Hi Ladies,

I have been absent from the forums for a while as i have had so much to deal with.

I have not really enjoyed my pregnancy, although i am dying to meet my bubba and desperately want to hold her and get to know her. If it wasn't anxiety about m/c or then the morning sickness, the stress of premature labour, reflux, bub's 'quiet days' freaking me out or the stretch marks.. it was my marriage or money woes.

My DH has admitted to a drinking problem, after a very ugly night where he was very aggressive (not towards me physically) verbally and smashed a window at home. He has been completely dry now for like 6 weeks or more, and i am so proud of him. He has no desire to drink or even any craving for it. He also lost his job at the time, putting enormous pressure on us because of the mortgage and current economic climate. Luckily things are just starting to settle and our mortgage company has agreed to a 4 month repreive due to the economic crisis.

So... i am finally feeling good (heavy, refluxy, tired).. but pretty good in general. Finishing up at work next week... and have sex on the brain constantly
I don't want to make a big deal of it, but since DH has stopped drinking we haven't 'you know'... in fact he isn't interested at all.... he isn't craving it, doesn't want it, and is not aroused by the idea of it... not from me, or pics or vids or anything. At first i just let it go... but now i am starting to feel really hurt - irrational i know - it's just that this pregnancy has been SO HARD, and now this last little bit i am feeling good and sexy and it never feels good to be turned down.... i just wish there was something i could do. he doesnt seem very affectionate or touchy feely... i don't think it has anything to do with the baby, more to do with the stress of things and the not drinking etc.... i just needed to vent because it is making me miserable.