Welcome to BB.

I have been where you are and its scary.

My suggestion probably not conventional at all - but would be for now let him go, you concentrate on you and your baby don't message/call him just let things settle. I find the more we try push things the harder it gets. So go with the flow right now...

Fill. Your life with so,e supportive friends and family and just do your thing. You will get through this even tho it seems impossible right now