Wow, it's been busy in here... so much to catch up on!
Kerrry - congrats on those levels! That is fantastic! I am very happy for you and extremely confident that your little bubba is growing nice and healthy in there!
Janeo & missbelinda - I hear you on the constant waiting. I feel like all I do is wait for AF, wait to O, wait to test, wait to see if I m/c, and then start the entire process all over again. All I do is wait! I look forward to time passing, and that is no way to live, yet it can be so hard getting your perspective back and trying to just enjoy the journey sometimes.
Hope - thanks for your thoughts. I can't believe how fast your pg is going! I check up on you a lot and am so glad to see everything going along so well.
Nicole - happy birthday!
SP - how are you going, sweets? Panic attacks are really horrible, but I think it's understandable at a time like this, and believe me, it will pass. With everything that has happened, your poor head has had so much to deal with. Are you still seeing your counsellor? It may be a good thing to bring up with them, and they will be able to give you strategies to overcome them. Strangely, since my m/cs, I have not had panic attacks, although I have suffered from them in the past, but the recent events have made my depression worse instead. I hope you are going ok
Well, I had an ok weekend, until yesterday. DH is working really long hours atm, and yesterday was his only day off for about 3 wks. We ended up having a massive fight. He gets manic depressive sometimes, and is really tired from working so hard and suddenly decided he wanted to spend $2k on something I really don't think we need. Anyway, we had a massive fight about it, and then the m/cs came up, and how I blame myself, and he thinks that we may aswell just spend our money on whatever we want because it's not like we have a family we need to be careful with money for. My POV is that we may be pg now, or at least soon, as we are trying, and we don't have the money to be stupid if we are going down to one income shortly. Anyway, we had to go to the ILs for dinner last night, which I struggle with, as the whole family would be there clucking over the new baby, my MIL would be making constant insensitive remarks, and it all gets too much for me. Last time I spent the night crying in the bathroom, and after the day we had yesterday, and the fact that I was crying before we even left, it was the last thing I wanted to do. Then we had another fight over me not wanting to go, and him saying he doesn't want to either, as he can't stand it too, but is just able to hide it better than me, and I should be stronger.... I will leave it there before I bore you all to tears, but basically, it was a pretty shocking day and I am a bit over everything atm.
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