This post is going to be about me sorry.... So today i am 30 weeks today. On the 30th ( yes i just relized this) that i have a growth scan i am so scared i am counting down the days
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This post is going to be about me sorry.... So today i am 30 weeks today. On the 30th ( yes i just relized this) that i have a growth scan i am so scared i am counting down the days
OH ANgel with no ticker i always forget how far you are 30weeks is amazing! congratulation! Sorry you are worried about the scan. I have one on the 6th and im stressed to, all part of being a parent i guess.
mildez and honebee....thanks
stoked.....how r u going now? Hows the spotting. R u ok?
Dory.......yeah mothers guilt is killer.....but it was only an accident and she will forgive u...ur a good mummy
tegam......i always worry about the leg in the car seat
angelfish...congrats on the 30weeks
atm....im a bit worst for wear......i have been so queezy and had a killer headache last night....think morning sickeness may have kicked in....god i feel terrible.....no more bleeding just some period type pain.....im feeling a bit sorry for myself and had a 2 hr nanna nap yesterday....i am feeling quiet emotional and moody as well...ready to bite anyones head of and punch hubby in the arm.....
Melster my MS was at its worst around the 6-8weeks.
Angelfish woohoo on been 30weeks! Your so close to that scan. I'm sure everything will be wonderful.\
Dory don't feel bad. I remember with DD1 I use to carry her through the doorways (old farm house) and bump her head. I did it accidently on numerous occassions poor bubba.
Ferrals TMI so don't feel you need to tell me but just wondering what your Ob said about DTD with placenta previa? Maybe with our pregnancies we have even more in common. I spoke to another Ob at work (haven't seen the scans) but she thinks it sounds like a placenta previa I have due to the excessive large lakes and extra vessely vascular appearance (despite the placenta not covering the cervix it only extends to it) she also said as its on the posterior wall its unlikely to move up enough. Apparently if its on either of the lateral walls or anterior it usually moves but the posterior side doesn't expand much in later pregnancy. Anyway DH and I have had a very active sex life during this pregnancy (way better then it ever was ttc over the years) so I'm thinking I should reduce the amount atleast especially when I'm having BH already. Still have a week and abit to see my own Ob to find out for sure.
OOops done that too! :rofl: actually i am starting to wonder how my children have survived!:
Stoked - I think it's still early enough that bubby could still be snuggling in and implanting? I hope all is well in there
Dory - I think I just got a crummy doctor who was in a rush. Next time I'll be refusing to have them feel for baby's position, it just freaks me out too much and gives me awful tummy pains. If anything like that happens again I will be complaining. Hannah bear will be fine, since she was still sleeping it couldn't have bothered her too much :) She was probably basking in the sunshine and enjoying it!
Tegam - Hehe, I couldn't help but chuckle when you said 'leg fat'. Soooo cute. Good luck for your growth scan :)
Angelfish - Good luck for your growth scan too, hun :) All will be fabulous.
Melster - LOL @ your punching hubby in the arm comment. If he complains tell him next time it'll be the face. :) I hope you're feeling less queasy soon!
Mildez - Enjoy the nookie while you can, hehe :)
AFM - Went to BIL's birthday party last night, it sure is a different experience going to parties when pg. I ended up hanging out with the kids because well, we could all be sober together, lol. My niece and her little friend were hovering around all night on 'standby' to feel the baby kick. Very cute. I still had a good time though but was slightly devastated that there was no cake. The only part I didn't enjoy were some of the older women (friends of SIL) proceding to treat me like a bit of an idiot regarding motherhood..... I got the condescending 'oh it's going to get so much worse honey' and the 'you think that's bad.... (insert horror story here)'. One lady laughed when I said I wasn't afraid of the birth. Why do women insist on doing that??? I just brushed their comments off though, and reminded myself that no matter how the labour goes I have faith in my body and feel confident about giving birth. I get that it's going to be the most intense pain I've ever felt. But trying to scare the sh** out of me isn't going to help anything, or change anything.... it's actually just rude and unsupportive.
Ok that's my mini-vent for the day. I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend :)
Hello Ladies,
Forshelby, I was wondering whether it could have been implantation, but i would have been 4 weeks 1 day and i already had hcg of 73 so doesn't hcg only start once implantation has already occured?? I don't know...
Boo to those horror story tellers! Birth isn't scary! I am sure that Telly has recommended that you read Ina May's Guide to Childbirth, best book ever! Her and I are like the Ina May Cheer Squad! And what is with the no-cake birthday party!?!?! GOSSSSHHHHHH!!
Dory, We have all done terrible things to our children unintentionally :hug: How is Hannah this morning?
Melster, Thanks for asking :hug: The spotting has stopped. Only had it on Friday night, nothing at all since then. I really am not feeling pregnant yet, but i suppose i am only 4.5 weeks so that's probably normal? Just went back over my Belly Buddies threads from my last 2 pregnancies and MS didn't kick in til 5.5/6 weeks and sore BB's not til 4.5/5 weeks so i still have a little time! Hope you feel better soon... although i hope the MS sticks around for you... just for some reassurance!!
Hello to everyone else!
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stoked glad that there has been no more bleeding!
forshelby: No cake what tha?? Horror stories. DH and i counted 6 positive stories about babies and birth while we were pregnant with Dd1. It worried us for a little while then it made us laugh. Also just made me say a huge thank you to those that say something nice! Labout is not scary and there is no need for horror stories. Just ask yourself "how many children did this person have" Surely if it was so bad then they would have stopped at one??
I dont even find labour painful AT ALL. intense yes but mine have a history of coming very quickly. But my first birth was 6.5hrs long and lovely. I saw contractions as waves and that made them only last for half the time! Transition was a weird feeling like i should have been doing something but didnt know what and pushing was great! Suddenly i had something i could do. Straight away on video i have me saying "oh i could do that again!
I grew up around positive birth stories and i had this very firm belief that it was natural and normal to birth. Fear or pain didnt add into the equation and i knew at the end i would have my very own baby to hold. What more could someone ask for!!!
Mildez-ask away i have no shame lol.
My doctor said at the moment as i have no spotting or bleeding that sex is fine he will review the placenta at 28 weeks then decide if we need to cut back or give it up altogether:o NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! that would kill me.
I also have a posteria placenta but it completely covers the cervix and i was told i have a 2% chance it will move i was also told have placenta previa grade 4 puts me at risk for vasa previa but they wont check for that until a little later that is where there is problems with the vessels and if they rupture bub will bleed out.
The midwife said to avoid sex or at least be gentle and shallow but i will listen to the doctor and my body and the 1st sign of a spot of blood and we stop but for now i just got home from work and DH whipped me up to the bedroom and i had one humdinger of an orgasm and all has been fine.
I also have been having braxton hicks with no problems but in the back of my head i worry a little so i take it easy.
I have a high risk specialist appt on the 10th so i will be asking everything possible about the risks and what i should or shouldnt do i think 28 weeks they like you to really take it easy you are 2 weeks behind me arent you?.
What day is your appointment ask them about vasa previa seeing as though you have a vesselly placenta.
Tegam-i said the same thing with my 2nd and 3rd i got off the bed after a 4 hour and a 2 hour labour and said i could do that again it was easy and the pain was not to bad my 1st was induced and 26 hours later after a prolapsed cord and emergency OB came in said push push now we need to get bub out so 2 pushes and he was out and in intensive care but again the pushing was easy and quick so i hope i dont have to have a ceasar with this one i want another easy birth.
Ladies ladies we are not bad mothers we are just mothers who care i have done the car door thing with my boys and felt terrible but we are human and our kids are resiliant and they will love you unconditionally whether or not you step on their foot close the door on them or have to pull a splinter.
Forshelby-good for you birth hurts but look what we get at the end of it.
Hi Dory!
Stoked- good to hear the spotting has stopped.
Melster-boo on the ms but yeh its a good sign all is well.
Angel-woohoo on the 30 weeks not long now.
Audax-i hope we havnt heard from you because you have gone off and had you bubby.
AFM-nothing much to report work today fabulous sex this arvo little miss being a disco diva and baked dinner in the oven.
Totally and utterly green here!:
Stoked - I would like to join this Ina May cheersquad, lol. That was the first book I read after Telly sent it to me and I LOVED it. I think that's where I realized I don't have to be afraid of birth. I'm reading Active birth right now and it's just as good, actually more 'technical'. As for the spotting, I wonder if it's still possibly related to implanation? Like a bit of blood took a while to escape the body? Not sure.
Tegam - I'm the opposite I think, grew up around all the birth horror stories. They used to scare me but now they just annoy me. As I said, why don't women support eachother? It's like a competition to see who had the hardest longest labour.. and everyone wants to win. It's stupid! My own sister used to tell me her own birth stories over and over again when I was a kid (she's 12yrs older than me) and delighted in the horrified look on my face! I've decided to put all the negativity aside and just enjoy things. DP is also irritated by the number of people who have told him how awful having a baby is (men he knows at work) and how hard it is and blah blah blah. DP says he wonders if maybe they didn't want their babies, because he's excited about having a little one. (awwww)
Ferrals - exactly!!! Well said. Congrats on the great sex... lol.
AFM - Just about to check out the baby's room, DP has snuck in and hung our little mesh toy hanging thingiemagig and I'm dying to see it. :) YAY!
me post: not looking good. At 6w1d I measured exactly 6 wks but now at 7w5d I only measure 6w5d. The baby has grown a bit more than the sac did so the sac now measures not in ratio to baby which is not good. The h/b is supposed to be around 160-180 but is only 117. So it's not looking at all good, almost exactly the same as with the twins back in March. And yes we should be having twins this time as well as there are two clear sacs, but he said one sac is empty. he did abdominal scan not internal. Not sure if that makes any difference? The fact my nausea is not as bad as it was last week is also not a good sign , he said it could mean my hormone levels are already decreasing. I have to go back next Monday morning to see if there is any change.
I think I need all the prayers I can get :(
Angelic - Oh hun, I don't want to give up hope for you. I can tell you this much, an internal scan gives a MUCH clearer image than an abdominal. The news doesn't sound positive though, but still I will cling to any hope I can for you in this scary time. Perhaps next time you can request an internal (because they're so glamorous, of course... :hug:) I'll keep you in my thoughts and will be having some serious words with the universe about giving you a break for once!
AFM - Not a whole lot to report, except that I got a call from Brisbane mater today saying I have a scan booked for next wednesday. Ummmmmm great. I was tempted to refuse it but DP seems to think we should just go along with what the drs say, since we aren't drs ourselves. A good point yes, but as i said to him today: If he can't get the day off, I'm not driving 2hrs round trip by myself into the bowels fo hell (Sorry Brisbane dwellers, but it really is awful driving in the city) for an unneccesary scan. I am in the LOW RISK category, people! Stop harassing me with these extreme measures. Really. This baby is going to be born no matter what, and there is obviously nothing seriously wrong, as the Dr stated that previously saying there would have been some clue in one of my numerous previous scans. But noooo they're going to make me go all the way to Brisbane for something I don't need. The only reason I'm going along with it is so that I can see the baby again, and hopefully a clearer picture on their high tech machines. Ok I'm finished sooking over nothing really, carry on everyone. :shakehead:
Angelicdragon-I am so sorry it is not looking positive but while there is a heart beat and growth i will pray to the same person who gave me my healthy little girl to bring into this world will bless you with a healthy bub also.
Forshelby-just go and prove to them that bub is fine it is proberbly just a precausion.
angelic......im so so sorry.....i will pray for ur little one.....i hope u can get through this time....
Oh Angelic what a stressful time, i am so sorry you dont have any answers at the moment and have to wait a very long week! I will pray for you and you will be in my thoughts. Please continue to post in this tough week, we are all here for you!
Angelic, i have everything crossed that everything will be ok with your bubba. My sonographer told me that at such an early stage it is very easy to get the measurement wrong due to lots of different reasons, their hand shaking a little for one. I am really hoping this is the case for you :hug:
Forshelby, Oh well... at least you'll get to see bub again! Yay for another Ina May cheerleader!
AFM, Nothing much happening here... still no real symptoms, a bit of a watery mouth and metallic taste today, and i'm tireder than normal, but that is pretty much it. No more spotting thank goodness. Off to have another BHCG test tomorrow. POAS again just to check and it scared the heck outta me as the second line took ages to come up (confirm brand - done that to me a few times!) but when it did it was definately darker than the last one so felt good about that.
Hope you all have a lovely night xx
Hey ladies...
Sorry i havent been real positive lately..feel a bit down with everything thats going. I think ms has kicked in, think im sicker than with me DD. With her i felt nauseas but only threw up once or twice. With this one i have already thrown up 4 times and i havent been able to do much which is strange for me. I couldnt even go shopping..and TRUST me thats strange in its self. I have felt real tired and have been having nana naps..and all i have felt like doing is lying on the couch...i suppose you could say thats a good thing with having the ms..but i just dont feel positive....i have had a few more drops of blood..back ache...and some period type pains...nothing bad...but im still really paranoid. Would like nothing more than to pretend its ok and not have my next scan which is Friday...but i know i cant just dip my head in the sand...im pretty emotional and not talking to hubby because he has upset me...some of it is hormonal...im just not feeling real good at the moment and feel quiet low...im hoping though that things will look brighter soon
Thinking of you all!!!!!!!
Stoked...i hope things go well with you're tests!!! and angelic...i am constantly thinking about you..i know what i am going through...let alone what you are and you're in my thoughts and i am praying for you!!!!!!!! hugs
Angelic - oh love - praying for your little bubba and you....
Melster - it's so hard to feel positive when you feel sick, and in the early days, when there are no exciting signs of the pregnancy. But if you are tired, take heed and rest, it's your body and bubba telling you to rest. Sending you postive vibes....
Stoked - thinking of you.
Tegam - how are you going? Keep holding out little one....
Forshelby - LOL re the bowels of hell ( aka Brisbane). I hope DH can get time off work and go with you. It is a long way to go for a scan that you could have elsewhere. Like you said you're not high risk. There is a high risk clinic there.
AFM - had a vivid dream that felt so very real yesterday and it was scary. I was unable to move, see or talk - like I'd had a stroke. Yukko. I was snoozing on the lounge under a blanket in the heat as I had felt pretty shivery and nauseated. I was hoping to puke to get it over with but after about 4 hours it passed. Luckily Hannah Bear was asleep the whole time and by the time she woke up I felt a lot better. Not 100% right but better.
forshelby - on the upside, I will be at the Mater next Wednesday too, assuming that this kiddo hasn't made an entrance by then. Give us a wave! I have never driven or parked there, it is a nightmare. I hate driving in the city too, particularly sucky cos I live here!
dory - yuck! Hope that doesn't happen again! And how lovely that Hannah slept through it.
stoked - fingers super-crossed, hun, but I'm sure it's nothing.
Melster - nice one on the nanna naps, get in as much rest as you can!
I went on a cleaning spree yesterday, but now I'm a bit sore and tired. Really want to kep going, but also kinda want to conserve my energy. Might try some easy jobs today.
Angelic - I'm so sorry to hear that things are not looking good. I am hoping like anything that there is better news when they do the next scan on Monday :hug: and :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy:
Melster - I'm really sorry that you've had some more bleeding. But it really is a good sign with the morning sickness, and the backache and period pain are completely normal. Best of luck for your scan on Friday hun. Keeping everything :crossfingers:
stoked - best of luck for your test tomorrow, hope you get some good numbers back.
dory - that dream sounds awful! I hope you are feeling better now.
forshelby - how annoying about the scan! I hope at least they can get some good pics for you.
Audax - ah - nesting! Must be getting close!
ferrals - glad to hear you're having a good time!!
I am really starting to freak out about my scan on Friday. I thought I was feeling the baby move last week, but now I don't have anything. I am so scared that the baby has died, and when we go for the scan there will be no hb. I lay awake for hours in the middle of the night last night trying to feel movements, but got nothing. With DS I didn't really get kicks until I was 22-23 weeks, but given that this is baby #2 I feel like I should be feeling things by now. I just hate this anxiety. Still have to get through three more days :(
HB
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Audax - OMG OMG OMG I am super excited for you! I almost want to come to the Mater to see you! LOL... As if you need another visitor!! Nesting huh? Go easy n yourself. OMG I am so excited for you or did I already say that? Wishing you all the best and can't wait to be reading about how your bubba just rocks your world.
Honeybee - oh sweetie.... nothing anyone can say can take that fear away! I hope that you get through it and get to see your little passengers HB nice and strong... but until you do, you will be nothing but a bundle of nerves and fear. Sending you as much strength as you need to get through.
AFM - I had plans to go out and then got a phone call. Now am waiting for another phone call at 11.30am. Maybe I can go out then. Have a sleep refuser today so might was well get out. I stayed home yesterday after my scary dream... oh so brave.
Ferrals - Yeah, I'll do that! I just wish I knew why they were insisting I do this when nothing is going to change the outcome of this pg. We love this baby and it's going to be born no matter what now.
Stoked - We're trying to look at it that way. DP's boss was understanding and gave him the day off to come with me so I feel a bit better about it now. Good luck with your next round of bloods. Oh also, apparently the darkness of the line on the test doesn't really mean a whole lot.. can't remember where I heard that. I think it was Kit? Anyway, as she would say, a line is a line is a line. :) Hooray!!!
Melster - Don't be afraid to turn to your husband at a time like this, hun. That's what he's for. Remind him of that :) I'm looking forward to hearing a positive result from your scan on Friday.
Dory - Hehe, yeah I found it a bit hard to swallow that there was NOWHERE on the entire Gold Coast to have this scan done. I was ranting to DP 'don't they know what low risk means?! Imagine if we were high risk what they'd be putting us through'. I'm trying not to be a whinger and a 'victim' like my mum was and always trained us to be............ but seriously, wtf is with every little milestone in this pg meaning something goes wrong with the technical side? (drs, hospital, scans etc) I mean I had the paperwork go missing 3 TIMES! Had some of my bt results 'lost' and had to have them done again, got the trainee 2 hour scan, had 2 separate doctors pulverize my belly and upset me, enjoyed a 2hr wait for an unneccesary appointment at the hospital to be told I'm going to Brisbane in about a month for this scan, then I receive a phonecall telling me it's NEXT WEEK...... am given absolutely no notice and have to organize DP's schedule to get us there. *deep breath* I realise a lot of these things are small.... but when you add them up OMG it's frustrating. It's like they've decided I'm high risk and haven't told me or something! Anyway, in short I'm glad I'll have DP there with me and if we're lucky and it doesn't drag on all day we might go out for lunch or something in the city. Ok, rant over! I hope the icky sickness stays away for you, sounds awful! And the dream, even worse! So glad Hannah Bear was such a good girl and slept right through it all. PS. I just scrolled down and noticed you also had an 'omg omg omg' moment for Audax... LOL, we ARE cosmic twins! We can all have a little party in the waiting room, hahaha. It'd be great to introduce DP to some of my fellow 'mummy's clubbers' as he calls us hehehe. I think he's getting into it, just the other day he asked me if anything 'juicy' was happening in the boohoo room.... LOL how cute is that?!
Audax - Oooh how exciting! And to think I just had a big rant, now I'm kind of excited lol. We'll have to tell eachother what colour we'll be wearing, lol. I have to be there just before 11am. What a freaky co-incidence that is. I take back the last part of my previous rant. And I just realized you're past your due date! OMG OMG OMG :o *dances around frantically* heheheehe....
Honeybee - Yeah, I'm trying to stay positive about it, at the very least it'll be nice for DP to have a day off mid-week. Those early movements can be so hard to pick up on.... it was around 18 weeks I was becoming sure those tiny flutters were the baby, but they weren't regular. Sometimes I'd go days without anything happening. Don't stress about it, it's possible that bubby is tucked into your spine so you aren't feeling all the action going on in there, just a little bit of it. The odds are in your favour, hun and this baby is going to be kicking up a storm in no time.
AFM - I think I ranted enough above, hehe so I'll just say wooooah I'm having some weird vivid dreams lately! This morning's one involved a lot of water, and trying to carry my puppy dog through it (he doesn't swim) it was weird! I also drove my car into the water which is one of my WORST nightmares. I must've fallen off a cliff or something in a past life because every time I'm driving near an edge (especially when there's water below) I feel really tense and just want to be away from there. Yep, I'm having a strange day alright. :) And how's everything with you guys? :D
Dory....how scary!!!!!!
Audax....dont over do yourself..
Honeybee.....wish i had some answers for you or some help.....but im in the same position but i am only 7 weeks......unfortunately i dont think the fear goes away...mc seems to take the pleasure out of some of the pregnancy stuff.....the fear is consuming me.....I will HOPE and PRAY you're little one is ok and healthy and i hope the scan comes quickly....i know with DD i felt her after my 20 week scan...they do say you might feel the 2nd baby earlier..but i think it also depends on were the placenta is...if its at the front you wont feel it as much.....sending you hugs...i know the anxiety sucks babe....wish i knew how to help myself and then i could help you...:p
I need some moral support from people who will understand, sorry to crash, but I know some of you really well...... I just wrote this in my blog, but it didn't much help....
"I recently sent out combined birth announcement thankyou cards for Hannah. One of the paragraphs was - "Our much anticipated and much adored baby girl, carried to us on the wings of angels". It was my way of recognising and paying tribute to Amelia, Nicholas and Sophie, but trying to do it in a way that didn't take away from the moment for Hannah. If I do say so myself, I thought it was just right, and balanced the need to honour my angels with the desire to celebrate Hannah's arrival.
A person who received hers yesterday said to me over the telephone today " Oh, carried to us on the wings of angels huh.... I am worried about that, what kind of weird religious bent is that? Who wrote that?" All said in a disparaging tone of voice and with the implication that my DH wrote it.
In the instant that she said that I wanted to yell in response that it was referring to Amelia, Nicholas and Sophie, but surely no one could be so obtuse as to miss the reference, especially when they knew my babies before Hannah had died? In that instant I wanted to yell at the person for being so damn hurtful In that instant I wanted to hang up the phone and cry, In that instant I did none of those things, and I just don't know why.
So now as the tears roll down my cheeks, I question why I didn't do any of those things and wonder if I am just too weak to stand up for myself and my children, and then I wonder why I can't stand up for my children, my children who can't do it themselves. Does it mean that I don't love them enough? But then I think, perhaps I just rose above such hurtful comments and the small mind who felt the need to say such inexplicable things. Perhaps I am stronger than I think. I just don't know, all I know is it hurts, it hurts more than I care for it to right now. But I still ponder am I reed that gets pushed around by the stream of life or am I an oak standing tall and resolute?
Grief my old companion, is never far away and with grief comes so much self doubt. Today
my companion exacts a heavy toll and not one that I think I can resolve.
Forshelby - it really is the boohoo room for me today. You must be so frustrated with all the technical stuff just making this journey harder than it has to be. I want to say I am so proud of your for trying to not be a victim and breaking out from that mould... you are going to be such a good mumma to your little one.
Oh where do you start Dory! Ibelieve i have gotten to know you well over the past year and i must say that straight away i thought it was because you are stronger than you realise. I have said it before and i believe it will all that i am, your children could not have asked for a better mother or a stronger one. You show all of us here on BB how to live a life of courage not fear. You show such grace and pride when you talk about all your children.
When i read your new signature with the words "carried to us on the wings of Angels" My heart broke in two, but in the best possible way. It is the most beautifully written tribute to ALL of your children that any parent could have written!
Be proud! Ignore the small people, sadly there are a lot of them!
All my love and strength to you today, i know grief will never be far away, but luckly now neither will hannah bear!
You were always going to have a horrible roller coaster of emotions when HB arrived and this is just part of that cycle!
Very humbly i offer you my praise and say "i think you are doing and amazing job!"
Dory - Awwww... YOU ARE AN OAK! I think we've all had that moment where someone says something incredibly hurtful/insensitive and we just freeze. Don't feel bad about that, your babies know you love them, whether you yell at the ignorant people or not. I guess you can't go through life yelling at every brainless twit who makes a comment they shouldn't. I think that would really take away from the whole 'dory' effect you have going on, and probably give you a sore throat cause there are a LOT of twits out there. Few people can understand the things you've been through..... so I guess all we can do is turn a blind eye to spare ourselves the heartache. I felt like I should have yelled at the Dr who said my mc didn't count and that this is my first pg. (I know wtf) I wanted to slap her. But I, like you just stared at her and said nothing while my mind raced with all the things I felt like I should say to defend my baby.
I agree that you simply rose above this person's awful remarks. You handled the situation with the same grace you bring to every aspect of your life, it seems. Don't doubt yourself for a second, you're my hero, woman! Sometimes when something is not going right for me I sit down and I think 'What would Dory say?' Really. It's ok to feel grief, I'm sure it'll be something that comes and goes for the rest of your days. It's something you'll have to tackle as it arises, and just walk yourself through those dark moments. I know Hannah will be the shining light you need to get you through those times, she truly is a living angel. Just remember that you're an amazing woman, and have inspired so many of us on here. And once again you've put my little issue into crystal clear perspective for me. From this day forward you shall be known as The Oracle.. lol. :)
They say it takes 10 compliments/positive statements to outweigh a negative. I hope I've helped to even things up a bit, hun. :hug: I hate to see you so down.
(I'm not even going to continue on with my silly rant from earlier, it seems so petty now. But I must say thankyou for such a lovely compliment.... and if I turn out to be a good mother it'll be because of everything you've taught me about strength and kindness. :hug: )
Tegam - We must have posted at the same time. You echoed my thoughts exactly. And now I'm going to have a little cry. Very well said.
dory - don't you question anything about yourself, madam, ever. You're a wonderful strong mum and all your babies ar very lucky to have you. Remove that toxic person from your life - what a horrid thing, to even think that way, let alone say it to you.
Honeybee - same thing happened to me with movements; I got them between 15 and 17 weeks, and they were daily, and then from 18-20 there kinda wasn't a lot, and I was a little afraid, yet strangely calm going into the morph scan, convinced something would be wrong. Baby, of course, was fine, and now I assume it was because the placenta had sort of moved and it altered the way I could perceive the movements. About 21 weeks they were back good and strong. And now, baby is trying to bust out the front. Not gonna happen, kiddo!
forshelbs - I usually have 10am appointments, haven't made this one yet, kind of hoping I won't have to, that Bambino will come on out. That'll be my 10th day over, so there's a grand chance that could be the big day!
I think I'm the most pregnant person on BB right now :D Awesome.
Audax - Hehehe congrats on being the most pregnant person here! That's so cute. It would be sooooo great if I got to see you on your big day! I'll be keeping a close eye on you, girlie. Who's your PIG?
AFM - Right now I need icecream. NOW!
Dory..i think it sounded beautiful...and i dont know you that well...but i knew exactly what you meant!!!
Audax....how you feeling????
Forshelby...you sound like myDD..she loves icecream...
ATM...well i have had a couple more spots of blood today, still feel sick but havent thrown up today. Im tired and my back is aching...been quiet hungry as well and had a packet of chips and chocolate bar...i havent eaten as much as with DD though and havent put on as much weight...im quiet emotional....and im just trying to avoid the bad thoughts...scans friday but i am by no means looking forward to it..keep picturing him saying..."im sorry"....I should let hubby in but he didnt come to the last scan and im really annoyed at him plus other things...hes not one to really show his emotion either and im ready to bite his head of so its probably better i just be alone for now....I want to say that i love you ladies..others dont seem as friendly or maybe its because i dont know them as well...:grouphug:
Audax - Happy 40wks!!!!!!!!!!!! :dance: Oooh im so excited for you!!! Yee haa!
Girls - check out my ticker!! 12 wks!!!!!!! yeeeeeh!! :leap: Im soooo excited!! Having scan on Monday morning! Have been listening to bubbys heartbeat every night with the doppler, so reassuring! :wiggle:
Wow - I am truly humbled.... thankyou so very much Forshelby, Tegam and Melster. I am crying again, but tears of love and gratitude and warmth, that I have found such amazing people to be part of my life.
Oh Forshelby, LOL, about icecream. I LOVE icecream. For a little while after HB was born I didn't eat any but thankgod I am back to loving it. It is the elixir of the gods. Just vanilla will do.... what flavour did you have? Icecream does soothe the throat from all the yelling at the small people :)
I forgot to add a bit about my mum.... why oh why does she says these things when I am only half listening and distracted? Serve me right be not listening properly. Today she told me that there is no way I could have another child as the risk is too high I will die ( due to pre ecamplsia and HELLP) and leave Hannah and possibly the new baby without a mother.... another one of those WTF moments. Talk about catastrophising. I know she means well, but oh dear, that is just such a tactless thing to say. I know my mum is different to yours, but gee mine has some clangers... and I do like to share them, as they just defy comprehension. Oh not sure if I told you about the one the other day? She rang all excited... here's how it went - "Oh you're not still drinking soy milk are you? Reply yes. Oh, well there is a class action going on against bon soy for causing miscarriages because of too much iodine. It's on the telly now - switch it on!" Reply - No". Damn, every time she says that it infers ( at least to me) that somehow my drinking soy milk caused the deaths of my children. Must tell her that one day....
Don't minimise your "feelings"... because they are important to you and make you who you are. Just because you think someone else is having a rough trot doesn't mean that you're not. It's not a competition. It does say that you're a beautiful person to think of others. So remember it's ok to put yourself and your feelings first and work through them. I will listen.
hmm guess what it says is that we have no control over anyone else except ourselves but it can be such a hard road.
T Hopes - Congrats girl - 12 weeks is a great milestone. Next will be your next milestone - so glad you have a scan close by to give you reassurance. Onwards and upwards! Not long til your scan!
Audax - I too love the fact you are the most UTD mumma on BB!
Melster - keep strong... omg ... I would love to eat some chips now... both crisps and hot chips. Do you find hot chips help with nausea? They do for me. FX crossed for no pukkies tomorrow too and especially on Friday! Thinking of you for Friday.
I will try not to take over the thread tomorrow, but I do sincerely appreciate your support. Exactly what I needed... but if ever I need it, friends will also tell me I am being a turkey and need to get a grip. Deal?
Hi Girls!
Once again i have been very very slack!!!
Dory- Honestly i wld not worry about ur 'friend' at all! I instantly thought JEALOUSY when u wrote what she said. Shes obviously jealous that ur such a strong strong lady. Either that or shes got no brain to be able to figure out what u meant! Sorry to be harsh.. i dont like seeing anyone upset u tho! Oh and i have had those dreams before! I have had them quite a few times ever since i was about 10. I used to think i was actually awake but have realised now that i am definitely sleeping. Sometimes i wld hear my mum talking to me and i wldnt be able to respond and i wld be paralysed.. but after i woke up i'd ask her and she hadnt come near me! Its really really weird. Whenever i am sleeping i can feel when its about to happen and i try my hardest to wake myself up out of it cos its so scary. It usually happens when i am having day time naps, it must be a kinda light sleeping thing.
T-Hopes- WOOHOO!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! :dance: Listening to the babys hb is really reassuring hey.. im so glad i got my doppler when i did or i wld have gone insane! I reckon i wlda needed a billion more ob appointments! It definitely got me thru the couple of weeks after i had my little bleed. Ive been holding off using mine more then like twice a week tho cos i have heard that the soundwaves can affect babys hearing in the future. Have u heard this??? Ive done a bit of googling cos i wld love to use mine more but theres a lot of info for and against them so it makes it hard! I dont think they have been around long enough to do enough studies. Hmmm not sure... have u spoken to ur ob about them? If he says they are fine i might start using mine more! (in secret cos my dh wants me to learn to relax on my own!) Once again congratulations!!!
Melster- I think ur m/s sounds very very promising. Ignore the fact u havent put on any weight.. i only just put on my first kg since falling pg! The ob. said its completely normal not to put any on until later. Especially since u have been vomiting. So annoying that ur still spotting... i really wish it wld go away for u! U dont need that extra stress! Just remember u have a hb and that is a fantastic start!!!! Best of luck for ur next scan :)
Stoked- Will u get ur bt results tomoro?? FX everything is perfect!! :)
Forshelby- Im so glad ur dp can get the day off to go with u to ur u/s. Annoying that u gotta go tho!! Im missing something.. why are they sending u for this one??? Or are u not entirely sure?! Is it ur babys clubfeet or something else? Or has it got to do with ur placenta positioning??? From the sounds of it tho i think ur just as confused as me! :) Have u decided to stick it out at the gc hosp or have u started looking into the tweed one?? Oh and its a bit late.. but i cant believe there was no cake at the party!!! Food is the only reason i go anywhere these days!!! haha.. i hope u feasted on the rest of the nibblies!
Audax- Woohoo for u!!!!! A huge congratulations!! Have u started on the raspberry tea yet?? :)
Angelic- Oh u poor thing/ A hb of 119 isnt that bad tho, one of my friends had a 6 wk scan not long ago and her babies hr was 122 and nothing was said.. everything was perfect!! I am really hoping the measurements are spot on at ur next scan, i am keeping my fingers crossed for u. Best of luck x
Tegam- I hope u have started feasting on yummy things like cheesecake to try and fatten ur little bubba up! :) I really want to see a tummy pic still! Can u put one on ur bb profile?? Are u still feeling quite small??
Honeybee- Oh i can feel ur fear u poor thing :( friday will be here before we know it and i bet u will get that reassurance u desperately need. Have u thought about getting a doppler?? Like i said to T-Hopes I wlda died without mine! The movements are meant to come and go at these early stages so pls try and stay positive and have faith that ur body is going to produce a beautiful healthy little baby! (I have to tell myself this everyday) Have u thought of pg yoga?? It is great in helping to relax my mind and feel that connection with my baby. Maybe u shld look into it??
Im so sorry if i have missed anyone, im sure i have but its been so long since i posted its hard to keep up!!
AFM- Well i think i am finally feeling proper movements! Yay!!! Im not entirely positive that it is the baby im feeling.. im still in a bit of denial i think!! But the weird thing is I can occasionally feel it from the outside too.. i thought that was meant to come later??! I never got the flutters either, im just getting little pushes. I really cant wait til i can feel what body part etc it is and its more frequent. I keep prodding my tummy to try and make it kick back but it never does when i want it too!
I have properly popped too!!! Its so exciting!!! There is no way i can suck this pot belly in now. My belly button also doesnt have any creases in it anymore.. it will be an outtie in no time at all! I love noticing new little thing about my bodily changes :)
Anyway i think thats all my goss for now!
I hope everyone is having a good week!
xxx
Im not one for get a grip....what about suck it up princess??
Audax: WOOHOO but a title i never want to hold! Can wait for your BA.
T-Hopes :happyforyou: woohoo 12 weeks congrats! :happyforyou:
Melster: Like Dory said as well as what you said. Yes we are all very supportive of each other!
Dory said it forshelby and again she is right, it is not a competition we can all have our vents. Sometimes in fact it helps to know others are having a rough time. There are enough of us in this group of ours that there is room for a few to fall apart everyday :rofl:
AFM: i had my turn in my Bellybuddies group this morning. Not sure why i didnt post it in here, it was more suited to you girls but am now feeling better anyway, well sort of.
Suck it up princess it is.... T - glad you got to vent and that you're feeling better, sort of hugs. What are you doing with the tiddly winks during the school hols?
Reet - thankyou sweetie. Excellent for real movements. That is just the best.
Nothing nothing at all Dory! That is the beauty of holidays. i know most mothers complain about the holidays but at our house they are perfect! We dont have to rush to dress, the kids ride bikes, play on the swings, use the cubby house and this will be our first summer with a pool so what more could we need! Oh thats right we are welcoming a lovely new baby (thats all the girls have asked for off santa is the baby)! I love PJ days, sleep ins, dress ups and dancing parties. Holidays are the BEST.
How come i only get a sort of hug??
forgot to say that im so glad that you stil come in here and post. I was worried that after i have bubs i will have to move to parenting after loss thread?? I dont know anyone there and then i wont see everyone else thru their pregnancies??
Melster - Keep challenging those bad thoughts hun! Turn that 'I'm sorry' into 'there's your baby'.
T-Hopes - :dance: 12wks is such a great milestone...... I too was as excited as you. Enjoy your scan on Monday!
Turkey - I mean Dory - :D My mum is exactly the same!! Let's bond over it, here goes: I wish I had found the word 'catastrophising' earlier, because it explains her in a nutshell. You can't open a window because a huge storm might brew in 10 seconds flat, suddenly pour rain thus soaking every object in my house, yes even the ones far from the windows. :o LOL. And I should get rid of my furbabies because they'll try to kill the baby. Ummm.. yeah ok. Apparently it's ok to discard members of the family because a new baby is coming. :shakehead: I do the same as you. Respond with a flat NO. Oh and wow about the soy milk comment.... I'd be really upset too, and it does seem like she's prodding at the loss of your previous babies in trying to make you watch a news clip on mc. I mean seriously, wtf. Thanks for your reassurance, but I do sometimes feel like a bit of a drama queen when I'm off on one of my complainy-pants rants and then someone else has something going on which just makes my thing seem... insignificant. But in a good way I promise. It helps me to realize things aren't all that bad, and that I should vent and move on quickly. :) I can always count on you to listen, even if I am being a complainy-pants. Feel free to take over the thread any time you want, you're still a very valued member in here. :)
Reet - I'm not entirely sure what this next scan is all about, except that they mentioned 'making sure nothing else is wrong'. Then the Dr went on to contradict herself saying the chances are really slim, given that my Nuchal results were all low risk etc etc. I think they just like to jerk me around, lol. All the same I'm trying to look at the positives and enjoy a day on the road with DP instead of bored out of my mind at home, NOT doing the housework I should be doing. Apparently they aren't looking at bubby's feet or the placenta. I'm so bad at making big decisions, I still haven't done anything about the hospital... I'm just sitting on my hands for the time being and wondering what I should do. I'm still devastated about the no cake situation, lol.. yes. The other nibblies were um, not so fantastic and kind of just left out in the open for hours on end, so I stayed away from it. And of course every single adult at the party was drinking and chain smoking so let's just say I was a hit with the kiddies. LOL Soooo excited you're getting proper movements, yaaay! I know what you mean about the 'pushes'. My belly moves on its own now and I can see something moving around in there which I find very entertaining. Keep prodding, bubby will respond soon hehe. The disappearing bellybutton thing is also exciting, isn't it? I used to giggle every time I poked it, now the novelty has kind of worn off haha. Enjoy all the little changes, before long they'll be BIG changes! Apparently I am waddling according to DP which I find hilarious. Keep me posted on the movements and I'm still hanging out to see the latest belly pic!
Tegam - I definitely agree. On both points. Dory is right, and it does help to know I'm not the only one having a moment. LOL and it's true, there probably are enough of us in here that one or two of us can have a moment without the thread turning into a big pile of sooking women, lol. Glad you're feeling better, feel free to have your vent in here anytime, god knows I do!
i wouldnt go as to far as to say we arent all sooking women :rofl:
Just as a little side, sometime i do think mothers have it a little hard. Mine is great and she still super ****es me off sometimes! But Dory yours has always sound like a cracker and forsheldy yours is the same!