Thanks so much guys. I hate this, its not fair that some people have to walk this path, and i know that my path is no where near as bad as some but it is still a hard path. I dont feel like celebrating her EDD but it is a hard day. It makes me sad and emotional. the lead up is hard too. I have turned into a psycho emotional ***** (and that is putting it nicely LOL) i am glad that this year at least i know why i am Mrs Psycho. I kind of feel like i am clinging to dates because that is all i have. I dont get to tell the cute stories or anything. her birthday and her EDD are all we have