Thankyou everyone, knowing that I have support behind me does help alot.

I know that everything is going to be ok, I also know it is going to be alot harder this time as when Matilda was born I had no one to worry about but her, I spent every day, all day at the hospital for 3 months, I am concerned about how I am going to do this this time, I will have Matilda to care for and she is almost walking now, its not fair for her to have to sit around a hospital all day although she is used to it for all of her appointments, and I will be recovering from my CS... I just need to get through those first 2 weeks (which just happen to include Christmas, Matildas first Christmas that she will be aware of the festivities )

Anyway, back to the positive me... we can and will do this!

Thankyou again, everyone.