I understand why you could be scared - you've never given birth before so it's easy to be afradi of the unknown! I'm not saying you are phobic but I did read a really good artcile in the Practical Parenting magazine at some stage last year (between Feb and Sept - sorry I can't be more specific!). Anyway it was a really good article on being phobic of labour and gave some good tips. Maybe you can find a copy of that and see if it helps. Best wishes and remember - after the hell a beuatiful baby comes out at thhe end!