Sunshine - oh my sweetie - I am so sorry for the loss of your little man. You are not a failure, absolutely not!! Although I know how you feel, but be gentle on yourself and don't blame yourself. The loss of your little boy is a sad and heartbreaking tragedy.

Wow, at only two weeks in, your pain must still be so raw an overwhelming and you must still be trying to see through a constant stream of tears. It does change, and in time the tears do stop being so constant. I remember being afraid of what I might do and how I would cope once the tears stopped. I actually found a lot of comfort in the tears because it meant I was still close to and remembering my babies. I was honestly really frightened of not crying. I managed to find a way through that.

Go gently, this journey you are now on, is one of the hardest, if not the hardest. Give yourself time to heal, but if you get really scared, ask for help.

Stay and lurk as much as you need to in here, and when you can post. Know that we all in here, know your pain and the tough tough journey you are on now. Altough each of our journey's are different they are also similar. Don't be a stranger.

AFM - thankyou so much for all your kind words of support. I actually have such a sense of peace today and I am just so overwhelming proud of my little girl and of DH and I. Not that we are "through it" but we have survived and grown in our love for each other and our angel babies.

I'll write more later, just wanted to touch base. Take care.