It doesn't. Well, okay, it sort of does, I shouldn't give absolutes like that, but sometimes during a normal day it still hits like a tonne of bricks. As clover said, you learn to live with the pain, it fades into the background, but it doesn't fully go away.
As for the initial darkness and physical exhaustion, which I suspect is what you're really asking about, that lifted in patches for me. I distracted myself as best I could with reading books and watching movies the first month or two. After that I threw myself into househunting since we were essentially evicted the day Ianto was born and we'd been living with my parents, but obviously that's not typical. So while I was doing those things, the grief was like constant background noise - sometimes I could "hear" over it, sometimes it consumed everything else.
The first months are absolutely the most hardest but you will find the strength within you to live with this pain. I wish you weren't going through this but know that it does get easier. In a few weeks it will be 9yrs since we lost Emmanuel and as much as it hurts I also feel a love in my heart that makes me feel at peace. Sending you lots of strength xx
Re: When did the physical ache of grief go?
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