hey munchy

i know what you mean about putting on a front, i am doing it now ( not with you of course) i just had a failed cycle AGAIN and none of my family or friends understand why i am STILL upset, they must think that you just get over it in a matter of a day or two, i mean oh my god i still have af so every time i go to the toilet its a bloody reminder that it didnt work, it just seems easier to put on a happy face and pretend that your fine rather then let them see that your heart is breaking to the point that it hurts to breath, and not just that the replies that you get from people when they find out that your not pregnant just p*sses me off, i hate people say "oh well just relax it will happen eventually" my god i could just slap these people for saying that, but anyway i wont keep going on, i think you understand what i am saying ha ha ha

as for getting more O kits, thats a great idea it will help and you wont have to do the guessing game when your close to ovulating, i think you can buy like a 20 or 30 pack on ebay for cheap

and as for going to your sisters to help decorate her bathroom, it might be a good idea to go over there, at least it gets you out of the house and you never know it might be your sisters way of trying to help you get through this very tough day, plus it might give you an opportunity to have a heart to heart with your sister about everything thats going on in your life and about brooklyn, you never know you go over to your sisters feeling very sad and down and you might end up leaving feeling alot better and maybe a little closer to your sister, but darling if you feel that your not up for going out and you would rather be at home, then i understand that aswell, maybe you ,dh and harvey could do something tonight, to show brooklyn that she is still very much appart of your lives and that the love and bond that you feel for her is still VERY much there.

sweet heart if you want to pm me please feel free to, i will always be here for you ok no matter what.

let me know how you go, i will be thinking of you mate
stay stong darlin