Chody47, I totally understand what you are going through. I actually did have some bleeding with this pregnancy but even after it stopped I was still toilet paper checking and to be honest, I still catch myself doing it now. It becomes a habit I think. For me, it was information that eased my mind. Firstly it was the HCG numbers and then the early scan with the sac and pole and then the next scan with the heartbeat and then the 12 week scan. I know many people don't believe in scans and numbers and think we should just trust our bodies and to some extent, I do understand this thought process. However, I was so stressed the whole time that information was power to me and I wasn't afraid to ask for more BT's and scans just to "check." My thoughts are with you and I hope you can enjoy this time as well.