I can totaLly relate to that. Both my pregnancies I was always waiting for something bad to happen, I never really believed I would get a baby out of it until the days they were born. For me I think that was because it was so hard to conceive so it was all so surreal.

In retrospect I feel like I robbed myself of the joy and funa nd anticipation that so many women have, because the whole time I still felt like I was infertile, even though I was pregnant if that makes sense, I still had that infertile mindset.

I so hope you can feel better about it soon and enjoy it like you deserve to x