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Tm

oh hunny i am so sorry i havent been on hear for a while so only just read the post my heart goes out to all your family it must be such an upsetting time for you all i can only remember to well when my grandad died of cancer and we had to say our good byes its so hard sedning massive hugs to you all and am hoping the funeral goes as well as it can i will be thinking of you all today.

take care

love Munchy xxx

Thanks so much--the funeral was on Saturday and it was very difficult of course, but we're just taking it one day at a time.

Tm

thats the best thing to take one day at a time thinking of you all. i have had a little scare had a bit of blood 2 days ago and then another tiny bit last night and have some pain so am really worried gonna go to the docs in a bit and ask for an emergancy u/s i cant stop thinking the worse but fingers crossed all will be ok anyway gotta go as gotta get ready for docs take care and look after one another.

Munchy xxx

munchy

i am so so sorry that this has happened, please take things easy

i will be here for you no matter what sweetie

please stay strong

tm
hope things are going well for you and your family

munchy: I'm praying very hard for you and bubs. Let us know when you know anything...

Hi Tm

dont no if you have read my threads but i had a scan the other day and there was no heartbeat am devestated just the past hour being getting really strong pains i am booked in for a d&c on wed but have a feeling i will m/C over the weekend if you read my threads you will see i am off to bed now as it is 1.10 in the morning over in england just scared that i will wake up in a puddle of blood my head is all over the place right now but my eyes are starting to close.

love Munchy xxx

no, no, no, that is NOT fair!

Words can't express how sad I am for you. I wish I could take this pain away. But please know I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers at this awful time. And you know you don't have to bear this all alone.

I'm so sorry.

Thanks alot tm well pains stopped the other night and just get mild backache every now and then but still no blood really just brown stuff so am hoping everything holds out till wed just really ****ed off they are making me wait till wed knowing my baby is inside my sleeping it feels strange i had to have brooklyn inside me for 3 days untill i gave birth and i feel like its just bringing all the emotions back its very hard at the min but i no i will get through it its just gonna take a while hope you are baring up with everything thinking of you all.

love Munchy xxx

Well, you understand why they want to see if you proceed naturally. The less they mess around with your cervix and uterus, the better. But knowing this in your head doesn't make it easier in your heart. You and DH be really good to each other right now. And keep us updated.

Hi tm

i lost baby monday night i had really bad backache in the eve and then around 11 it started to feel like a mild labour and by 11.45 it had come away i went to toilet when getting pains and some clots come out so as i went back to bed i felt a lump so ran back to toilet and as i sat down i heard something so i looked and there was the sack sitting at the bottom of my toilet this might sound grose but i was to curious i got a plastic bag over my hand and got it out of the toilet and when i looked at it i could see by baby inside floating around i was shocked and amazed at what i was looking at i could see its eyes and arms it looked like a little prawn after staring at it for a while it then started to sink in that it was my baby i was looking at and then my DH said it was time to do something so i wrapped it in tissue and flushed it away and i feel so guilty for doing that but i didnt no what else to do all my pains stopped after that but then yesterday tue i felt light headed all day then at 11pm started getting contractions there were so painful dh hard to rub my back it was far worse than the night before i started burning up and shivering in the end i passed a big clot and went to see an emergancy doc he gave me some antibiotics incase of infection and said i could get these pains for a few days as my womb is realeasing blood and stuff and it stores up clots then my uterus contracts it out which is what the pain is i have been feeling light headed all day again and cant eat a thing so hoping it doesnt happen again anyway i am off to bed its really late in england.

Munchy xxx

Oh, munchy sending huge cyberhug for everything you went through.

Your story wasn't gross at all. My last two mc's happened at home. In one my water broke, so the baby was seperate from the afterbirth. I put everything in a container and took it to the hospital. The last one was an unruptured sac the size of a marble. So I ruptured the sac to do the baptism (I'm Catholic) and buried it in the back yard in a jar of rubbing alcohol--they didn't need to see me in the hospital that time. But it's so heartrending to go through.

Keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Thanks tm

i just got signed off work for another week still getting weird pains in tummy and the bleeding today seems to have got heavier not dangerous heavey i thought after 5 days things would be settleing i have felt light headed all week not been able to eat properly as have had diarea as well for the past 3 days i just cant wait till be body starts to feel better. i just had to take dog to vets and on the way just wanted to burst out crying but i couldnt as i was on my way there i just think when people are around i am fine and as soon as i am on my own all i can do is think about my little angel i have lost its just so hard i think people think well at least its not as bad as my last one but that doesnt matter how far you are you still have your dreams for your baby and you love it from the moement you conceive i just wish people would understand that anyway better go its miday and havent eaten a thing so gonna have a crumpet. how are you with everything is everyone coping? i hope so sending big hugs to you all.

Munchy xxx

I think it's good you're not going back to work yet. You need to help your body heal physically and you need some time to work through everything. And you can't help but cry at the weirdest times, and sometimes with no warning at all.

That's exactly what I was trying to explain to a friend of mine the other day--you start loving bub the moment you know you're carrying it. Even though I had a hard time getting excited my last preg but I still loved it.

Sending cyberhug.

hey munchy

just checking in to see how your doin? i have been thinking about you heaps and hoping that your ok? hows little harvey and lewis going??

i am movig house tomorrow so if you reply or email me and i dont answer back for awhile you will know why, my internet wont be back up until middle of next week.

please take care of yourself honey

thinking of you heaps

Hiya hun

i am ok have my good and bad days but i am getting there i did send you a email to your address did you not get it lewis and harvey are good i have a parents meeting at school on friday to see how he is doing he wrote his name for the first time all by himself i was so proud of him and it was mothers day in sun just gone and he made me 2 cards and wrote inside them i love things like that. well i will be going back to work on monday i hope i am ok i should be i will just keep my head down i think and hope no one asks why i was off as most people didnt no i was pregnant which makes things a little easier. well good luck with the house move honey and email me when you are back up and running i really want to talk weddings and see the stuff you have planned hope move goes well speak soon chicken.

Munchy xxx

Best of luck going back to work. I always found that to be the hardest adjustment going back to a normal life. Take good care of yourself.

Thanks tm

do feel a little anxious about going back but it has to be done also i have stopped bleeding so i am back to ttc again well tonight will be the first night and i cant wait just feel like i am am doing something again i really hope i fall quickly and that it doesnt take 15 months again fingers crossed i think it will take me ages again but all i can do is try. hope you are well honey.

Munchy xxx

Keeping fingers crossed for you!