I'm trying hard to be happy

**Catastrophic** · December 15th, 2012, 08:55 PM

But this still really sucks! And I didn't want to go back to my old thread in plat because I read it all over and it's like it happened yesterday... Truth be told it happened 4m5days ago.

Another work colleague is pregnant this will make number 6 just in my section - there really is something in the water!

I feel happy for her (for all of them) - but it brings my incredible sadness and hole in my heart ;( I know it wasn't the right time and my destiny has another path to follow - knowing that doesn't help the hurt.

I don't know what the reason behind this thread is - I know there is no way to make it all better - no one can bring back my baby ;( - just want it all out there - to be listened to and heard that I'm still hurting - no I haven't "got over if yet" and it'd be nice if someone could acknowledge that...

**danita** · December 15th, 2012, 09:36 PM

Hugs be kind to yourself no one should expect u to be over it. Lots more hugs

**feeb** · December 15th, 2012, 09:40 PM

Hugs hun its a tough time for you, being around others who are preg is a constant kick in the guts but will get easier with time. xoxox

**murraycod** · December 15th, 2012, 09:41 PM

HUGGS xxx
The sadness never goes away, but I do hope you find more reasons to smile.
It's really hard to watch everybody else move forward with their lives while you are still daydreaming about what your life should be like today.
Don't ever feel like you are a bad person for having really crappy days, protect yourself as best you can.
I hope you have a happier 2013, although nobody that truly understands what you have been through, ever expects you to forget 2012 xxxx

**Calluna** · December 15th, 2012, 09:42 PM

Cat. I know just what you mean re pregnancies around you. It hurts so much.

Im listening hon and anyone who expects you to get over it, at any stage, clearly has no idea what its like.

**Catastrophic** · December 16th, 2012, 08:28 AM

Thank you ladies

for listening xox

**Jewel** · December 16th, 2012, 08:33 AM

Massive hugs.

xox

**juniper76** · December 16th, 2012, 08:43 AM

I know just what you mean.

**Catastrophic** · December 16th, 2012, 06:02 PM

Thank you... just having a big ole cry this weekend!

**forshelby** · December 16th, 2012, 06:48 PM

Acknowledged, hun. There's no such thing as 'over it'.

The wound never fully closes. Thinking of you.

**luna moth** · December 16th, 2012, 06:55 PM

It's so hard

I'm still iffy with pregnancy announcements, three and a half years and two healthy children later.

Don't feel like you have to be happy; you don't. I often can't manage to say congratulations.

Nobody else will ever get it. And that sucks too.

**Tinks** · December 16th, 2012, 07:13 PM

I can't even imagine how you're feeling but want you to know I luv ya guts Cat.

**myturn** · December 16th, 2012, 07:20 PM

people suck sometimes xox

**Catastrophic** · December 17th, 2012, 05:22 AM

Thank you forshelby, audax and myturn - made me feel a little bit better. Yes some people really do suck.

Tinks - love ya back thank you xoxoxox

**Jaycee** · December 17th, 2012, 09:58 AM

huge

honey xxx

**~TT40~** · December 17th, 2012, 05:28 PM

*hugs* Cat

**Catastrophic** · December 18th, 2012, 07:38 PM

Ty ty ty xoxoxo

**kerbear** · December 18th, 2012, 08:11 PM

Oh Hun i feel for you, you should never be made to feel like you should have gotten over it, you are still grieving what you have lost and I don't think it will ever feel better when people make these announcements
You have every right to take all the time you need and to still feel very upset with it all no matter how long it's been and I don't think a person who has never been through this could completely understand.
Sending you a huge hug xoxo. Take care of yourself and be kind to yourself.