I eventually got some sleep, but still it randomly pops into my mind and I have to force a new, happy thought into my head. I know I just need to keep being strong, staying positive and focusing on my baby girl. I hope she knows that no Mother could ever love a child more than I love her, and I will do my best to give her a beautiful, happy life. It can definitely be a tough gig though, this single mother journey!!
hugs babe. It is hard, really hard. My xh moved on before we were even separated - heck we were still married when he started his relationship. This is going to sound horrible but I'm glad he & I don't have any children together, it would have made things even worse. I still have feelings for him, but of the past, more like "I loved him but I don't love him now or even like the person he is".
What I've got is a list of things I'm grateful for, songs that make me smile, of things that make me happy & smile - when I'm having a bad moment (18 months on I still have bad moments) I pull out that list and read it or start singing one of the songs in my head. That helps me to change my mindset.
The most important person in the world is YOU, you have a gorgeous bubba arriving soon, just focus on that. Take each day as it comes, don't worry about what you'll be feeling tomorrow or the next day - just focus on the now.
I hate me XP but I still dont like that since we split hes had numerous girlfriends. Maybe Im just bitter that dating will be harder for me and that he has no responsibility.
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