How do you handle this situation?

Hi Leigh,
Wow, wow wow, I had a feeling about you! Congratulations! :dance: Its so exciting, im so happy for you! :happyforyou: Im not even due for AF yet so I def wont be doing any tests any time soon. Im due on Sat. Me and DH have been chatting about TTC and have decided to go back on contraception. It was a hard decision because we both another baby but the timing is now really not great and we have decided to wait another WHOLE year until we try again. I have to admit it will be nice not to stress about AF arriving each month and just chill and get on with everything. It will be so weird to go back on the pill after so long, but I guess its all for the best right now. If I was to get pg, I would find next year really hard as I finish my degree and DH and I will be moving into our new house so its better we wait till all that mahem is out the way.

But congrats to you hun, you deserve it and god knows you have waited long enough! Im sending :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: to you. Try not to stress to much and just hang in there, im sure you will be just fine. Keep me posted on how you go with everything!

Issy :goodluck::goodluck::goodluck:

Thanks Issy,

My AF wasnt due yet either but I couldnt stand the suspense any longer. You never know, this may be your month too. I totally understand what you mean when you say it will be a good feeling not having to stress about trying to get pregnant now that you've decided to go back on the pill. The past 23 months of :bfn: were a complete nightmare. I hope everything goes good with this baby. Like I said I am soooo scared. I'm not sure how many kids DH and I will have but if everything works out fine with this little bub and we do decide to try again I hope it doesnt take this long to fall pregnant coz I can't stand the stress, it totally took over my life!!!

Anyway hun make sure you keep in touch and let me know if AF shows or doesnt, and I'll keep you posted on how everything goes with me.

Take Care

I'm not even game to change my ticker yet, I am scared I will jinx myself.

You've really had quite a journey to baby #2 and you still have quite a way to go. Let me say I'm sorry for your losses and everything you had to go through, but on the other hand, congratulations on your BFP!!! I'll keep you in my prayers that everything goes well.

Hi leigh,
Well AF arrived this morning, right on cue and I have to say I have never been so happy to see her! Since the m/c in Jan, AF has been all over the place and its so nice to have her back on track and normal again. Hopefully the pill will keep AF normal too so when we ttc again, all will be good.

How is everything with you? I hope your? not stressing too much, although I know thats so hard to do when you have been through 2 m/c's. Im sure eveything will be fine and you'll have a healthy and happy pg. Im thinking of you and :pray: that it all goes well for you.

Keep me posted on your pg and Ill keep you posted on my situation (you never know, we might change our minds about ttc, who knows!;)).

Anyway hun, good luck, and I hope to hear from you soon.

Issy x

Hi Issy,

How's things? I'm glad AF came on time and yes going back on the pill should help regulate it. I have also known heaps of people who havent had any trouble TTC right away after they've come off the pill so fingers x'd you'fall quickly.

So far I am good, still majorly stressing though. I have booked a Dr appointment and go on Tuesday so I'll have a blood test to see what my hcg levels are and hopefully he'll send me for a scan in a few weeks. Last time he sent me for 1 around 7 wks then for my NT scan at 12 wks (but that's when I found out my little bubba had died at 11 wks). Im hoping this time he might send me for a scan around 9 wks as well, some how I doubt it though. If he doesnt I will go to a dr that bulk bills and pretend I havent been for a scan yet just so I can go for one around 9 wks as well, just for peace of mind. DH and I still haven't told anyone. I haven't even told my mum, I really want to but I think I'll wait until I've been for at leas 1 scan before I tell her. Plus my sister is due for a baby at the end of next month, Im going to hold off telling her until hopefully 12 wks, I don't want her to feel awkward if I did miscarry (:pray: so hard that I wont) when she has her baby.

Remember I told you that DH and I are flying to Brisbane for a kid free weekend in April with some friends? Well coz we aren't telling anyone that I am pregnant how am I going to explain why I am not drinking (usually I would definitely drink, especially coz we wont have our daughter with us for the entire weekend). Can you think of any excuses I can use so they wont suspect I am pregnant?

Oh by the way I noticed on your signature that one of your m/c's was in May last year, so was mine (another thing we have in common).

Well I'd better go, take care and please keep in touch.

Hi leigh,

Im so glad to hear everything is going well for you, im sure it will stay that way, im :pray: for you.

As for the drinking when your away, I had the same situation at Christmas, it was too early to tell anyone i was pg, but because it was christmas, everyone was drinking and I knew people would ask what was going on. So I made sure that all i drank was vodka (aka water) with orange juice or rasberry. It worked perfectly. When everyone was drinking champagne and they gave me a glass, I just took it and pretended to drink it but quietly tipped a little out each time they werent looking. A friend of mine told everyone she was on a strict detox program due to headaches and lathargic episodes, we stupidly didnt suspect a thing! When my sister in law wanted to keep it a secret when we were out for dinner one night, she made sure she always had a beer in front of her, but secretly her husband was drinking it at the same time as his, they sat them close together, so she was just pretending to drink from it. Nobody suspected a thing because she kept finishing her beers.

Ah the joys of keeping an exciting secret like that!

Anyway hun, we'll chat soon. You take care of youself and let me know how you go with your dr op.

Issy x

Hi Issy,

How's things? I went for my 1st Dr appointment this morning. He sent me for a bloodtest and I am having a repeat done again on Friday. As for a scan he reckons he isn't going to send me for one until about 9 wks. Jeez I was hoping I would be able to go for one in the next few weeks. That means I have another 5 wks yet, that will be 5 weeks of worrying. I might go when I am 8 weeks coz 9 wks is the week that I get back from Brisbane and I'd like to know everything is ok before I go down there. Im also :pray: my beta levels are good. I guess it's just a waiting game!

Well take care hun and keep in touch!!

Hey leigh,

how's it all going? I hope your'e doing well and feeling more and more pregnant by the minute!!!:lol:

As for me, DH and I have decided to ttc just one last time for the year :rolleyes:. We had a round of clomid left and decided that we may as well just use it, its there so why not?

I'm pretty sure it wont work AGAIN, but hey we have nothing to lose by giving it one last shot. Then thats it, back on the pill and a break from the emotional rollercoaster of TTC.

My gf just found out that her first round of IVF worked and she is now pg with her 1st. Im totally excited for her because I know she and her DH have been waiting for this baby for many many years and she deserves it. However, I also feel a little sad because we wanted so much to go through this together, and always thought we would, but now that seems like its just not going to happen. Oh well, my time will come one day, and I dont really mind if its this year or next as long as its a healthy and happy pg that doesnt end in heartbreak.

Anyway, listen to me rambling on...let me know how your'e going, would love to hear from you.

Issy :)

Hi Issy,

Great to hear from you. I am so glad you and DH have decided to try one more time for the year. I am :pray: for you and I have everything :crossfingers: Clomid worked for me the 2nd month we tried it. I reckon I wouldn't be pregnant today without it. What days did you take it? I took it from CD2 - CD6. That is great news that your friend fell pregnant on her first try with IVF. I still haven't seen my friend's baby that she had 2 weeks ago. I am waiting for DH to go with me to visit because it's his bestfriend who is the father. We'll probably get there this weekend I reckon.

As for me with this pregnancy I am still sooooo nervous and can't seem to relax. My 15DPO beta was 762 and then went 3 days later and it was 2658 so I am happy it is more than doubling. The dr said I should have nothing to worry about because with those numbers it's a viable pregnancy. It doesn't stop me worrying though. He doesn't want me going for a scan until mid april but we leave go to Brisbane on the 12th and return on the 14th and I'd like to know before I go that everything is ok so I am going to book in for a scan a few days before we leave. I was a bit nauseas yesterday, my morning sickness with previous pregnancies usually lasts all day and is worse at night. I am going to go and buy the Blackmores Morning Sickness relief tablets and see how they work. Usually I don't get morning sickness until around 6 - 7 wks.

DH and I still haven't told anyone I am pregnant. I went and visited my mum on the weekend and she asked if I was pregnant, I was shocked and said no, why? She said because my boobs look bigger. I was dying to come out and say yes I am but I'd like to wait until I've been for my scan. I'd ideally like to wait until I am past 12 wks to tell her, just because my sister is due for her baby at the end of April (when I'll be 11 wks) and I don't want them feeling awkward if they know I am pregnant and then I miscarry, especially coz both my other miscarriages were at 12 wks. It's so hard not telling anyone though.

Well you must be getting ready to ovulate soon so make sure you and DH :bd: heaps. Let me know once you've O'd.

Well better go, I'm sending you lots of :bluedust::bluedust::bluedust::bluedust::bluedust: :

Hi Leigh,

Oh, Im sooooooo glad to hear that everything is ok. Your HCG levels/results are great, right on track, im sure you will be fine. How exciting :dance:

As for me, I usually take clomid on cd5-9, but this month I took it cd3-7. I have heard of others changing their days and having some success so I thought it was worth a try. This is our 2nd round of clomid for the year, but 5th all together. I did 3 rounds last year in April, May and June and fell pg in May, but as you know, didnt stay that way. When I fell pg in Dec 07, we were not taking anything, totally natural conception which unfortunatley also ended at 6weeks. Im pretty sure I have a progesterone problem or some kind of hormonal imbalance which affects the maturity of my eggs and implantation after conception, hence the reason I take clomid, as it prompts your hormones and makes sure they are at the right level. I wasnt ovulating when I started taking it last year as I had been on the mini-pill for 3 years, so needed a little help getting started again. Then in July, I started ovulating on my own again.

So now its just a matter of getting the timing right and :bd: like crazy ;) and a little :pray: that :fertilise: happens.

I'll keep you posted, I think I have about 5 days to go until I start ov, i think. I think I read that you usually ov around 6-8 days after taking clomid, so should be soon. But timing hopefully wont be a problem as we are :bd: just about everyday anyway, better safe than sorry!

Anyway hun, will speak soon.

Issy

Hi Leigh,
Hope you well.

Well, this is exciting, Im pretty sure im ov right now. I noticed some EWCM this afternoon. and I have had a few niggling pains on my left ovary (that always seems to happen at the time of ov) so Im pretty sure its happening. If so, thats great because its right on time, cd 14, 7 days after clomid. Usually I dont notice this until cd19, i seem to ov really late in my cycle which isnt good. Im so happy that my body seems to have fallen back into a normal cycle.

So anyway, Im feeling really positive about this cycle already, Im :pray: thats it has a good ending too. We have been :bd: every night, so we are certainly giving it our all.

ANyway hun, take care of yourself and ill let you know how we go.

Issy x

Hi Issy,

Hope you and your family had a great easter!!! That's great news that you had signs to show that you were ovulating :clap: On my first month of Clomid I ovulated right on CD14 but last month (the monthI fell pregnant) I ovulated on CD18, which is late and it was 12 days after my last Clomid tablet. I was beginning to think I wouldn't ovulate coz I also read you usually ovulate between 5 - 8 days after your last tablet. I'm :pray: that you :fertilise: when do you think you'll start doing hpt's? Or do you think you'll wait until AF is due?

Well as for me I have had bad :ms: not vomiting just bad nausea that lasts all day long. I got it as soon as I hit the 5 wk mark. Everyone usually says to count it as a good sign but I've learnt not to because with my last pregnancy I was very sick also, right up to 11 wks then I lost my baby at 12 wks. It is very hard being sick all day and trying to keep up with my DD. I am so scared that I am going to be sick when we go to Brisbane in a couple of wks. We still haven't told anyone that I am pregnant.

It's my birthday this Saturday and I think DH is taking me and DD away for the night which will be nice.

Anyway hun, I'll be thinking of you. Keep me posted on how you get on. Sending you lots of :bluedust:

Hey Issy, how's things? Hope you are well. Just checking in to see if you have started doing any hpt's yet or if you are holding out until AF is due? When is AF due?

Take care and my fingers are crossed for you!!!

Hey leigh,

I am doing ok. Just waiting for AF to arrive! Im pretty sure its going to come, I dont feel any different and my breasts have started to feel sore already so Im pretty sure AF is only a week away. I have a 33 day cycle so I have a bit to wait before I do a hpt. And I reckon AF will visit before then. But hey you never know....stranger things have happened!

How are you going with it all? I hope the nausea isnt too bad. I didnt have it at all really with DS. Only a few mornings if I was up early and had a hot shower, other than that though, I managed to get through without nausea or vommiting. Maybe ill get it with the next one, it seems unfair that some women never get it and others have a terrible time.

Anyway hun, ill keep you posted about what goes down in the next week or 2. Im praying for a miracle.

Issy

Hi leigh,

Im sooooo sorry, I totally forgot to say happy birthday to you in the last post....so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!. I meant to write it but didnt (mind like a seive) anyway....

Im still feeling pretty sure that its not going to be a positive outcome for me this month, although I still have about a week to go (I feel like ive been saying, 1 more week, for ages).

I hope everthing is going well for you, and if I dont hear from you before you go, have a great time away, I hope you have a come up with a solution to hide your pg from everyone! ;)

And goodluck at your scan when you get one, let me know how everything goes.

Issy

Hi Issy,

Thanks for wishing me a happy b'day. Remember I didn't think I was going to be pregnant ...... I totally thought there was no way I would be so you never know, you might be the same, I hope so.

We go to Brisbane next weekend. I'm not looking forward to going now. I am going to be the only one not drinking and I've been soooo tired lately. Our plane leaves at 5am so that means I'll be up by about 3 am (I am a light sleeper so I know I wont get much sleep when I know I've got to get up early). We'll be busy all day then everyone wants to go out clubbing Saturday night and again Sunday night. No one knows still that I am pregnant. I honestly don't know how I am going to handle it down there because I've been sick as well. Nothing worse than being sick and tired and having to hang around all your drunk friends who will want to stay out until 5 am. I still don't know what excuse I am going to use to say why I am not drinking.

My scan is at 10:30am on Wednesday, I will defintely let you know how I get on. I am quite nervous, I just hope everything is ok.

Take care and have a great weekend.

Hi leigh,

Yeah I guess so, you never know whats going to happen till it happens...there may still be hope I suppose :pray:

Oh hun, i feel for you...going away with partying people when all you want to do is sleep and be still. Good luck with finding a good excuse for it too...dont have any good ideas about that one :rolleyes: I think you may just be too obviously pg, I dont know...thats a tricky one.

Good luck with your scan, im :pray: that everything is going great and your little one is growing strong and healthy. Im sure youll be fine ;)

My bb have started hurting more now, so def about a week away from AF now, or maybe a bfp???? the waiting is killing me I have to admit.

Anyway, ill let you know how I go and make sure you let me know you go with everything, trip/scan etc. Goodluck babe, ill be thinking of you.

Issy

Hi Issy,

How's things? Have you got any news for me yet? Well I went for my scan this morning. So far so good which I am very relieved about. They bought my due date forward to the 14th of Nov. My bubba is measuring 2.13cm and had a heartbeat of 175 bpm. Even though things look good so far I will continue to be nervous because both my miscarriages happened at 12 wks. Fingers x'd everything will be ok. Well Brisbane is this weekend and I still don't know what I am going to say to everyone. I've got bigger problems at the moment because all my clothes are getting tighter and I don't have anything to wear. Luckily on Saturday we are going shopping down there and hopefully I'll find something to wear out that night and Sunday night.

Well hun I am waiting for your news and my fingers are x'd for you.

Take care