Congratulations!!! I completely understand where you're coming from and have been feeling very much the same as you!! I had a missed m/c in May, found out at my 10wk scan that bubs had died and it was the worst feeling in the world.
I'm now 20wks and had my 19wk scan last week. Felt the same as you, scared but then sooo wonderfully relieved that all was perfect. It's such a beautiful thing and I treasure this pg every day (even when the heartburn kicks in)!!!
The kicks are just the most wonderful thing - I'm feeling a lot of movement now too, it's great!!
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