Hiya everyone

I just thought I would post in here again to let those of you who have offered so much kindness and support during my pregnancy that Abby is perfectly fine and does not have Downs after all.

I had a c section at 38 weeks. It was in my file that her cord blood had to be sent for testing, but my Ob told me that i would have to remind everyone on the day that it had to be done. I took his advice and told everyone that came in contact with me that her blood had to be sent off for testing.

When I was in recovery I asked the midwife if Abby looked like she had it, she keept going back and forward to look at her but she told me she was to swolen to tell and she just couldnt be sure.

Abby was in special care so i didnt get to spend that night with her, but i asked each midwife that came to look after me if they could go look at her and tell me what they thought. They all said they couldnt tell for sure but she looked "good"....

My lovely midwife suprised me with a hungry visitor at 4am the next morning. This is when i got to bond with my darling, i got to feed her, kiss her, cuddle her and i just fell so deeply inlove with this little angel. I thought i loved her before, but that was nothing compared what i felt for her when we were finally together.

I think it was day 2 when my DF told me that the pead had looked her over and decided not to send the blood off afterall beacuse he was sure that she didnt have Downs. It was good news, but I was so angry that the blood hadnt been sent. All thru the pregnancy id been told different things by different people and i just wanted to know for certain one way or another. I thought what DF was telling me hearsay as nobody had come to me directly to tell me why they think she doesnt have it.

I felt like they were happy to remind me at each appointment all the reasons that suported her having it, so why cant they do the same for her not having it.

Anyway, i left it at that, we went home on day 5 but after some feeding issues we were back in for a night.... hormones getting the better of me, I burst into tears after one midwife wouldnt stick to the plan we had for Abby, that if she couldnt get a propper feed off me, we would tube feed her and go from there. She just wouldnt do it and keept stuffing around with me expressing and putting bub on the boob where she was getting nothing at all. So i burst into tears and told her that i was sick of everything that had happened, being told by the ob that it was diagnosis that she had downs for sure, being told that we had to decide if we wanted to keep her if she had it, being treated like a naughty school girl after deciding not to have the amnio, being kept in hospital so many times for stupid reasons like my BSL's when they were on target, them not sending the blood away, being told she had a hole in her heart (tiny thank god!) and now her not going with the plan they had come up with to get Abby better again after going without propper feeding.

She was shocked by what i had to say, about what other drs had told us and the way things had happened. She got another pead to come in and go over Abby in front of me and they also offered to do another blood test and send it off if i was still concerned. That pead also organised the most senior pead to come in the next morning and go over Abby again. He was wonderful. He pointed out all the reasons for her not having downs and explained everything to us. In the end he said he can say 100% that Abby does not have downs. It was what i needed to hear. I could stop worring. It was a wonderful moment. Df, Abby and i then snuggled for about an hour, just happy that it was all finally over.

We went home that day. Abby is the most wonderful baby. She is always happy, eats well, sleeps thru the night and she just adores her bath time!

We are such a happy little family, i am thankful every day that she is happy and healthy. I dont take her for granted..... babies are such little miracles and i feel blessed to have her.