Lee - Congratulations! I am happy for you Wishing you a sticky sticky baby.

Princess Confused & Jodi - I am sorry for your losses. I hope this forum helps you deal with the difficult time you are going through.

Hi everyone else. Sorry this a selfish post.

I am wrecking myself with anxiety. I went to see the doc today who referred me for an early scan tomorrow. I started having cramps while I was in the doc's waiting room, and then once I got home I spotted twice (two little brown drops, sorry if TMI).

I'm convinced that I'm going to m/c. I feel like I'm to blame cos I couldn't get excited about this baby and therefore maybe didn't love it enough. My head is so messed up. I had a big fight with DH on Sun night, which was so unfair on him. His grandpa died on Sat.

DH & I have been taking turns to get upset & comfort each other. DH about the death of his much loved pop and me about the impending m/c & my selfishness.

I know they won't find a heartbeat tomorrow (its too early anyway, 6w4d), but I am petrified that I'll lose it before then, or I'll lose it in a hideous mess in the waiting room or they'll tell me for sure that its not viable.

I might be joining some of you on the Waiting for AF thread soon. Is it too pessimistic to start a Waiting for M/C thread?