I am so sorry you are going through these confusing emotions, especially the mother guilt. Your little boy is lucky that he has a mummy as caring as you. Unfortunately you cannot force people to be decent to children and put themselves second fro once. Sounds like you have a great support network set up and you are confident that you will do single parenting well, so ong as you hav e this confidence everything will work out just fine. I have found this forum such a wonderful place of support, especially since becoming a single parent. Look forward to getting to know you and hearing of the arrival of your baby boy x