Hi girls

This seems to happen to me about two weeks after every ultrasound - my confidence starts to wear away and I start worrying about everything, looking for bad signs and thinking that my baby has died.

I keep reading on BB that loads of women are already feeling regular movements at this stage, I'm not (even though I have an anterior placenta and was told movements would come later). I feel like my belly is not getting as big as it should, looks flatter down low than it did last week - the big bulge is higher up. DH insists that my belly looks bigger, not smaller, but I can't stop worrying about it. I feel like the bulge should be where my pubic hair line is, but there is a bit of a ridge, then a bulge above that.

I keep having awful dreams about miscarrying again, I woke up almost in tears again this morning after a dream where I went to the loo and saw lots of blood. The dreams really aren't helping me to feel calm and confident.

Can anyone please reassure me that I don't need to be feeling movements and that worrying about the size and shape of my belly is unnecessary??

I wish I could just calm down a bit and enjoy this, I'm just so scared of losing the baby again (even though I lost my first baby at 9.5 weeks and I'm now almost 17 weeks). Part of me feels I'm being irrational and worrying unnecessarily, but I just can't control it.

I really don't know how I'm going to get through the next three weeks until my next scan.

Any reassurance at all will be most gratefully received.

p.s please no scary stories - I am already freaked out enough as it is!!

Devon
xxxx