in crisis

[Sunny Love]

My advice would be go to your local or trusted doctor/GP. They are aware of services and can arrange things in the office while you are there in consult. Its also good for you to talk to someone who can support you in real life, and they can do that also.
I hope peace enters your life and heart soon
xx
And for what its worth, I know how hard it can be to leave when things aren't how they should be. Its not a decision anyone ever wants to make, but if you stick to your guns time will make it easier to deal with. Lonliness and survival are not reasons to stay, not saying thats your case at all though.
xx