Thanks Beama! That first one is the same as the one I made yesterday... I think my down fall was the beating, it wasn't stiff, and I've googled some pictures and it looked nothing like those!! plus, the sugar didn't dissolve. I remember feeling it and it felt bitty still, but I just assumed that it was meant to be that way and it dissolved while it baked.
Back to the drawing board!!

JLeigh... I think my dog might have something to say about that haha!