I am just venting. . . I have been advised by my solicitor to demonstrate that I am reasonable as in terms of constructing a relationship with XP which has been achievable as we are starting to communicate but we have started this process over the past week and half and it is so difficult cause I have feelings for XP but our relationship was complicated by past issues and it is understandable that we broke up (it would have been more helpful if we had of been able to acknowledge and process those past issues). I told XP that I have feelings for him and would like to be in a relationship with him if he felt the same in the future yesterday but tonight we spoke about that and we agreed that it would helpful if we concrentrate on building a friendship and focus on what is in the best interests of DS. Then he says that he does care for me but doesn't have feelings for me but he is conflicted by anger and other negative emotions! Stupid XP. . . It will take time for me to move on but I still hope that as we progress our friendship that we may able to see what we loved about one another instead of seeing the heated and emotional states that we're both been in over the relationship breakdown, family conflict etc. Just venting and hoping for a little family for DS but at least he has a Mumma and Daddy who love him even if we are not together Sorry just having a whinge