Hello everyone,

My name is Angela and I am a registered nurse and pharmaceutical sales representative from Ohio. Sadly, my husband and I loss our baby daughter (Ashley) last Thursday. I was 20 weeks pregnant. And, I have been desperately been looking for a new site to join where everyone can understand my experiences. This is my third pregnancy, with our first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage (natural), the second pregnancy ended in an ectopic pregnancy (natural), and our third pregnancy (IVF pregnancy) with twins started to go wrong with the Vanishing Twin Syndrome at 6 weeks and a stillbirth at 20 weeks.

I just can't believe this has happened to us once again. And you won't believe this, we lost our last baby on the same day 3 years ago and our first pregnancy in late February! My husband and I are trying to pick up the pieces from our broken dreams once again. I can't believe I had to deliver her and say good-bye. I am so happy that I was able to hold her and take pictures of her to always remember her.

I really wanted to join this group so I can get some advice on how I can pick up the pieces and go on with my life. My husband and I have talked about going through another IVF cycle in a few months. I am not scared of going through the horrible injections and treatments but I am truly scared of loosing another baby. I have noticed that some of you ladies are currently pregnant after your losses; how did you get the courage to go through it once again? I have had to pick the pieces up before after a loss but this one really took us by surprise. We thought once we reached our 12th week mark that we finally made it.

Any help from you brave ladies would be like heaven right now.

Angela

1 miscarriage in 2002
1 ectopic pregnancy in 2006
1 stillbirth 2/2009 (Ashley Nicole Thomas)