I feel so guilty.
I feel like I am responsible for my baby's death. She had the cord around her neck 3 times and was breach at 31 weeks. The doctor told me at my last appointment at 30 weeks to get on my hands and knees when the baby was active to give them more room to flip. At the time we didn't know the cord was around her neck.

The night my baby died she had been really active, I was on my hands and knees trying to get her to flip. I even pushed her bum a little bit to help her turn. There was a lot of moving around that night. She was wiggling all over the place. The next morning I didn't feel her anymore and when I went to the hospital they told me she had died.

Everyone tells me it is not my fault but I feel so responsible. How do I deal with the guilt and not having anyone understand it? Even my husband tells me I shouldn't feel guilty but I can't just turn it off. I will always think... what if...