I haven't lost a child. I won't even try to imagine what you're going through. It is my most terrifying thought.

I lost a cousin I was close to 2 years ago. While it's easier now, there's still an ache there when I think of her. My mil lost 2 children as babies. She said that the pain never goes away, but you learn to live with it in time. Her time frame for the worst of it was the first 12 months.

Everyone grieves in their own way, in their own time. Give yourself that. No one can give you a time frame for your grief. Allow it & do what feels right for you x