Thanks Snacks, I think your understanding is worth more than anything! I was mostly wondering if that was right/wrong in a way.
The whole birth has been sitting in the back of mind bothering me since it happened. There were a bunch of tiny little things like that throughout the whole experience. So now when I mention it, I have to edit all the ranting out of it.
Babes, feel free to rant as much as you like! (I did just then, and it wasn't even my birth, LOL!) There's a section on the forum devoted to birth debriefing. You'll find that a really comforting place to go through it all and get it out there, if that's what you'd like to do. Ranting and all

de-briefing-disappointing-traumatic-births/