Well I don't really know where to post this, so thought here would do.

I'm feel really down at the moment about having to wait for bubs to come. I just wish she would come out to meet us. Only 4 days til my due date. I don't wanna go overdue, but i'm starting to get a feeling that I probably will. Getting a few niggling pains here and there but nothing to get excited about as they just go away after about 20 minutes.

Last Wednesday at my doctors appt. my fundal height was measuring 40 weeks. So there's probably not much room left in there, if any at all. So why doesn't bubs wanna come out?

I heard that being overdue has a lot to do with genetics. Since my mum was 22 days overdue with me, i'm starting to get a feeling that i won't go into labor at all and have to be induced. That being one of my fears as i really want to go naturally. If i do have to be induced though, it won't be until i'm 2 weeks over at the least!

For the past three days i've been nesting like crazy! Washing bubs clothes(again), making sure the nursery looks just right, packing and repacking my hospital bag(making sure i have everything). I thought major nesting was a sign that labor was not far off? Well it doesn't look like it to me.

I've also had my show(twice) and still nothing is happening. I've tried numerous things to get things moving, eg. Raspberry Leaf Tea, sex, curry, chilli, anything spicy really(only resulted in very severe heartburn!), long walks, nipple stimulation etc. None of which even brought on any braxton hicks. The only thing i won't try is caster oil, coz apparently it can make the baby pass meconium(sp?)

It's all really making me feel very upset, tired, cranky, and basically just fed up. The only thing I can do is wait, i know. But i am so ready to have this baby, to take on the responsibility as a mother, to feed her, to cuddle her, to tell her i love her. No matter what i do, i just can't stop thinking about it. It's driving me crazy.

Deep down, I know i'm gonna meet this baby soon(she can't stay there forever, can she?) but it really does feel like an eternity and that that day is never going come.

Sorry for my huge whinge, but it needed to come out. I felt this was the best place to say it as you are all very wonderful, supportive and understanding people.

Thanks for listening.