Pregnant after recurrent miscarriage

[LadyRaven]

I've got a BFP, BHCG is at 2800 mark at 5 weeks feel like death warmed up and sore all over.

I had my first son fine, then 3 miscarriages, one at the half way mark, a blighted ovum at 10 weeks and one at 5 weeks, it's been 4 months since my last m/c.

Everytime I feel the slightest tiniest bit of CM I run to the toilet checking for blood, every cramp brings a chill, every twinge = STRESS. When do you stop stressing? I can't help but hope they'll stitch me shut and put me into a monitored coma 24/7 till I pop, then they can wake me.

Ultrasound next Friday, specialist Thursday. Do you ever stop stressing or is it only when bubs has made 18 years old you take a short breath before all the new stresses of them entering the world without mum hehe