's not make Kit wait any longer or she might explode, lol. Kablamo!

It seems that all I have to do is glance away and I miss a few pages lol!

kit- I do so hope you are next, I think the fest of us want to keep ours a cookin' for at least a while yet lol.

forshelby- do you not get a 32week U/S?

...now what else can I get my mind to remember right now?...

t-hopes- my doc kept saying that ds had a big head lol, he ended up with an undersized one so I wouldn't worry :)

Mildez- ahh that vein sounds nasty :s I don't know how I could live without DTD as often as I do so I hope it settles down for you enough so you can get your action ;)

Reet- lol at the freaking out. It can be pretty freaky at times though. I remember laying on my belly and thinking that somehow my matteress punched me haha!

ferrals- i hope you find a decent place soon.

ok so that's as much as I can remember lol. How is everyone else going?

aFM- getting cramps off and on. Some I wonder if I should really go see a doc right away, others not so bad. Trying to just go with the flow though so will see what tomorrows scan will bring :) I so cannot wait to see my Bubba up on the screen :D

Hi ladies!
On my phone again as I cancelled our home Internet as it was costing a fortune!

I just wanted to pop in and tell you all that I saw the most beautiful sight today.. I had my screening appointment at the hospital and i mentioned to the OB how anxious I've been this week as it's the time I lost my last baby (but didn't know til 3 weeks later) so he did a quick scan.. And lo and behold was my little bubba.. Kicking his/her arms and legs and moving like crazy! I so wasn't expecting it to look like an actual baby! I measured 2 days behind but I think it's cos the machine wasn't the best (I hope!). I am booked in for another scan tomorrow so we'll double check then!
Woohoo!

Sorry it's selfish but I can't go back to see what everyone else has written!
Hope you are all well! Xx

YAY Stoked, thats great news!

Damprye - LOL @ the mattress punching you.... Apparently I don't need the 32wk scan as we know the placenta is ok now. Good luck for your scan tomorrow :)

Stoked - Not a selfish post at all, how exciting! 2 days behind is a matter of millimetres, so I wouldn't worry at all. I too will be on phone internet for a few days while we sort out a better home internet solution.

Wow ive missed alot this thread is flying by the moment!!!

I dont think i can even try to catch up i have read everyones posts though - im glad everyone seems to be going well

Got a quick scan at the OB yesterday hes getting so big! heaps of fluid and hes head up but doctor says plenty of time for him to get head down. he doent fit on the screen anymore :D

One of my close friend chose to tell me yesterday of two friends of hers that lost there babies this week at about the time i am :o. thanks for that it freaked me out. Lucky he kicking like crazy today to make me feel better ill be glad to be 24 weeks so if something happens he has some chance
and we have our due date coming up for our loss in may :cry:
better get off the computer big storm coming through i hate them im scared already
:hide:

Well, little sweetpea is hanging in there! I went to the OB today and he did an external scan (no internal needed, yay!) and we could see the baby and see the flickering heartbeat and if we were really quiet we could hear the heartbeat too (and see it on the graph on the screen). All looked ok. And my thyroid results came back normal (Yay cos they were too high in my first pg that miscarried).

I have to admit though, i was already feeling sad again on the way home: I'm so scared of everything that can go wrong. The scan only reassured me all is ok for now. I can't be sure it will still be ok next week. Because the first baby i lost died jst before 12wks i think i won't relax until i'm past the 12wk scan. (And even then... I think i know too much now about all the things that can go wrong in pg. I'm scared stiff). I'm trying hard to get back to the mantra i used when pg with DD: "other people have healthy babies, there's no reason that can't be me."

PHew! Alright, enough gloominess... and about me.

T-Hopes: Oh i can so understand why you'd be obsessing over what the u/s person said about baby's ear but I agree: It's probably nothing; just the way bub was facing when they took his/her picture (with ear closest to the camera!) Glad all was good.
Kellbell: Gosh people are tactless hey? Why would you freak out a pg person with stories like that?! Glad your little man kicked up a fuss about it.
Stoked: HOw lovely you saw your baby. And Two days behind is not something they worry about i don't think.
Damprye: Good luck with your scan. Will be lurking to hear your news.
Tegam: :Thank you! That's cool you remember Molly at 6wks of pg. Helps me to visualise ahead to when I might have a newborn too. Also, it was great reading what you wrote about Molly: I could picture her all snuggled up in bed with excited siblings all around. A lovely image.
Forshelby: Good news that your placenta is movin' on up. Does that mean you can go for a natural birth?
Kitfaerie: Different colour eyebrows? Awesome!
Ferrals: I hope the house hunting gets better. And yay for getting closer to finishing work!
Mildez: ouch poor you with varicose veins up there. My good friend who's near term with her baby has the same thing. (And she did for her last pg too and all went ok with the birth).
Reet: How cool that you can feel all of bubby's little pokie arms and legs now!
Alish: I can relate to your nerves. I hope you can get some reassurance soon with blood results and scan.

Mildez- OMG that sounds awful! U poor poor thing! Im glad u can still dtd tho.. bet ur dh is too, pity ur in pain afterwards, i hope its always worth it at the time tho! ;) I think i wld be a bit worried about labour too.. imagine bursting the vein! Its not like ur not already in enough pain giving birth!
I hope i have some sex drive after this baby is born, i think its going to kill my dh getting thru the 6 weeks without sex after i give birth!! Its not looking too promising tho, i dont have much of a sex drive now, i'd probably be happy with maybe once a week if i didnt have an everyday man!

Ferrals- Best of luck house hunting!!

Kit- Oh so close now!! I bet the last 2 weeks are a little scary, glad u have some good books to keep u occupied :) Have u started doing any of the things that supposedly bring on labour yet??

Forshelby- I cant believe how close u are!! LESS then 10 weeks to go! So do u feel all organised and ready?? Is the babies room complete?? I still want to see pics!!

Tegam- Hello!!!!! So good to see u in here again!!! Ur little molly does sound just perfect!! I cant believe ur already doing the food shopping with the whole clan! Im already worrying about doing it with just one baby! Glad ur doing so well :)

Damprye- Yay for tomoro!! Cant wait to hear ur exciting news! :)

Stoked- Woohoo! How exciting! It sounds like u have a little groover growing inside u! Its the best piece of mind seeing them in there all happy and healthy hey.. :)

Kell- Oh how annoying that ur friend felt the need to share those stories. I have been having the same worrying thoughts lately... every week that goes by i feel a lot 'safer' I cant wait til im 28ish weeks.. ill feel a lot better then i think. Great that baby is kicking around a lot, mine feels like it never stops too!

AFM- I think i may have started nesting! Or maybe i just had a little cleaning attack cos the inlaws are coming to stay on sat for a week.. haha, always a good reason to clean things! I fully sorted the kitchen tho and got rid of all the stuff we dont use, i even got rid of the mismatching knives and forks! Feels so good to declutter!
I have written myself a big list with every room in the house on it and what needs to be done in each one.. (i love lists!!) I want to get it all done in the next 6 weeks.
Still havent even looked at baby stuff yet.. we are going to wait til the inlaws are gone and then move all the furniture out of the room and give it a good clean out and then buy the cot etc. I cant wait!

Sorry possum, missed ur post!

Thats great news that u have a beautiful little healthy baby growing! How annoying that u have already come down from that high tho.. i was always the same.. Get my reassurance, feel that sense of relief but then those gloomy thoughts wld come back into my head. Those first 12 weeks were really scary for me too.. and i cld never actually imagine getting this far in this pg. When i had a small bleed at 14 weeks i was thinking to myself Oh well theres my luck gone, what else was i expecting? So negative but its so hard not to be sometimes. U just have to try ur hardest to have some faith in ur body.. it knows what to do! Its made a perfect little girl before! :)

I finally got the internet back.

I still cant believe that i am 35 going on 36 weeks along.( still on bed rest)
Sorry that i have not had time to read everything that everyone has posted

possumagic - fantastic news, i bet that has calmed your nerves big time!! that just made a big smile come on my face!!

Possum Magic I'm so pleased to hear your got to see your little sweatpea on scan. Woohoo another hurdle over. I felt the same way. Even now I don't feel I am safe IYKWIM. All the people I have cared for I remember and feel I am never safe with this bub even when she is out I am petrified of SIDS etc. The anxiety just never seems to go away although alot of the time now I love everything about been pregnant and preparing for a baby even with the thoughts there not to prepare to much. Such a shame such a wonderful time in our lives can be fueled with such fear of not getting a take home baby at the end. I hope your anxiety eases up when your over the 12week mark.

Stoked woohoo for having a sneak peak at your bub again.

Unfortaunely for DH the vein problem I have has made my desire to DTD greater then ever :redface:. I can only put it down to the increase in blood supply down there. We are averaging 3-4times a week in my head I want to stop because it does make the thing blow up even more and causes discomfort afterwards and maybe thats whats made it so bad in the first place. Its almost double the amount when we were ttc. DH has a converstation with his cousin who is ttc their 3rd and he was complaining that as soon as his wife is pregnant he will be lucky to get it once a month. DHs cousin was saying he felt sorry for DH as pregnancy = no sex lol. DH had to have a chuckly that he can't keep it up to me :ROFL: I'm hoping it might influence DH to have another baby one day. We always planned on another but after loosing 3 pregnancies and taking over 2yrs to fall pregnant DH was very keen on having the snip and closing the book so we finish up on a good note. Maybe when he doesn't get much after the baby is born he will change his mind again :rofl:

Reet can you send some of your cleaning vibes to me? I just can't get motivated.

OOOOOhhhhhhhhh!! how i miss my fabulous sex with DH we are a 3-4 times a week couple aswell aslong as work doesnt get in the way and now thanks to this placenta NOTHING! NADDA BUBCUS! it's so depressing i even leaned over hubby in bed the other morning and opened up our goodie draw and said i miss you to them it made hubby laugh but it is still depressing but i do hope that my u/s at 32 weeks shows it has moved away from the cervix then it will be a sexfest until little miss arrives.

Possum & Mildez-i feel like that i still worry i wont be taking our girl home but i make an effort to enjoy this pregnancy because it isnt fair on her for me not to believe everthing will be alright and if it does turn out all good i dont want to look back and regret not enjoying being pregnant with her or doing all the normal pregnancy preperations so i had to force myself to put a pram and carset ect on laybye and buy everything she needs but i feel good knowing i am ready.

AFM- Two 10 hour shifts down now two days off then two more 10 hour shifts yuk!

HI all, it has been such a long time since i posted...i have now lost four little angel babies. I remember when I first joined in here i would read others sad experience and thought how awful it must be to lose more than one baby, i never thought for a moment it would happen twice let alone 4 times.
Anyway the clincher is I am 12 weeks pregnant tomorrow, I went to have the NT scan and the sac was empty :( WTF! I cant believe it????
So the thing is, I had the scan, he started with an abdominal scan and my uterus was tilted too far back to see so he switched to vaginal and there is clearly no 12 week baby there but there was something...the dr said so, and made comments like "there is something in the corner here" he measured its rate as it was flashing and it came back at 139 BPM. He said well theres definitely a fetal heart, he then continued to poke and prod and finished with, it must be blood flow... he told me it wasnt a viable pregnancy and go home as I would likely miscarry in the next 3-4 days.
Thing is I left there believing him and then the more I thought about it, the more I question it. I googled...i know...(sigh) and tilted uterus' have been known to hide babys, there is even a story of a lady who didnt see her 12 week baby and then at 18 weeks there it was...
Do you think that if it was blood flow it would be running at 139 BPM?? I dont know, I just thought maybe if my uterus was tilted enough that maybe bubby was hidden behind the corner or something. Its like he thought it was a baby and then changed his mind and stopped looking at it.
I decided to do afollow up scan tomorrow with a different place, I rang them and told them what happened and they were happy for me to come in. I called my midwife and she said definitely get a second opinion as crazier things have happened.
If this is loss number 5 I cant believe it, especially when i thought I was 12 weeks, we were so excited to have finally made it.
Sorry this is all about me today, thanks for reading. PLease share anything you have, its my last shread of hope tomorrow, i really dont think I can do it again...

Exited and disappointed at the same time. Bub's HB was between 101 and 119 whichthe lady said is good. Bub is also way behind on dates though. I should be 8w2d but am only measuring as 5w5d. Not sure wwhat to make of that but I get to go back for another scan in 10days I think it is.

millyD I'm sorry to hear your scan was so confusing. I haven't heard of that before but I have cared for a woman who had a very interesting few months. Firstly her pregnancy was an IVF pregnancy where she had 2 embies implanted. At 6weeks she had a scan which showed one empty sac and a healthy pregnancy measuring around what she was. At 10weeks she had a bleed so had another scan which showed a bub measuring 8weeks with no heartbeat. She had PV bleeding at this time and it was written in the conclusion a D&C was recommended. She refused as she said she knew the baby was fine. She had a repeat scan a week later which also showed the same thing. The lady then had a scan at 18weeks which showed a healthy pregnancy at 10weeks so they referred her else where and then a scan at 21weeks (done at a fetal medicine unit) showed her bub was 21weeks and perfect. No sign of the sac with no heartbeat in it or the smaller bub. If I hadn't read the reports myslef no way would I have believed it possible to have so many scans that were wrong. I couldn't believe everything I read in her notes had recommended she have a D&C and how luck she was to have stuck with her head and refused. Bub was so lucky.

Damprye glad to hear you got to see your bubs beautiful little heartbeat. Did they do an internal one or external. My second child measured 8days behind and by the 13week scan was measuring what I really thought she was. Then they said because my uterus was retroverted that thats why they didn't get the measurements right. Hope the next 10days goes quickly for you.