Struggling..

[Tascha]

I have two boys.. happy healthy boys. I know I am blessed. I know I am lucky. I know I should feel guilty for feeling this way.. but I do. I can't help it. I feel the empty space that should/could/would be filled with a 5th member of our family. And every month am reminded that it aint happening.

venting.. life is a B**** and we all know it.. but today.. well today I just want to knock her down and beat her to a pulp.

[chody47]

Hugs Hun.

[juniper76]

I know just what you mean. I hope tomorrow is a less painful day for you...

[OceanPrincess]

I know what you're feeling... I went thru the same thing before we conceived DS2. hope tomorrow is a brighter day.

[Mummy&Daddy2Be]

big 's. we all have days like that. i hope tomorrow is better for you hun

[toomanyshoes]

Whether you have 1, none or 5 the heart wants what the heart wants.

Hang in there

[~TT40~]

*massive hugs*

[Hazelmist]

I know how you feel! Hope you have a better day

[Starfish]

Hope you're having a better day.

FWIW, there is not "should" when it comes to how you feel. You have every right to feel the way you do, so please don't beat yourself up about it.

[myturn]

I'll join you in the beatings. It's crap sometimes.

[Tascha]

Thank you so much to each and every one of you. On days like that.. I just feel better to vent online than try and explain myself to those who don't know. Its just easier.
Still feeling blue.. but that's more to do with needing some time to miss my boys.. if you know what I mean. Considering a psychic.. maybe that might give me closer or hope.