Ovulex

Hi Nikkilove

My af came today i am so upset i started to get light pinky brown stuff yesterday and all last night i was up crying i felt so low i havent felt like that for ages i just couldnt stop crying my DH was not very supporive dont want to make him sound horrible because he is not but he did say why are you crying and i said how i felt and he said you shouldnt be crying about it now, i really dont think he understands me at all i no its nearly a yr on but its not wrong to still cry is it? he thinks i am gonna make myself ill with the TTC and still stuck in a mood where i feel low all the time but hopefully when i see a councilor it will help things along. I really hope you get your BFP i have my fingers crossed for you and hope you are feeling better.

Mummy2chloe

Good luck with the party i bet you are so excited i hope everything turns out great for you and im sure you will look fantastic. i am feeling nervous today knowing i am driving tommorow but i no i will be ok i will try not to get to anxious about it all. Let me know how the party goes once you have recovered from the alcohol ha ha i am off food shopping now great fun. oh i am going to buy those ovulex this month i done some overtime at work to pay for them so i will let you know when i have ordered them and start taking them i really hope they work i just want to do something to help things along. have fun at party and dont do anything i wouldnt do ha ha

Munchy xxx

Hey Munchy

How are you honey?? it was your little boy's birthday party on the weekend wasnt it?? how did it all go?? hope the weather was kind to you. hey how is your aunty going? and how have you been handling the driving?? Did you end up buying the ovulex tablets??

Well the engagement party was absoultely awesome it was the best night, we had just under 50 people in the back yard and everyone had a blast, i got really really drunk hahahah it was so good my dp had the video camera on me whilst drunk trying to sing on karaoke ( oh my god its a shocker the bit of me singing on the video will be deleted hahaha) but all up it was such a great night.

Sweetie, i am sorry that your af came i had everything crossed for you and i am just as sorry that you where crying and felt really low, i am sure your dh would of been more supportive if he understood a little more but i dont think any man will really ever understand what its like for us woman and they will never understand how hard we are on ourselve's, most of the time we are our own worse enemy and then chuck in the hormones and oh my god hahahahah i wish i could of been there to give you a great big hug, I hope your feeling alot better now darling.

Nikilove

How are you feeling darling?? has you af turned up yet?? hope not i have everything crossed for a bfp

Hi mummy2chloe

it is my first day back at work today after my sons party he had such a good birthday on wed last week after nursary i took him bowling and then to McDonalds with his 2 cousins and then we had his grandparents over for cake and tea and he played in the garden all evening as he got a slide of my dad and i got him a bubble machine so he had loads of fun with all of that and then on sat the party went so well the weather was so good couldnt have asked for a better day all his friends came they had a lovely time he got so many presents it was like christmas and by the end of the day my feet were so sore they were throbing but it was all worh it and the bouncy castle people dropped it off on the fri so we had it for a day and a half which was really good got a moneys worth. i am so glad to hear your party went well as to the video camera how funny i love capturing moements like that i videoed my little mans party and took loads of pictures gonna do an album for him i do it every yr i am one of those people who like to keep memory things. also it was the yr anniversary of my little angel yesterday i wasnt sure how i would feel but it wasnt to bad i went and bought a really pretty pink candle that had flowers in the wax and i lit it and we all had dinner at the table with it lit it was nice i also told my little boy what it was for as he asked he new that i was pregnant and then i wasnt so i told him everything and he saw the pictures it mad me feel alot better like i wasnt hiding it it was my councelors idea and it has helped. as to my auntie no baby yet she is 5 days overdue so it could come at anytime i cant wait to be there for her it will be amazing god sorry to ramble on i have so much to say ha ha. as to the ovulex i am going to my dads tonight to order them last week he didnt have time so am hoping i will do it tonight well i will make sure i do it tonight otherwise i will stamp my feet ha ha. as to the driving it went so well i was so relaxed so no more practising i feel comftable with it all which is good. sorry again for the long message hope you have recovered from your party it sounded really good.

nikkilove
any sign of the dreaded af i hope not i have my fingers crossed for you honey.

Munchy xxx

munchy

It sounds like harvey had an awesome birthday party, it just so great he will remember it forever. Oh your poor aunty 5 days overdue the poor darling i hope she will go into labour soon and as for you and your driving wooohoooo well done honey good for you. you should be very very proud of yourself and you have handled your sweet baby girl anniversary really really well, you are one very very strong woman the candle sounds very pretty and how you had dinner with the candle lit thats just perfect, it sounds like you have a beautiful little family who love each other very much.

You will have to let me know if you get the tablets tonight how exciting, just think you could be that step closer to getting your much deserved and wanted BFP, i am so happy for you, your going to have to make sure you keep me updated on how things go.

I have no idea whats going on with my silly body, i will be 7 days late for AF tomorrow but i have done a test which was negitive:cry: ( i done it yesterday with first morning urine) so shorely you would think if i was pregnant it would of definanlty shown up, but i got nothing not even a faint line and i looked at it for bloody hours but i couldnt even pretend that it was positive:cry: But the thing is my period for the last few months has always been like a week early so i have no idea why they are late also the day of my party i had this light pink discharge and some mild cramps nothing to bad and it was still there the day after the party but that was it, the pinkish discharge only lasted for 2 days and it wasnt heavy enough to put a tampon in or anything, it was only there when i wiped??????? :doh:

I have no idea and i have no sign what so ever of getting af anytime soon, i have never had pink discharge before, sorry if there is to much yukky information for you, just have no idea and didnt really want to make a special post about it cos its probably just nothing.

thanks for listening sweetie

Nikilove
hope everything is ok honey.

Mummy2chloe

you put a smile on my face when i read the bit about looking at the test for hours and that you couldnt even pretend it was positive it just sounds so much like me bless you. it does sound a bit odd if you are normally early and now your almost a week late but if you are pregnant it can take people longer for it to show up on a test my friend was 2 weeks late and she got a negative test so she left it another week and it was positive so there is still hope i have my fingers crossed that you get a BFP how good would that be i really really really hope that you are as to doing a special post you should if you want to thats what were hear for i have done posts about saying i am late and then the af arrives so if you want to do one then do it you might get more advice from people as to the pink stuff my periods were all over the place about 6 months ago i was having one at 4 weeks then 8 weeks it was so annoying and then i would have browny pink stuff when i wiped and then nothing and i would come on 2 weeks later but i think if you dont get a positive in a weeks time and your horrible af doesnt come then go to the docs and see what they say. as to the tablets i will keep you updated like i said i will order them tonight even if i have to stamp my feet i am not sure how long it will take to arrive as they are coming from america and i am in england but hopefully not to long it will just make me feel better knowing i am helping things along. let me know what goes on with the pink stuff and dont worry about being to TMI i love allthat stuff ha ha sorry if i wasnt much help.

Munchy xxx

Hey Munchy

How are you darl?? sorry i have been MIA lately i have been so sick with throat, chest and ear infection and dp hasnt been home to help:cry: but the good thing is i am feeling a lot better, i will be 14 days late tomorrow the last time i done a test was 4 days ago and it still came up negitive:cry::cry::cry: so i have no idea what my silly body is doing:wall:

How is your auntie going?? has she had little bub yet?? if so how was it being in there to watch it all??

so how is ttc going for you?? hopefully you will write back and tell me you have a big beautiful bfp

take care sweetie

Hi mummy2chloe

you poor thing being unwell i am full of cold as well sore throat and cough and cant stop sneezing starting to get a headache from all the coughing. 14 days late a really hope that you are pregnant and that it is just taking its time to show up how good would that be a have everything crossed for you that you get a wonderful BFP as to me i dont know whats going on i have a period every 32 days and i came on on the 6th of july which is a friday which means i wont be due again till the 7th of aug but on the 26th of july i started to get some pink stuff then browny stuff and now a full period so i only had 2 weeks with no bleeding and then started another period again i am still bleeding now as i am always on for about 6 to 7 days but i didnt no weather to go to docs or not. i started taking ovulex on saturday night as i was waiting to have a period before taking them but as i came on i thought i would start them so hopefully they work i just wish i new what was going on with my body i think you should get a blood test done from your docs as they can tell if your pregnant from that make sure you let me no how you get on. as to my auntie she gave birth on the 24th of july to a beautiful baby girl called laila may she is so beautiful i wanted to take ger home with me it was so amazing to watch although i keep thinking i wish it was me after the birth when i had time to reflect i was a little upset as it bought everythink back to me especially because she had a girl i did feel a little down when i got home and thought that life just isnt fair at times but i just hang on to the fact i will have a baby one day and when that day comes i will be so happy i just hope its sooner rather than later. sorry for the long message hope you dont mind.

love munchy :)

Hey Munchy

I hope your feeling better, and hopefully your body or maybe i should say your af be kind to you and start sorting her self out and stop giving you a hard time, so how is it going?? still all over the place? if your worried the easiest thing to do is go to the doctor, at least then if there is anything going on it will be pick up and sorted out so you can then get back to baby making ;)

Congrats to your aunty for delivering a healthy little girl, it would of be awesome to be there but then i completely understand the down side of it all, it would be a hard reminder for you and its ok for you to feel like that, i will always be here for you honey if you ever need to talk:hug:

As for me i am feeling heaps better thank god, i havent been that sick in so long and it was so horrible being here on my own, but not to worry its all good now and as for af well she eventually showed up mind you 18 days late and boy did she come in full force, i was crawling on the ground in pain but then they were 18 days late i was pretty much expecting it to be bad and to her word she was, god i love my af she brings so much joy to my life NOT hehehe

how's things with the ovulex?? are you feeling any different? any side effects or stuff like that?? come on ovulex lets get munchy pregnant:happyforyou:
sorry i am in a silly mood ( if you cant tell)

ok take care sweetie

Hi honey

i am feeling loads better as well still got the runny nose and a chesty cough had to have a couple of days of work cos i just couldnt sit at a coumputer all day with a cold like that as to AF it has only just gone today after 6 days of bleeding then i had brown stuff then i would have some blood again and some tiny clots then brown stuff it was very strange so i went to docs and he said it doesnt sound right i am booked in for a smear as i am due for one and they are gonna take some swabs as well might as well get it all done while my legs are open ah ha ha and if they are clear they are going to do some blood tests and check hormones ever since loosing my angel i feel like something is not right i just hope they find whatever is wrong as to the Ovulex they are going well havent noticed a change yet but they take around 2 weeks to get into system so i will see in another week how i am there not very nice to take they are quite big tablets but if it means i will get pregnant then i dont care how big they are i just really hope that they work. i cant believe your AF arrived i was so hoping that you were pregers dont you just wish our bodys would do as they were told if only it was that easy. my mum has told me to do a preg test cos of the bleeding and she said all the symptoms of me being ill she said you sound as if you are pregnant but i no if i was i wouldnt have bleed but might do one to rule it out incase docs ask. how was your weekend it was so hot in my part of england i was shopping all weekend trying to get nice things for our holiday but shopping when it is hot is not a good idea i got so hot and bothered which led me to getting really stressed out and my little boy was being really naughty in the shops which didnt help he was so naughty all weekend he has never being that bad i used the naughty step so much but we had a BBQ yesterday and he behaved himself anyway i am at work and i have my counselling appointment in an hour so i had better get some work done take care.

Love Munchy xxx

Hey Munchy

So sorry i have been missing in action, how have you been?? how is everything with your af and spotting and stuff?? did anything come back in your smear? so do you have any news about ovulex?? hopefully its going to give you a beautiful bfp:pray: hows your dp and harvey going??

I dont know wether you know or not as i have posted this in another thread but dp got a loan so we can do ivf, but i have to have lap surgery done first which is on the 28th of september then another round of iui and if all fails its onto ivf. so hopefully in the next 12mth i am hoping i will fall pregnant, crickey its been nearly 6 yrs since my body has been pregnant, i dont think i can remember what its like hahaha.

my daughter chloe had her very first ever sports day at school and she done so well, she came 1 st place in 50m sprint i am so proud of her, when she recieved her ribbon i was holding back the tears, it was so great. i was doing the whole proud parent thing saying " yeah thats my kid" hahaha mind you i wasnt much of a runner at school.

anyway better go other wise i will keep rambling on, hope your doing well
take care

Hello i was woundering where you had got to nice to hear from you brilliant news about the IFV i bet you are so excited i have everything crossed for you. i have started to notice a difference with the ovulex i am not half as moody as what i was so thats a good thing but i will have to see if it helps with my AFs the smear resuls take up to 6 weeks to get back so probablt wont find out till end of september but my swab results should be back in the next few days i just wish they would sort me out. i went to see my auntie and her baby on the weekend and my DH came with me he was holding her and feeding her i was just watching him thinking how much i would love him to be holding our baby it was so lovely to hold her but couldnt stop thinking i wish i had my own i suppose its natrual to think it i just dont tell people in case they think i am a nut case. i dotn think people understand unless they have lost a baby themselves but i shouldnt have an AF for another 2 weeks which means i will be on holiday so i think i might take a test how good whould that be if i was pregers and found out on holiday i would be so happy. i bet you were so proud of your daughters sports day especially coming first how good is that she is a little champion bless her i cant wait for harvey to do all that i am going to get the rest of his school uniform on the weekend cant wait till his first day he will look so smart i will have to take some pics of him anyway hope all is going well keep me updated.

Love Munchy xxx

Hey Munchy,

Sorry but my computer is playing up so if i dont reply for a while you know that its my computer.

Its good that your starting to notice a difference with the ovulex, i really really hope that it works for you. It would be awesome if you found out you are pregnant on your holidays when are you going on holidays again?? sorry cant remember anything these days ( i am a shocker :p) You are going to have to tell me all about it when you get back and hopefully you will have a bfp.

ok take care

Hi mummy2chloe

i got my swab results back and there were all clear still waiting on the smear one but i really dont think i will get it till i come back form hols i go to france on the 3rd of september and come back on the 17th so i wont be on here for a while but when i come back i will tell you all about it. i feel a little down today as i think my af is coming reallt disapointed i have some bron stuff (sorry) which means its coming so i wont be doing a test on holiday but a good thing is that i should be ovulating while i am on holiday and they say you fall preganant when you are relaxed and enjoying yourself so i just hope it happens then if not i will be telling docs that i have been trying for a yr as the say if you have been trying for a yr than we can ask our docs for tests and that but i have a feeling they will say its cos i am overweight or something but who know's. well this is the last time i will be posting till i get back let me know how you get on with the IVF i no i have never had it but watch it all on the medical channels so i no a little take care and will messgae you when i am back.

Munchy xxx

Hey Munchy

Your on holidays you lucky thing, i know you wont reply till you get home but just wanted to let you know i am thinking of you and hope you make a gorgouse little bubba while on holidays.

OOOOOOOOOOOhhhhhh i cant wait to hear all about your holidays, i miss you already and i still have another 2 weeks till you get home:cry:

oh well i will just have to keep writing to you, even though you wont reply hahaha

dont worry about me i am in one of my silly moods :cryinglaugh::p he he he

cant wait to hear all the details of your holiday.

take care darl

Hi mummy2chloe

i am back yeh :dance: i got back last night at 9.30pm and straight back to work this morning i have had so much to do i just wish i had another week to recover ha ha we had such a good time i think we all really needed it after such a bad yr last yr it was nice to get away from everythink i felt really happy and relaxed so i have my fingers crossed i have made a little bubba i was ovulating while there so hopefully i have i have really missed this site i started to get withdrawl symptoms ha ha anyway my son loved it being on holiday going to the beech and making sand castle and playing by the pool eating lots of ice cream and they had a kids club for him aswell he missed my sisters 2 girls so i am taking him over there tonight to see them and give them there pressies my sister said she has missed me so much and my friend its nice to know i was missed big head ah i have so much to do this week as harvey starts school on friday so need to get him some school shoes and have to do a big food shop as we have nothing in and do loads of washing and try and catch up on home and away and neighbors i love them anyway i had better go really need to do some work i am struggling to get anything done as i just want to go see everyone and tell them about my hols i just though you have your lap surgery in 10 days are you feeling ok about it all?

Munchy xxx

yay your home :dance: lol

sounds like you had an awesome time away hopefully you will get a bfp it was pretty good timing to O on holidays :clap: i have everything crossed for a bfp for ya.

Oooooooh how exciting harvey starts school, i am sure he is going to love it, the thing is how are you going to handle it? chloe's first day at school i was a mess hahaha i was trying to quickly get back to the car after leaving her so no one would see the tears but i got to her class room door and they came streaming out and the more i tried to stop them the more they kept coming out hahah i was a shocker.

its always nice to know that your missed when you have been away, it makes you feel really good about yourself, sometime we get so caught up in everyday life that we sometimes forget that there are people out there that love us, even if they dont show it everyday.

Thats so sweet you remembered that i am having my lap next week, thank you:D
I have made a post in the depression and Anxiety Thread. I know i am being silly about it and i know i will be fine, i have been going through a few things and i think its all coming to a head and its making me worry about things that wouldnt really bother me? if that makes sence?? but yeah next friday is the big day and i just cant wait to get it over with so we can start making babies again;)

take care sweetie

Hi honey

i didnt even think how i would be emothionly when harvey starts school and now i am thinking about it i am feeling a little tearful already i am just thinking about how grown up he will look in his uniform it only feels like yesterday he was born they really do grow up so quick god i feel broody.

You are so right about being missed after loosing by baby i thought that i was sort of on my own and for some reason my confidence just went and i always was worrying about what people thought of me and if they liked me but my councelling has helped alot making me feel better in myself and not to care what people think of me i have realised i am a nice person and if someone doesnt like me then thats there loss and i made alot of friends on holiday and then coming back knowing people had missed me it did make me feel good hope i dont sound like a big head iukwim.

Also i didnt no there was a deppression and anxioty thread i will have to have a look as i suffer with anxioty so would be nice to see if people get the same fears and that as me so i no i am not the only one thinking silly thoughts at times. well i hope the surgery goes ok i am sure it will al be fine and you will be baby making in no time i just cant wait to get pregnant i have been trying a yr in october feel like forever i really never thought it would take this long anyway i am rambling on again sorry take care lovey.

Munchy xxx

Hey Munchy

The first day of school can be very emotional but i can honestly say, with each day that passes it gets sooooooooo much easier, it was pretty hard with my daughter chloe as she would cry every morning cos she didnt want to go, so she would say she felt sick or something, but once she got into a routine and understood that she had to go she was fine with it, dont get me wrong we still have days where she tells me she is sick and cant go to school but once she is there and see her friends she is fine:)

I really truely hope you get your bfp this month, i have everything crossed for you

Did you end up finding the anxiety thread? i suffer from it alot sometimes i stress about driving in the car and the thoughts in my head are of " what if something goes wrong" the last thing i want is something to happen to my daughter or i dont want my daughter to lose me, just silly things like that, and i know they are silly things when i am telling dp about them but for some reason i cant help it, i am always stressing and worrying about anything and everything. I have my good days and then i have my bad, but i just take each day as it comes;)

take care

Mummy2chloe

hi honey harvey had his first day at school i think i was way more upset than him he looked so grown up not my little baby anymore he was so excited about going as soon as he got there that was it he was sitting and playing with all the children i gave him a kiss and said goodbye and he said bye and that was it and when i picked him up he said he loved it and he got a sticker for playing football he is only doing half days at the min but starting on the 1st oct he will be full time as they like to stagger the children in he was dissapointed that he didnt have lunch with everyone but i told him that in a weeks time he can he went to the nursary at the school so alot of his friends are in his class which helped alot i think if it was all new people he wouldnt have settlerd in so well.

as to the anxioty i suffer with it all the time and i am the same as you i no in my head that it is so silly but i cant help but think silly things i always worry about something happening to harvey i think its cos i have lost a baby i think well anything bad can happen my DH went out with his dad on saturday so i was in the house on my own harvey was in bed and then i thought oh a man could walk in right now with a knife and started to plan in my head what i would do if it happened how i would make sure harvey would be safe and when i tell my DH he thinks i am being so silly i get him up in the night to check the house as i think i hear little noises and in my head a really think someone is downstairs and might take harvey while i am asleep i dont no if you get the same sort of thing but i have only got it since loosing my angel i have always stressed over things but as to the anxioty its never being this bad.

also i really hope i get a BFP aswell i am due on the 27th so a few more days fingers crossed.

Munchy xxx

Hey Munchy

Well i am back from my laparscopy (sp) it was done yesterday, feeling a little sore but he gave everything a real good clean out and he said i had fluid i cant remember where he said it was as i was still sort of out of it but either way he removed all the fluid and sent it away for testing plus he took my lining away and sent it for testing, he asked if we would give him 2 more goes at iui and if that fails we will do ivf, he said we are going to do things a little differently with the next 2 attempts, he said more injections and pessaries (sp) so heres hoping we finally get bfp:pray:

that is totally awesome about how well harvey went with school :clap: well done little man. It makes you feel good when everything goes smoothly and its a great feeling when you pick them up and there all excited and telling you about there day and all the cute pictures they bring home. i love it

I soooooooo completely understand what you are saying about silly thoughts in the head, i really thought i was the only one who had the thoughts like that ( man do i feel reliefed) I am always worrying that we might have a car accident and one of us might die or some one breaking in and trying to kill us, and i am always thinking about how i would handle if my dp or daughter where to die from an illness or an accident and it scares me so much cos there is no way i could live my life without them ( do you know what i mean or am i showing you how silly i am?) and the worst part of it all is that dp works away and so when he isnt home and i hear noises i truely sh*t myself, i really hate being here on my own i dont sleep properly and i am forever checking that everything is locked so no one can get us. its so hard living alone i would do anything to have dp home every night. he works away for 10 days and comes home for 6 days.

i hope you have some exciting news to tell me? i have everything crossed for a bfp:pray:

Hi Hun

glad to hear it all went well with the op you will have to let me no what the results say i bet you cant wait to start ttc ah. well i came on i am so dissapointed i really thought that this month was the month so looks like i will be taking a trip to the gp to have a blood test so they can check for a hormone inbalance i just no that there is something wrong and i wont stop untill the find something i have started a diet today as well which i am hoping i will be succesful at as i think my weight dont help matters i have being trying a yr now and just cant stop thinking whats wrong with me i just hope it happens soon.

as to the anixiety i totally understand it doesnt sound silly at all to me i am always thinking about if my DH or DS die how would i carry on cos i think i wouldnt be able to without them and am always thinking something bad will happen i think you are so brave staying in the house by yourself i really couldnt do that i get a friend to stay with me when my DH goes out for a drink in the evening its like i need a babysitter but it is hard cos these thoughts are so silly and it is highly unlikely that anything will happen but when your in that frame of mind you really believe that somehting bad will happen the other night i was in bed and i started sweating so bad cos i was scared in my head sounds awful i visulised someone breaking in a stabbing me over and over and leaving me to die in pain hope that doesnt make me sound like a freak but i couldnt get the thought out of my head so i told my DH and he was like stop being silly he really doesnt understand how scared i feel at times i just hope that i stop thinking like this one day.

Munchy xxx

hi 2 u all!
dont get a chance to go online very often but glad i did today. these pills you are talking about are they available in the UK can they be bought from a pharmacy......i conceived with my son on fertility drugs i dont get AF unfortunately my son passed away shortly after birth he was born prematurely at 25 wks 2 days. as you can probably imagine im desperate to get pregannt again and will try anything. its becoming an obsession if thats the right word to use.

i'll be keeping an eye on this thread for those of you who will be starting ths pill soon...good luck...will be praying for you all...

Hi Sofy

i am so sorry for the loss of your son its such a hard thing to go through i lost my little girl at 23 wks and you are so right the one thing you want more than anything is to have another baby and it does become an obsession my DH is always saying how obsessed i am about becoming pregnant but it is hard not to think about it and i no people say the more you relax the better it will be but it is really hard to do that. well i am from the uk as well like you where abouts are you from i am from milton keynes also i have started the ovulex have been taking them for 2 months now unfortunatly no baby yet but it has helped with my af and i think i ovulate for more days as i get ovulating pains and they last longer than they used to i bought 6 months supply of them from there official website you cant get them in any shop only on line if you do a google search and put in ovulex you can get them that way the cost me £90 and then the postage and packaging was around £25 as it came from america i think it is worth ago my friend took them for 1 month and fell pregnant and she sold her other 2 tubs and they fell pregnant straight away as well but you can read up about it on google and see what you think let me no how you get on honey.

Munchy xxx

hi munchy,

thanx for the reply, i'm so sorry to here about your little girl. not many people understand uless you've experienced a loss in similar circumstances. luckily, google directed me to this site and have found some great support.

i think my DH feels the same about my obsessio to get pregnant its become more of a chore which i guess can be upsetting for my DH but he understands which is a good thing.

because of all the complications, during my pregnancy, and later my gyny has advised us to wait 6 months, which is jan 08 it seems like light years away. so, i got a second opinion and we got the go ahead. i did a test this morning and it was :bfn: so im feeling really depressed today.

im in leicester, east midlands not too far from mk.

i thought i was the only one that had thoughts of losing my DH. beleive me i know how stressing that can be. i worry when he leaves for work and want him around 24/7. i thought i was being stupid and never mentioned it to anyone. it feels so reassuring reading the posts on this thread.

Hey Munchy

I am so sorry chicken that you got af and i agree its a good idea to go see your gp as you said you have been trying for 12mths now so i think its time at least then you will hopefully get some answers as to why its taking so long to fall again. please let me know how it goes, i will be thinking of you hun

It would be so interesting to find out exactly how many women think about the stuff we are thinking about ( lossing our loved ones, being stabbed) honestly i cant believe that we are thinking about the exact same things, to be really honest i thought there was something really wrong with me, i cant understand why i am always living in fear, i am so god damn tired of the worry and stress of all of it and to make it worse dp went back to work today for another 10 days so its back to being scared tonight and getting no sleep and crying non stop cos i am so scared and worried, and i am so worried about him driving by himself i dont want him to have an accident god i hate this:wall: ok i will stop now otherwise i will keep on going.

Sofy

I am so sorry for your loss sweety, you have found the perfect web site bb is the best. i am sorry that you got a bfn could it be cos you tested to early? or has af arrived? hopefully its just cos you tested to early:pray:
I know what you mean about obession with trying to fall pregnant again, i havent lost like you or munchy have but have miscarried twice, my first pregnancy came after 2 yrs of trying and they were twins i miscarried them at 8 wks and then fell pregnant a few mnths later and miscarried at 7 wks pregnant. my obsession to fall pregnant is part of the reason why i am divorced now. but i have changed alot in my self and i have an awesome partner who is alot more understanding but because i have had a failed marriage partly cos of this i can recognise when i am going a bit overboard about the whole baby thing and i pull back from the situation and think to myself, that i would rather have dp in my life then nothing at all if you know what i mean? we all have our rough days and sometimes dp or dh just will never understand how we feel, hahhahah men :rolleyes:
so are you thinking of taking ovulex? hopefully they will give you a great result, so you and munchy dont live to far from each other? thats pretty cool

take care girls

hi mummy2chloe,

I conceived with my son Mustafa, after 5yrs fertility treatment. he passed away cos i went into labour too eary at 23 wks i was stitched up but culdn't hold on :(. cos my cervix had torn i had to hav an emergency c/section. to add to that the doc nipped my bladder so i've not done too well. at least, now i know i am someone's mommy. some one i thought i would never be!

i had been taking injections to ovulate cos i didnt get AF. i actully did for the first time last month naturally without any medication but i tested day 31 so i dont think it was too early. no AF but not unusual. we will try until JAn and then go back to hospital for fert treatment.

I do feel scared about losing my DH over the obsession, so i have a reality check most days and think about whether i could live without him aswell. just the thought of losing him freaks me out so like you i try and relax.so, yeah i totaly know what you mean.

fasting at the moment so really tired even though i've been sleeping a lot. but, i think fasting has come at the right time it's sprirtiually healing in a strange sort of way. my sons due date is 17th october not looking forward to it. but, maybe i can convince my DH to take me to the cemetry.

sorr, guys i'm going on and on dont mean to bore you. take care

hi girls sorry its took me ages to reply i as off sick for 2 days last week as i have my horrible wisdom tooth peeking through and it has being giving me grief and then to add to it i came in this morning and had an email from my HR department saying that i am at risk of redundancy my whole department is and many more in the company and i will find out within the next 30 days so i am really panicing as if i get made redundant it means if i fall pregnant soon i wont get maternaity pay and there is no way i am holding off trying for a little bub as that will send me crazy i just dont know what to do sorry to go on guys.

mummy2chloe

i would also love to hear if other women experiance these anxiotys i have a feeling it is quite common and normal after all the things we have been through i just wish i didnt have to live in fear all the time as it does wear you down. i still havent made an appointment with gp i think i am scared to go incase there is something realy wrong but i will make one this week and get things moving along also i have been thinking of christmas io no its ages away but i cant help it i have asked my DH to get me a glass plac and have it engraved with my angels name and date she was born and some special words what do you think i thought it was a really good idea also my dh showed some imotions yesterday the song that was played at her funeral came on telly and he started crying i was so shocked he said i thought i was over it and i said you will never be over it and gave him a big cuddle.also sorry to hear your DP has go to work again i would really hate that well i am getting a laptop soon so i can go on hear at home aswell so cant wait to get that.

Sofy
sorry to hear you got a BFN it is so dissapointing as we get all our hopes up to then get it thrown in our faces sending big hugs to you honey. so you live in leicester my DH supports the rugy team we sometimes take a trip up there to watch a game. i really hope you fall pregnant soon honey and its nice that your DH wants the same myh DH wants the same but he is happy not to have another one aswell where i wont be happy untill i have another baby.

Munchy xxx

Hey munchy

How are you feeling sweetie?? hopefully that wisdom tooth isnt giving you a hard time still?

So sorry to hear about whats going on at work, hopefully you wont be affected by it, you will have to let me know how things go? If you do lose your job what are you guy's going to do? have you already started looking for jobs else where? god i hope it all works out for you, this is the last thing you and dp need.

Did you end up making an appointment with the doctor?? if so how did it go?
I think what you asked dh to get you for christmas is a beautiful idea.

Not much to report with me, just got af so i will be starting clomid on day 5 and will be doing around of iui this month, so fingers crossed hopefully something will go our way with it. my dp comes home tonight :dance: cant wait to see him, crickey i miss him when he is gone, plus i am looking forward to having a good sleep, as i can never sleep properly while he is gone.

Sofy

How are you doing hun??

Mummy2chloe

hello honey how you doing well i still havent made appontment with docs i have to ring on the day i want it and i havent had a free day yet but will hopefully go on wed or thur and as to work i have a meeting on the 16th of oct which is 2morrow so i am hoping it is about what is going on fingers crossed it is good news and not bad as i reall dont want to be looking for another job. i havent being looking yet as i need to update my CV so if i like one i can send my cv in and hope for an interview i would love to work in a hospital maybe being a maternity care assistant or something or a teacher assistant or a childminder i will have to see. as to my tooth it has being fine all weekend but today is the worst day i have had with it the shooting pains are so painful i just wish they would rip it out and be done with it.

Guess what i got on wed last week a puppy i no i am mad but my sisters friend had some puppy staffs and i couldnt resist we called him stanley he is such a good dog he is 7 wks old today and he is toilet trained he holds it in all night and then in the morning he goes in the garden and does his buisness how good i think i have it lucky with him but he does keep nipping but he is only young i am gonna take him to puppy classes so i can learn and he can learn how to get him to behaive and he has his injections on friday i just cant wait till i can take him out for walks also i was hoping that this would take my mind of trying for a bub ah.

glad to hear that DP is back i bet you feel so much more relaxed when he is home i would never be able to sleep properly either bless ya honey. well i have my fingers crossed for this month that you get a BFP and i will keep you posted about my work and docs have a nice day take care.

Munchy xxx

not been on line foe over a week now. been fasting and had a few appts at the hosoital my c/s seemed to be hurting after 14 wks. all is okay. busy w/end with eid but everything back to normal now.

munchy,
where do you work? there should be a lot of jobs going at the moment cos of xmas and some are perm contracts. hopefully, you won't need to look good luck for the meeting tmrw. i think going to work in ahospital seems like a great idea but i don't think i'd be able to afford it on the pay.

if you have any teething powder try rubbing it on your wisdom tooth it helped me. but then my teeth were growing the wrong way so they had to be taken out.

mummy2chloe
good luck with the clomid cycle. i started on that but my ovaries didn't respond. so, we had to go on to fsh injections. they took absolutely ages in all 5yrs before i conceived with mustafa. due date 17th oct i'm feeling okay, i guess!
i've got PCOS aswell, ive put on a lot of weight around my waist so ill be joining the gym next week. hopefully then ill fit into my old clothes again.

take care

Hi sofy

i was woundering where you were sounds like you have been busy did you say that your c section was hurting you poor thing you have been through so much after loosing a baby the last thing you need is all these problems to add to everything i had a c section with my little man harvey who is 4 yrs old and i had loads of problems with the scaring and that i got infections and my tummy is still numb now i hope you feel better soon and i hope that 2morrow isnt to upsetting for you i found that on brooklyns due date i was fine it was the day after it hit me and i was down for about a week thinking that she should be with me now i should be holding her and nursing her and chagging her bum and having all those sleepness nights it is hard sending big hugs to you for 2morrow :hug:.

I work at t-systems they have just bought our company well they did in january so i think there plan was to get rid of all the people who didnt orginally work for them but i will find out at 4.00pm today i have to come back to work as i finnish at 2.30 as to working in a hospital i would also have to see what the money is like as long as i am taking home £600 a month i am fine as my DH pays all the bills i only pay for luxery things such as sky plus and my puppy and going out and xmas presents and birthdays and that but like you say it is coming up to xmas so fingers crossed there will be something if i have to look. aslo thanks for the tip about the wizdom tooth i will try it next time it starts hurting the funny thing is i was told that my wizdom teeth were growing the wrong way and that they would never come through but they were wrong not sure if it is growning properly yet as i can only see a bit of white.

i hope that 2morrow goes ok honey and will be here if you need to talk take care

Munchy xxx

Hey munchy

best of luck with your job today? and i hope your wisdom tooth gets better soon, hopefully what sofy said will help it. Congrats on the new puppy, sounds sooooo cute and it sounds like your enjoying every second of it, so good for you sweetie and i bet harvey is loving it just as much, my poor puppy is like 10 yrs old and but i love her to bits. I think its a great idea working in a hospital with any luck if it the pay is good you might be able to go for it.

Sofy
Honey i really hope that your ceasar scar gets better soon you poor thing and i hope that today wont be to hard for you:hug:
I know what you mean about putting on weight with pcos, its a pain in the bl**dy bum last time i took clomid i ohss because of the pcos hopefully that wont happen this time round

Well as for me i went to fs yesterday and he said i had to start taking clomid straight away and i then have to go back in on monday to get ultrasound to see how many little eggs i made, but we are on a bit of a time frame as i can only get the iui done either on the wednesday or the thursday as dp works 5hrs away from me and they are the only days that he will be home, so fs is going to try his hardest to get my eggs ready and ovulating on either wednesday/thursday otherwise we wont be able to do it this month:cry:

take care ladies

Hi mummy2chloe

hello chicken well on the work front the meeting was a total waste of time they still dont no what they are doing they said VW might buy us or another department might take us on or get rid of us completley but even if we go to another department they want at least 3 to 4 people to go so we will see they have to tell us leagaly what is going on in the next 2 weeks so for now just sit tight i suppose. as to puppy i am loving it apart from the play nipping he just doesnt stop biteing it is really annoying but he is still young and i am taking him to puppy classes which will be good also the lady who runs the puppy classes asked if i had any children and i said i have a 4yr old boy and she said brilliant as i am looking for children aged 4 to 8 to do a tv programme on cbeebies with the there dogs so fingers crossed it goes a head and harvey will be a little star on the childrens tv programme i hope it all goes to plan.

I really hope that those eggs are ready and that it can happern on the wednesday or thursday i have everything crossed for you that it all works and you get your BFP this month it would be so good if we got BFP on the same month ah.

and sofy how you doing today honey i am thinking of you and sending lots of :hug: to you hope you are ok and that the day isnt to upsetting take care.

Munchy xxx

hi mummy2chloe and munchy,

17th was okay like you said, but its been worse since. i feel crap all i wanna do is hold my baby but no i cant :crying: i no DH feels it to cos he seems really quiet.

so sorry don't think i can write anymore.....

Hey Munchy

O my god you might have a little star on your hands (harvey) how exciting you will have to let me know what happens with that. are you still taking the ovulex?? are you seeing any signs of them working? just think in 2 weeks time hopefully you will know whats going to happen with work?? i really hope nothing happens to you and you get to stay, its bloody terrible timing its soooo close to christmas, what a great time to be doing this to your employee's, what idiots.

Sofy

thank you sweetie for letting us know how the 17th went :hug:
i wish there was something i could say or do to take away this pain your feeling, i am so sorry darl. go and look into dh eyes and tell him that you love him and feel the pain that he is feeling too and just hold each other and love each other like crazy to help you both through this tough time. please know that we are here for you no matter what.

Well i am on my last day of clomid tablets, my scan is monday so hopefully something is happening down there, i am a bit worried that there wont be any eggs there or something as i am only on 25mg of clomid because i ohss on 50mg so i have been stressing out that cos i am on half the dose i wont make eggs, hahaha silly i know, either way i will know monday. Dp went back to work today:cry: so its back to stressing and being scared, i know i say this all the time but god i miss him, i really dont know how much more i can take, i am not handleing this very well i am sick of being alone i miss being apart of his life and he is missing out on alot in mine and dd lives, i would do anything to have him home EVERY NIGHT. ok i will stop there other wise i will just keep going on and on.

take care ladies

Sofy honey

i feel for you so much it is hard and like i said its after the day that you feel it most you just keep imagineing what it would have been like to have this new baby in your arms to look after to hear it cry to change its bum to feed it to take it for walks to watch its first steps and first words god i am getting choked up its just so upseting life is just crap at times and you always seem to think why did it happen to my baby well we are hear when you feel ready to talk just take time and make sure you and DH give each other all the cuddles in the world and talk about how you feel take care. xxx

Mummy2chloe
Yeh i am still taking ovulex almost finnished mt secound tub going on to the 3rd not sure if they are working but i strated taking them when my periods were all over the place and since taking them they seem to be getting back on track i come on on time this month then i think they have helped with that also i am less stressy and i am sure i ovulate for longer than usual so i do think they might be working but untill i get that BFP i cant say for sure hopefully i will get one this month i am due on around the 1st to 4th of nov. So how did it go today with the scan i really hope you have some good new to tell me and that the eggs are all good i have my fingers crossed for you. and as to DP i feel for you i would hate it you are so brave to stay on your own i would go crazy is there anyway he could change job to be closer how good would that be him coming home every night you would feel so much better anyway i had better do some work let me know how scan went.

Munchy xxx

Hey Munchy

It"s good that your still on the ovulex tablets and its good that your seeing some results with your af becoming more regular. Hopefully you will recieve a beautiful bfp this month:pray:

Do you have any news about your job?? my god you poor thing you must be sooo stressed

Well had my scan yesterday and i have one egg that is 20mm in size (biggest one i have made ever) and another one that is 16/17mm in size, so i have to have my injection tonight and we inseminate thursday, so happy that i actually made some eggs as i was pretty worried that only being on 25mg of clomid i wouldnt make anything, but i have 2 gorgeous little ones waiting there for me. and fs told me that by thursday the 2 eggs would of had another two days of growing so they should be bigger and busting to get out:dance:

i might not be on for a few days as i have to go away after getting inseminated, but as soon as we get back i will tell you how things went.

thanks again for checking in on me

take care

Mummy2chloe

yeh :happyforyou: i am so happy you have some good :egg: waiting i have everything crossed for you and the biggest ones yet how good is that well make sure you let me know how it all goes hoe good would it be if we both got a BFP i really hope we do i have a feeling i wont i think that i am to big to get pregnant i still havent being docs so i am gonna try go today and mention about having a blood test and that i have now being trying for a yr and if there is anything they can do to help me lose weight i just feel a little fed up with myself and when i get down i eat its a visous circle that i need to get of. i will find out 2morrow or thurday if i am getting made redundant so fingers crossed i dont as i dont want the hassel of it all. i do feel a little stressed but i will try my hardest not to i went and done loads of xmas shopping yesterday which made me feel good if i feel stressed or upset the things that help is eating and retail therapy anyway i am gonna go done no work yet i just cant get into it at the min but everyone is the same. good luck with everything

munchy xxx

hey munchy

i am back and everything went well, nathan's sperm count came back perfect which is awesome, so now i just sit and wait for the next 2 weeks and with any luck will have a bfp at the end of it. how are things with you?? did you end up getting into the doc's? i know what you mean about emotional eating, i use to be like that but then something just clicked in my head one day, i got the ****s with myself and just started to change my life, started weight watchers and playing tennis and just stuck with it and ended up losing 25 kilo's. i really hope the doctor can help you, and just know that i am always here for you if you ever want to chat, please feel free to pm me anytime. anyway i better go i have had a huge day ( hopefully with any luck, our swimmers have found my fat eggs)
take care chicken

Mummy2chloe

Glad to hear it all went well i really hope you get that well deserved BFP in 2 weeks you will have to let us all no. I didnt get made redundant which is such a relief so i can relax a bit now and not panic about it also i didnt get chance to go docs as my sister rang me at work telling me her youngest daughter amy who is 3 got taken to hospital cos she swallowed a penny and it was stuck in her chest so i had to go to hospital and get her other daughter abi but she is fine now they had to operate on her but when they did the penny had moved into her tummy so we are now waiting for her to poo it out but it has been 4 or 5 days and it still hasnt come my sister has to take her back to the hospital if it doesnt come out int he next 2 days bless her. i will have to go docs sometime this week as i really want to get some answers. i really hope i get what you got where something just clicks and i loose the weight i was thinking about getting the stomache band i no its a bit extream but i feel like i need to do something. anyway let me no how those swimmers get on ha ha

Munchy xxx