Thanks girls, i am trying to be all 'zen' but sometimes the fears come through. my post wasn't very fluid, but your replies expressed exactly my thoughts.

In less than a month, blackduckies, sue and i will all be holding little ones in our arms. now that's a nice thought.

i was embarassed about posting, but am now happy that i did cos at least i know i m not the only one stressing out a little now.

xx