I hate you ADHD!!

[*Sparklez*]

I'm just having one of those days were I'm lying here after a crappy day looking at my little ds and thinking how come you had to be stamped with this?
I hate ADHD!
I hate how it has Eaten my son
I hate how the only way to manage him is to drug him
I miss the sweet innocent happy fun going gentle fragile little boy I once had..
I live everyday knowing I have failed cause I have to medicate my son to be able to breath, that I could cause him long time health issues in the future..
It sucks
My son has done such a 360 that I feel I don't know him anymore!
When his medicated he is so quiet, do placid, more than normal, I don't know if he even smiles!!
Is he happy?
Will he resent me later?
Aaarrrgghhh I just want him happy!!
I want him to not have to tale all this crap, but not be running out into traffic, scaling fences and poles, screeching out sounds and jumping over all the furniture, attacking people cause they have invaded his space, without him attacking me cause I can't answer his questions and more but honestly I'm so emotionally drained I can't..
So ADHD (and whatever else(still going through diagnosis))
I hate you!!


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[~clover~]

[Pandora]

Hugs.
I couldn't read that and not reply.

[AndiE]

[*Sparklez*]

Thanks ladies, wish I could say it has cheered me up that little outburst,
But just your thoughts are appreciated.. :hug's back at cha's


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[Kazbah]

[~StarBright~]

[Arcadia]

Thinking of you

[Miss.B]

Big hugs sweetie, it must be horrible to watch your lil boy go through all of this. But you are the best mumma to your lil one and he knows that

[~*familyof3*~]

Hey hun, my eldest also has adhd and has medication he is 11. Can I ask what meds his on? It took us yrs to get the right ones and now that we have he is great not docil or ova placid. With others he was. So it might be worth asking ur paed about others to try. The medication shouldemt make them so docil,it should omly help them to slow there thinking a lil so they can be themselves. My boy is on concerta......its a slow release form of ritalin so he gets a low does evenly all day rather then a big serge at first only to give more later.

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[Astrolady]

my best friends son is nearly 9 and is also ADHD. I have had him sleep here the last 2 nights. She used to have him on Ritalin (sp) but didn't like that it was speed based. She now has him on Streterra (sp). You wouldn't know he has ADHD, he's just a normal 9 yr old 'cept he talks heaps LOL. He can still be naughty etc, but I think that is also the environment he is in at the time. She too went through quite a few meds before finding the right one for him.

[~clover~]

Just wanting to see how you guys are going?

Having my own crappy ADHD day today, but its about the stupid stigma attached & the judgement on 'labelling your child'.
I knew it'd happen, but some things, but some people really just cut you to the core

[Miss.B]

Just wanted to send you beautiful ladies a big bear hug

[MamaPan]

Hugs to you, I have no experience in this area but wanted to send you some support (and you too Clover, sounds like a rough day) xxx

[meow]

Oh hon

Get him onto GAPS!

[kelebek]

a diagnosis can be a double edge sword.

[Lisa]

My 17 year old has ADHD and was medicated until he was almost 14. I can honestly say that if your son is anything like mine, he will not resent you for medicating him. My son has described the feeling of being out of control when off the medication and how the medication would help him put everything together. He once described it as being like how you can hear the radio station you're wanting to listen to on the frequency above or below it but it has so much static and it can often make no sense but flick to the correct frequency and it is clear. Being off his meds to him was like being outside the correct frequency and being on them was like listening to the proper station. I don't know if that makes sense to you but it definitely did to me.

My son is great now. The only signs of his ADHD are that he still can't sit still - he is either tapping or bouncing his legs - and his handwriting never improved as he also has dysgraphia. He is working on the handwriting still in the hope that it will improve.

I hate ADHD too, but in a way I know it has made my son into the person he is today. He is never quick to judge someone and he is accepting of everyone.

Hugs hun, you are doing what is right for your little guy