Polly anna you couldn't have said it any better...

Jen - you sound exactly like me - it takes me ages to feel "safe" to let DD and DS to have sleep overs (prefer them to come here) and letting them go on a camp was sooo incredibly hard, it hurt, (but we did it, and they had a ball!!) I even freaked at letting them catch the school bus! I remember standing at the kerb, waiting with them, and my heart beating fast. It was like letting go of their hands in a way!

i have a just turned 12 dd... and watching her grow and change in front of me this last 12mths has been incredibly hard. at times I didnt think I would get through it... it triggered me on so many fronts. (I was sexually abused as a child, and as my children get to ages where things went bad for me - I feel it profoundly) but I had a conversation with both of my big kids in the last week - and i was proud of them, and their responses - they know how to keep safe, we are connected, they have stretched their wings, but they are still connected... and that has happened because I have kept them safe, and taught them how to do it for themselves - something noone did for me.

Your doing a wonderful job hun - and you will get through this... I promise.