Thanks Guys, yesterday was harder than i thought having the little one as a reminder of what i missed. But on the upside people (especially family) that made no effort last year made the effort this year which makes me feel like Thomas is not forgotten. I especially want to thank my beautiful IRL friend HOTI that has been the greatest supporter of me (as i know she has of many people on belly belly) who has let me rant and rave and tell her all the irational stupid things that pop into my head without judgement which i know is something i couldn't have got through the last couple of years without.