I understand the reflux thing - nothing helps me now either! I am a bit like you - i tend to worry about lal the thigs that can go wrong. WEll I did that more earlier. What I do now is look around me: family, the shops, school anyway really and look at how many "normal" everyday people there are and they came out okay so you have more chance of that happeneing than something really terrible. Does that make sense? it helps me anyway otherwise I would go mad. And also - you'll love your baby no matter what - I'm positive!