Oh precious girls, for your broken hearts... I would like to write more, but strangely I can't. I'll drop back again later. Your wee little daughter gone too soon will always be your daugther, and you will love her for time immemorial. I am so sad that you're hurting so much now, but it's an important connection to her as you learn to live and parent your angel baby.
At 2 toddlers don't grasp the finality of death. So whilst you might explain it and your daugther appears to understand, she might ask a question that takes your breath away. Just be as honest with her as you can. Reassure her that you love her. Now is the time or lots of cuddles for you both.
Blessedatlast - they don't know what happened at yet - it wasn't anything obvious like cord damage or infection in me. She has had an autopsy so hopefully something will show in that. It's funny how some days are good and others horrible. We had our first big function to go to yest with all our closest friends in one place. It wa so hard as everyone kept trying to corner us to talk about it but I just couldn't yesterday. Everyone just wanted to give me 'that face' but no one knew what to talk to me about so they kinda avoided me
I do have a friend who is a clin psych who has got together a whole bunch of names of counsellors I can see as well as I have contacted sids for kids who said to all back as soon as I am ready for counselling.
Dory - thank you for your lovel message. It truly is horrible her name is Anastasia. We had her funeral on Friday. It was absolutely beautiful which is sad and happy all at once. Dd1 is doing well which is a relief. She is happy most of the time And does talk about dd2 so we have made progress. Xox
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