Hey Kam,

After having 2 miscarriages in a row, the first one twins... i feel your pain, i am so sorry that you have to go through this. On Monday i will hold your spirit close all day, i hope that even though i can not be there physically you may feel some comfort if you remember i am with you in spirit..

I hope i does not seem out of place with me sharing with you, to help me greive, i wrote my babies a letter, tied the letters to helium balloons, went to the graveyard, i cired my heart out for what felt like hours and when i felt ready i held the letters tight one last time and let the balloons go... i felt that i was finally freeing myself of any guilt, (even though it was a straight out miscarriage... we don't know what went wrong either)... and i grieved some more, it felt like my world had comet o a complete standstill and nobody understood or really cared... i managed to find someone to confide in and worked through my grieving with them, this is why i have such a big gap between my first and 2nd ....

It's not fair and it's so hard...