I am so sorry hun that you are going through this.

My experience was different, for no known reason my body went into spontaneous labour when i was 20 weeks pregnant, medication miraculously delayed the inevitable but by 24 weeks my body just wanted Nikita out. She was perfectly healthy as was my placenta but for some reason my body just wouldn't support her any more.

I have an understanding of the guilt that you are feeling, I still feel responsible for what happened even though all the logic in the world tells me tat I didn't do anything wrong.
I wish I could give you a miracle answer and say "do this and it will all be better and you won't feel guilty anymore" but the fact is there isn't anything other than time and talk.

The more you talk about what happened and how you feel, whether its in here, to a counsellor, to family and friends, the more you heal and the feelings subside bit by bit. I honestly can say that nearly two years on I still feel pangs of guilt but I remind myself that there was "nothing" I could do it happened just the way it was meant to play out. Its a hard stance to take but it is what is and you cannot change it.

my deepest sympathies hun, its a very rough road to travel I do understand and I wish I could just reach in and give you the biggest hug and reinforce that it is NOT your fault, you did everything you possibly could.

Love and hugs
Nae x x