Yeah, I know.

If she were 9 or 10, I wouldn't think twice & would be confident that it was all just part of life.

I dunno. Its all so daunting. Confusing. I actually wouldn't mind too much if it is AF, coz I'd have an answer & that would mean it wasn't something more seriouse. But I'd much prefer if it was a fall! But being inside for 5 days not being able to ride bikes & run feral has me wondering.

I do think I'm being paranoid over nothing really & that it'll all blow over & in 4 or 5 years we might go through what really is AF, & by then we are both more ready for it. But I would much rather be safe than sorry!

And, yes, I will hold it together. I haven't lost it yet, lol.