Hi to all,

I just seperated from my self confessed compulsive liar partner (seeing a therapist with no real change for past year). We have 2 beautiful boys together aged 2 and 3 who have just spent all day watching recordings of playschool cause I just can't cope with anything else right now. Right now I'm just repeating to myself he hasn't changed, he will never change and I don't want to go back to him because he is not the man I want him to be but the man he is.

Hoping I can get through the next week so I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. But I'm struggling with everything. Luckily I am on annual leave for the next 2 weeks but I don't know how I will cope after that. How do you get day care when you work shift work? (Hubby has been stay at home parent) I work 2 ten hour days followed by 2 14 hour nights and I have to sleep sometime!!! I'm sure it will all work out somehow, just hard to see how atm.

Now he tells me he wants me to sell the house (purchased in my name 3 years ago because he had bad credit and I was still paying off his debts from before we met) so he can have half the equity in it. He seems to think I get to 'keep' the house while he gets nothing. We have only paid off a nominal amount, I might get to 'keep' the house but I also get to 'keep' the mortgage. He can't seem to see that any profit made from selling will only cover paying off the mortgage and the real estate agents for selling, it would hardly even put anything towards setting up somewhere new. Ah well, I suppose I should just give it all time to settle, it is all very fresh and new.

I feel much better for venting.... I could go on for pages....


Blu