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Melster: good luck for tomorrow and happy birthday.
I read the sad news re RB as well. THere does seem to have been a lot of loss on BB lately and it can feel overwhelming. My heart breaks for these parents and i can't fathom why they have to go through this pain.
I have been getting stressed this week because my 20wk scan is coming up on Tuesday. I am so scared of getting to the scan and getting bad news. There is no particular reason why i should. The odds of things going wrong are less now than at 12wks but i am feeling just as scared: i keep waiting for something to go wrong like it did the last two times. I can't get my head around the idea that i could actually be a mum again. I can feel movement every day now but they are soft and only a few here and there so i find myself worrying that the baby isn't moving enough or is moving less than the day before. (Crazy seeing as it's still early days to feel movement and i know this is how it is to start with. But that's how i feel). I am not sure if i am going to find any 'safe' point at which i can relax... and I want to. I'm worried that i am not letting myself feel connected to the baby in case i lose it. I don't want this to continue because i'm worried that when the baby arrives i will still feel disconnected. I had none of these issues with my DD. But i am way less innocent now.
Sorry for raving on so long... Belly rubs to everyone. Sorry for lack of persies...
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Oh no i am still in tears i dont understand how life can be so cruel. I just got on and seen the post about RB.
Just wanted to send out long distance hugs to everyone here and if you need to take a break then do it. You all are on my mind
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possum, you are not alone, im completely freaking out, i know if something went wrong i wouldnt be strong enough to cope
hugs to everyone xoxo
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Possum - I feel exactly the same as you. We have told a few people recently because my belly is becoming a little obvious but i actually feel foolish telling them, as though it's too soon and things could go wrong and I shouldn't be telling people until after the 20 week scan. Even though I have had a healthy baby it just doesn't feel as though I could have another one. I'm still constantly checking to see if I am bleeding. Also we are forced to consider an amnio as my first trimester screening came back as high risk. We knew it would happen as I am 45 and it automatically begins at really bad odds. I feel confused as i thought when we got the figures of 1 in 179 that the FS would automatically recommend the amnio but instead he seemed reasonably optimistic and left it up to me and I don't know what to do. I worry that if I don't do it I will spend the last 20 weeks of my pregnancy driving myself crazy with "what ifs"!
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Oh Indias mum, what a hard decision you have and sadly only you know whats right for your family. I send you loads of support and a great big hug. Only advice, consider what you would do with the answers before you ask the question, this sometimes helps you come to a decision IYKWIM??
Possiums: :( I totally understand where you are coming from and if it helps i was in total denial about my pregnancy ending well until about 10mins after Molly was born. I didnt really feel pregnant or attached to her, i mean i loved the baby and i wanted it but it just never felt 'real'. The scan will be fine on tuesday, but will that make you relax??? Probably not, but that doesnt have to be a bad thing, it just means that this baby is very special to you!! Hugs
Alish: Same as Possiums, big hugs for you for freaking out !!!!
Melster: hows your Dad? and your Mum and ofcourse you?? Happy birthday (sorry feels wrong to say it and it felt to wrong not to say it) I hope you have a doubly wonderful Bday next year with all your family in great health!!!
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thanks for my bday wishes.......im just sitting here with mum and dad while dad waits to go into surgery....hubby just picked up dd...she was getting a bit much in the hospital but wanted to spend sometime with her on my bday........all we can do is pray..
step daughter is creating havoc and has upset the people she was staying with.....so not sure whats happening at the moment....im just not in the mood to deal with it and hubby knows that....
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Kellie - Good luck with your induction.... how exciting! I too was induced so I know all the things you must be thinking/feeling. Stay positive, stay off the bed as much as you can, and remember your baby will be out soon enough :)
Dory - I meant to congratulate you on your 'promotion' to moderator... how cool! I hope Hannah had fun at her swimming lesson :) Ikwym about the struggling to juggle things with a little baby in tow. I'm wondering how I'll cope getting things done without my entourage with me!
Alish - Your scan isn't too far away. The 20wk one is excellent. You'll love it!
Joeve - I did relax. Eventually!
Cheezelmonster= I remember you :) Congratulations. Just remember you ARE preparing for your new son or daughter. Just for a bit longer than you originally expected. Everything you're thinking and feeling is totally normal. Every pg is different so it's hard to 'compare' but I felt different in my successful pg than in my mc, so hopefully it's a good sign.
Melster - Happy birthday :) Sounds like you're having BH's for sure. That's what mine felt like. I agree when it comes to those people saying that man should be more concerned with his wife than their baby who died. I agree with you, that is. I don't get it either...... but I guess when you haven't experienced it, things seem a lot more black and white. Try not to let it bother you, easier said than done I know.
Ferrals - Haven't had a chance to catch up with you since I went into hospital! Congrats again on Ella, she's just beautiful. Good luck with moving house. All I can say is argghhhh!! I can't imagine doing that AND having a newborn. I'm struggling as it is with the sleepless nights.
India's Mum - This might sound silly, but I think you should just go with your gut instinct. You will probably worry either way, whether you get the tests done or not, tbh.
AFM - Sorry to anyone I missed.. I didn't have much time to go back too many pages but I wanted to catch up a little. Lucky for me Axel is taken care of for the moment by his great aunty and grandma.
Things have been hectic. I don't seem to get a chance to 'do nothing' which I enjoy, lol. I can't watch TV because I've got too much else to think about or worry about... sleep is a distant memory, it's crazy. A few times I've thought 'oh god, just put him back in my belly so I can sleep for a few hours' lol. He's a sweet little boy though, just very demanding. When he cries, he SCREAMS and he gets really upset really quickly.
In other news, my poor little man had to have his first cast put on to correct his clubfoot yesterday. It's awful and heavy and makes me sad when I look at it. People stare at it when I'm out in public with him. The dr did say I can write on his cast if I want so I might write 'what are YOU looking at?' hehe. :)
Anyway I'd better get off here and get back into mummy mode. Will catch up again in a few months, lol. :) I hope everyone is well!
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Hi Girls!
Its been a little while between posts.. I have been reading but have just felt like being a bit 'quiet'.. i go thru my stages!
Forshelby- So good to hear from u! I only just found ur birth stories today... OMG! What an utterly crazy experience!! I just cant believe what u went thru. I was so worried about u when i heard what was going on but god i wld have been a lot more worried if i had known EXACTLY what was going on!!
Ur little Axel is just gorgeous tho, u and ur dp must be so proud of urselves :) xx
Melster- Happy Birthday.. altho like Tegam said it feels wrong to say it to u during a time like this :( Thinking of u and ur family.. i hope ur dad has come out of the op. all good. Please let us know when u can. xx
Kell- I cant believe ur going to have ur baby soon! Ur gonna beat me by a mile!! U lucky duck!
Alish- I reckon its best to wait til 22 weeks for ur scan anyway.. i did. I wanted baby to look as chubby as possible in the 3d pics! :) It was really really hard tho when everyone in my bb group were having theres and i wasnt.. but worth it! 3rd may will come around very quickly.. i hope not too quickly tho, ive still got a million things to do before my baby comes! :)
Hi Dory! Thanks for thinking of me :) Like i said just been a bit quiet.. i find time goes a bit quicker when im not looking at my ticker on here everyday! :) We're taking little yogi bear on a RSPCA charity dog walk on sunday morning at 7am at the beach.. apparently its a pretty big event each year and a lot of ppl take their dogs so it will be great socialising for him! How are ur pussy cats?? Do they take any interest in little HB?? Their not too jealous that they dont get ur undivided attention anymore??
Cheezelmonster- Hi and welcome! And yep whenever i see ur name i get the hugest cravings for cheezels.. YUM!!!!
Its so hard to try and move on from what should have been... i found once i started concentrating on growing this little baby it became easier though.
I reckon u shld get the dating scan.. its very reassuring and helps to make the next 6 or so weeks a bit easier til the 12 week scan. But u do whatever u feel right for u. xx
Joeve- Nope no relaxing here! I have had my positive moments throughout this pregnancy but then i have my really negative ones too. Just learning to deal with the negative ones is the key, cant let them get u down too much. You just have to remember that they are just fears, its hard not to be scared of the unknown but it is so pointless its frustrating! Its really good to talk about ur fears too, i have done so a few times on here and have ended up feeling so much better!
To all u ladies that have all these negative thoughts going around ur heads.. (Possum, Indias mum, Alish) i so know where ur coming from!! I honestly dont think the worry ever ends during pregnancy and then ofcourse once baby comes its a whole set of new worries! Its awful. Every morning i get myself into such a panic whilst waiting for baby to stir. Its really weird i hardly ever feel he/she moving at night, but then during the day it doesnt stop moving! Im sure baby must sleep when im sleeping and is awake when i am. Whenever i go to the toilet during the night and get back into bed i always think ok just stay away for a little bit and wait for baby to move.. but i always end up falling back asleep.. this happens 2-3 times a night so by the time morning comes i have gotten myself all worried! Its so stupid and frustrating!!
I just still feel as though things have been way too easy for me during this whole pregnancy... something has gotta go wrong. Just cant win hey! I shld be grateful! :wall:
Got my belly pics back, im quite happy with them, ofcourse when looking at pics of urself its very easy to be judgemental tho! I find something wrong with every photo. Im so glad we had nice scenery so atleast in the not so good photos theres still some 'niceness' in them! The photographer has put a few on her blog so i will share that link, if you would like for me to send u the link and password to the album i have made on photobucket pm me tho and i am happy too! I have cut all the really nudey ones out of it but its still a bit personal so i dont want to splash the link all over BB for any tom **** and harry to see! http://www.azurephotography.com.au/n...lly-shoot.html
Our cot arrived yesterday yay! We've still gotta paint the room tho before setting it up so hopefully we can get that done on the weekend before dh goes away again for 10 days. We still dont know what colours to paint it though.. right now we have just done the white base coat. Going to bunnings tomoro so hopefully we can agree on a couple of colours.. cos we are running out of time!!!
Actually on second thoughts maybe we're not..! At my ob appointment on wed. baby was still not engaged.. just happy floating around upside down! I asked my ob if he will do a s&s at 40 weeks and he said definitely not, he doesnt believe in them at all.. dammit! Guess i will just have to do all the natural labour inducing things.. although if my body isnt ready then its not going to make any difference anyway! Baby will decide when he/she wants to come.. hopefully sooner rather then later!
Anyway better jump off, got a big day tomoro! I hope everyone has a good weekend! xxx
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oh my god reet those photos are amazing! youre gorgeous and your belly is beautiful! (dh is a bit of a spunk too! ;) )
send me the link i want to see them!!
oh my god you have 18 days to go!!!!!! how quick has that come around?
we bought a chest of drawers on ebay just waiting for them to arrive.. we have everything pretty much, i decided against a change table and am just getting 2 chest of drawers, so when the 2nd bub comes along they have the chest of drawers to match the cot. once youre finished with a change table its no good, and they were the same price too!
forshelby - so happy everything is going well.. is a clubfoot a turned in foot? people need a punch in the face if they stare!
melster - how did your dad go?
hey dory, tegam, possum, indias mum, & everyone else ive missed, hope evrything is good
ive been having really bad heart palpitations, i dont know if its stress from all this news on bb or if its normal :(
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Reet - OMG, your pictures are beautiful. I almost had to have a little cry. I miss being pg. Not because it was fun trying to cram myself into too-small clothes, or waddle around with a huge belly................... but because I got to sleep! And eat! And go to the toilet when I needed to. lol. Axel is so demanding it's hard to even have a shower or brush my hair. Try not to worry about not getting a s&s done. Mine did nothing and I was overdue by the time I got it. Well, actually it just made me leak and feel even more uncomfortable. I can't wait to see pictures of your little one though, and the nursery when you finally decide on some colours! Good luck! :) Oh, and about my birth experience. That will NOT happen to you. I was unsure if I should post it anonymously or not...... because I knew you and others I care about would find it and possibly worry. But seriously, that sh** is rare. I was just unfortunate and seemed to have everything that could go wrong, go wrong. At the end of the day we're all physically ok, and no damage was done in that respect.
Alish - Yep, his little foot is a bit turned in. It's quite cute actually. People can't help but stare because of the big obvious cast covering his whole leg. I just ignore them and go about my business.
AFM - Another sleepless night last night. DP had to work today (double time though so we aren't complaining) and I am so exhausted. I wanted to have a sleep while Axel snoozes, but I'm just too awake now. My mum and Aunty are down here visiting from Mackay to help me while I recover. Well, my aunty is an awesome help. She had 6 kids of her own so has been really great with advice and just general baby care while I try to get other things done. Mum on the other hand has been a complete waste of space. As I predicted. She just sits on my couch talking about herself, and doesn't offer to do anything. She watched me do dishes and laundry while she sat around talking about how sore her arm is. As if she has the right to complain................ I have a frigging c/s wound healing here. She has to make everything about her. In the 3 days she's been here, she's had a whole bunch of 'injuries'. Such as her jaw hurts. Her arm hurts. Her wrists are sore. Her feet are swollen. OH BOO HOO! I nearly died giving birth! Let's prioritize here, people.... sheeeesh. My aunty understands as she had a c/s for her firstborn as well. She also had the week or more of pre-labour so she's very sympathetic. But mum.. Oh no. Way too busy thinking about herself to even fold some laundry or get me a glass of water..... it's really bothering me. I'm extremely lucky my recovery is going reasonably well and I'm able to move around a lot better now otherwise I'd be a wreck.
Anyway, I just had to have that little vent. I feel much better now. :) Axel is sleeping peacefully for now.... let's hope this lasts for a couple more hours. I should probably try to grab a quick nap. Take care, ladies :)
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oh you poor thing, and its so much harder cuz as much as you try and ignore your mum, you cant!! i think i remember you saying a while back she would be like this huh?
at least your aunty is being helpful..
have a good weekend! x
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Alish - Yep, I knew she would be like this. I was relieved when she said she was bringing my Aunty with her as I knew she would be a huge help. If it wasn't for the c/s I would have told Mum not to bother coming at all, tbh. *sigh* DP is really disappointed, and she hasn't made an effort to get to know him AT ALL. She hasn't asked him a single question or really spoken to him about anything. She just talks about herself, what's going on back home.... stuff he knows nothing about so he feels quite left out in his own home! I could throttle her! Up until now, DP wanted to move to live near her so I could have support. Now he understands why I was reluctant.
Oh yeah, it's the weekend... lol. Days have lost all meaning now, I have no idea what's going on lately. Ok, that's it. NAPTIME!
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omg reet you and your bump are amazing!
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Melster - how is you dad doing?
Forshelby - it does get easier those first 6 weeks are really tough plus everything else you've been through. Your mum sounds like nooooo help at all glad your aunty is helping.
How long does Axel have to have his cast on? people are rude staring at a little baby!
Alish - good buy with the chest of drawers. I love eay i have to stay off or i go crazy :p
Reet your pics are sooooo gorgeous i love them - your belly is beautiful
Id rather wait than be induced - still upset about it. However i feel like he might pick his own birthdate been very moody crying some pains really sore boobs, and his head feels like its bout to fall out :o
i feel really uncomfortable i hope something is happening and he comes soon - come onnnnn labour. i, prob fooling myself but a girl can hope. Have appointment on monday so well see what my OB says - please be early labour!!!!!!
Hello to everyone i have missed :hello:
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Here's the new thread ladies :)
